Hi everyone, just caught up as Ive had a busy few days at work, guess it helps to take my mind of everything.
weimy - thanks for your kind thoughts, and glad everythign went well for you re meeting. 
bossyboop -
caught up on all your news, so sorry, I know whether you mean to or not its impossible not to get your hopes up if you get a faint BFP, Ive been there. With me when AF arrived 2 days later I worked out it was most likely a chemical pregnancy and strangely it wasnt as bad as I thought because I had been ttc for a while and it was the first hint - I had no idea if I was fertile with my new DP or not - so it gave me hope. This was with DS2 and it was another year or so before I got my BFP with him.
So sorry you are feeling so down, it seems never ending and its the not knowing if it will ever be successful that is the killer - but I used to tell myself that "giving up" would mean having sex with contraception - therefore making it impossible and even if I thought I was "giving up" I would always be generally aware of my cycle and it would always be in the back of my mind.
scrummybomb" and essence* - ah no, sorry about AF 
ifatfirst - just to say Ive never ever had any early pregnancy symptoms with any of my 3 boys, not even morning sickness, which I feel a bit of a fraud about lol.
So I never go by symptoms now, or at least I try not to! And I do admire your restraint re testing, when you have internet cheapies it seems such a shame not to use them!!
auntieD - fx, your chart is looking good 
harder - yeh for your BFP on the CB digi 
Come and join us reallyuseful 
jaggy - my DH is a SAHD to!