Welcome to Wakari
Had a more positive day yesterday.
Some positive thinking, a counselling session and got home to see that my very lovely DP had re-arranged all the upstairs rooms to make room for a baby (including moving a bed, two chests of drawers and tidying up a whole load of clutter, and hoovering throughout) - he knew I had been meaning to get around to it, but hadn't had chance. It really touched me, because I knew he did it for me and he knew how much it would mean to me :)
This was something recommended by my counsellor, make room in my life and my house for a baby :)
If not this one, then one that will be coming along very soon, I hope.
Feeling a little bit more negative about tomorrow now, but at least calm (before the storm perhaps).
Would be so miraculous if they saw a little one in there. But I have completely normal boobs now, although have still felt very tired and emotional and quite light headed, and have just cocked up someone's get well card at work, by writing 'sorry to be losing you - keep in touch' (thinking it was a card for a guy that's leaving! DOH!!!
sorry to be self-indulgent (again) - helps to write it down.