Feck off with your babydust - The hut of gl/doom, home of inadequate reproduction

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ok, so the hut disappeared so I decided to open a new one. tis a 20's style gin joint!

Hello Ladies...any room for one more..i've been TTC#1 for nearly three years and i've i hear one more time 'you want it too much' or 'just relax' i'm gonna seriously go mad!!! I've brought some rum with me!! xxx

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The hut disappeared? That's almost good news, no? Although, no, clearly not really.

AF arrived today. I am tearful and tired and generally pissed off.

If I hear one more person tell me to 'relax and it will happen at the right time' I am going to punch them in the fucking face.

Anyway, as you were!

That is exactly what the hut is and always been for, Doris. It helps to know you're not alone even though it feels like most of the time. I remember it all too well although my journey ended happily after 6.5 years.

This thread looks like it could become my spiritual home...

I turn 38 in a few weeks time, the same day that DD turns 2. Had a mc at the end of July last year and have been ttc since but to no avail. I have been on a mc thread but there seems to be more BFPs than TTCs on there at the moment. Am currently waiting for results of fertility blood tests to see just how creaky my ovaries are

hey duchesse good to see you. how the devil are ya? (shreks here, btw, by a new name).
lots of newbies welcome, enjoy the gloom and gin. we could make it more cheery when the band strikes up and we can swing our non cumbersome-due-to-pregnancy bodies around in our flapper dresses... i do love the 20's.

Hi shreks, laid up with a broken ankle but otherwise very well thank you. Feel lucky every day.

hello can I join?

Have been ttc #1 for more than 2 years and have just two mmc to show for it. Last mmc in November.

Have been to consultant for blood tests and got my results today. My AMH is 0.85 which he said makes me 75% likely to miscarry if I get pg again and my best chance is donar eggs.

I am in shock....and have bought all the chocolate in the shop. And it is too early for wine? Am I in the right place or am I too extreme? Please tell me nicely and I'll slink off again........

You are in exactly the right place tomato. I'm here fraudulently, just visiting, but there will be others along soon. And drinking wine and other stuff is actively encouraged. After all it's not like it's going to make a difference is it?

WWhhhhooooowwwww - DUCHESSE, so good to see you, it is so long since you have been here, not that you need to be here now obviously. Sorry to hear about the broken ankle, I hope that you get a swift and full recovery. How are all your brood including the youngest? So good of you to drop in here with all the goodies too.

Yellowtomato- sorry you have got depressing news from the consultant. I did not think that there was a link betweek AMH and M/C but I am not an expert. For you to be concieving with an AMH so low is amazing. AMH is supposedly a measure of the number of eggs left, but it says nothing about quality of the eggs. So for you to have become pregnant twice with such a low level is incredible. I am in a different boat to you, my AMH is normal but I have m/c 10 times now (nine consequetive m/c's). I was told by the RMC unit at St Mary's (Prof Lesley Regan) that the AMH test means nothing and is not worth doing except maybe in cases where you are going to do IVF. So forget the doctors have another glass of wine here and enjoy the ambiance here!

Hi to all the usual regulars and all the other newbies,,,,, sorry I can't do a few more personal messages, I have to get a drink now and wallow in my own misery for a bit!

Please can i join??? Desperately trying to concieve baby number 4! Have DD 13, DS 7 and DS just turned 3. All came along no problems no waiting! Number 4 not a chance. I am 32 and my Husband 30 and i am sick of hearing..."ah it will happen" or "but you already have 3 anyway" or " just wait and be patient"
How much longer do i have to wait with my mind playing tricks on me every month?? :( Wine please!!!

yellowtomato Sorry about your news, but I think galwaygal sounds like she knows what she's talking about! Take heart!

AuntieDoris I second those emotions!

So, been referred to the Assisted Conception Clinic today. Pleased that the doctor is happy to do this and to get the process moving but still upset that we even have to be there.

Have been to the doctor so many times in the past couple of weeks that I've been getting a lot of knowing smiles and nods at work from people assuming that I'm pregnant so have started just telling people the truth.

Are there any polite responses to "but a year is nothing!", "you're probably trying too hard" or (my personal favourite) "try to stop thinking about it". My colleagues really are lovely and kind and just being nice but ARGH!!!

Can I have some of that gin and chocolate?

(I'm picturing us all like a glamorous scene from House of Elliot...how chic we are!:))

MrsH you are so right....
here are pictures of us all!!!! I had been picturing cassablanca "of all the gin joints in the world and she walks into mine" sort of idea, but the house of eliott is so much more fitting for us!!!!

I love it galwaygal!

Hope everyone has had a good weekend without too much wallowing and obsessing.

:)

ok, I need to catch up, I see we have newbies, grab a bathtub of gin and a cigarette while I catch up.

off to see my useless twat of a consultant on friday, hormones not settled in almost 9 months, but am tempted to leave out last mc so he will give me more clomid/re-do tests.

fucked off. everyone is pregnant except me and its been 63 cycles. the most natural thing in the world my hairy arse.

Hi all i was wondering if you had a dark corner that i could just sit and soak up gloom in.
I have been told for years that because of endometriosis i prob cant concieve. Finally told in August( after lap ) that my tubes were actually (miraculously) still clear. So just get on with it consultant said.

So every months without fail as soon as my period finishes (day 8 - 10) we have sex every other day. And every month my period arrives. It was due on christmas day and i was 5 days late, so hub and i were very gutted after that. I charted temp religiously this month and yet AF arrives as usual.

Why is this so hard?

hi laura, welcome to the hut, sorry you are here is there a plan? how long have you been ttc for?

Well i came off the pill 18 months ago and we just decided to see what might happen. We knew it was a very small possiblity (or thats what we thought up until the lap at least). Since August we have been actively trying. Saw doc this morning and she said i did ovulate before day 24. (how it that a helpful statisitic'!!)
So plan is keep trying!

Hi Laura, sorry you are here and that you are finding things so hard. Our bodies can be so cruel - how disappointing to be 5 days late with no joy.

Lissie, there is nothing I can say that you've not heard before or that will cheer you up. :( All I can offer are some chocolates to join the bathtub of gin and the ciggie.

Hey all,

Well my latest trip to hsopital regarding my recurrent miscarriages, has lead to yet another doctor telling me just how I am too old to be at this game, and did I really really want to continue!!!! Anyway this doctor did have the advantage over the previous ones in that at least he had some idea what he was talking about.

Because of my positive ANA test, he now is prescribing Asprin, progesterone and heperin.... new one for me - but even more strange is that he wants me to take this from day 21 each month, not just from positive test. So it looks like I will soon be jabbing myself with needles as well as having lovely suppositories. I did ask him about predniolone, and he said that he is waiting til the results that should be published in June this year from the double-blind placebo trial.

Oh well, I will just rest here with my little old eggs and fill them with some gin.

i am in a really bad mood.

Just remembering the time when at my lowest ttc ebb, ours friends announced that they were expecting (IVF) triplets less than 2 years after the birth of (IVF) twins. I remember distinctly that they could give me one and not even notice. Before pulling myself together and merely feeling terrified for them. For the record they have coped amazingly well, but my reaction at the time was not my finest hour. Pointless ftc month after month seriously takes its toll on one's mental health.

Cheers, ladies. The gin seems plentiful in here.

laura, is your gp going to refer you to a cons? they should really by now!

thank you mrshende x

galway, thats shit, how many cons's now? what is pendoline for? wish my cons would take note!

broccoli whats up my lovely? how are the levels going?

duchesse, think i tremember that. isnt it weird how we react to other people's "good" news. I put people on a rolling scale of "deservedness". and I do a lot of tooth gritting. in fact, my dentist mentioned that Ive been grinding my teeth. if I had a baby, I'd have perfect gnashers!

cons on friday. yes, the shite one who refuses to listen to me and makes me want to rip off my ears. am going to ask for a complete overhaul (another HSG, full bloods etc - its been 3.5 years since the last lot) and another go on clomid. will also mention The Rage, but not sure whether to mention last mc (nearly 8m ago) as at this stage, another one doesnt make much difference to treatment. but I do have medical proof of temp spike etc!

Hi Lissielou,
Yes well i do have a great gynea consultant. He saw me after a diagnostic laparoscopy in August and told me that there was no problem with scarring or chocolate cysts that could prevent preg.
In his words "Lie back and think of Ireland!!" I am having blood tests now to check that i am ovulating ( yes i am ). Next step is hub in a cup!! He is so NOT happy with that one! Hehehehehe.

lol laura, everytime dh moans I give him a graphic breakdown of all my tests (camera's dye, dildocams, internals...) and finish off with "all you have to do is have a wank ffs, grow up"

usually puts him back on track