Feck off with your babydust - The hut of gl/doom, home of inadequate reproduction

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ok, so the hut disappeared so I decided to open a new one. tis a 20's style gin joint!

Morning, still no AF here, due on this week though! Feel v sick! But got tummy cramp too and am very irritable so she is sure to be on her way :(

Been and had a good cry, house needs a thorough spring clean but this was more important to get it out of my system. Feel quite cleansed myself after that! Was actually feeling a bit miserable over finances but have done the sums and obtained some perspective and rational thinking and it was not as gloomy in the bossy household as first thought and actually feel more optimistic. So AF do your worst im ready for you now!

I am now feeling very sick! I dont know why... but I am getting cramps as well so sure AF is on way!

I was feeling quite sick too but think it was all the emotion building up, either that or im just sick of myself! Just sharp twinges near my hips now, add it to the list of symptoms for when I see the consultant again!

I am wondering if I should test or not... I have started a thread. :(

Ive had a good cry too today, mines a pink gin BTW

Bossy - I get twinges near my hips all the time - think its too far from the ovaries to be significant - have even stared at my tummy trying to imagine where everything is! I'm sure though its just another symptom to add to the list of one's I worry about.
I have convinced myself I am not PG - have been at my most depressed all weekend - have another week to go - so will be even more depressed next weekend when I'm 100% definitely NOT PG. I wish I could relax just a little bit about the whole thing...

SIL just sent through 12 wk scan pic for number 2, their DD is younger than DS. Inlaws asking when we're going to have number 2. Feeling v sad

know the feeling, im so blessed to have dd and could be really happy just as we are but dd keeps asking for a baby sister and I just dont know what to say anymore, im really trying! She looked at the empty cot and said if we ever get a baby to go in there we need to get it some blankets. She was coming round to the idea that maybe a guinea pig could be a sister but think I will have to work harder on that one I think. Apart from the empty cot theres a loft full of clothes and everything else you need for a newborn. Thats why I will be glad to see the gyn again to see if we are going forward with this or just giving up on the idea as at least if theres a problem and we have to stop then we can move forward by getting rid of all the baby things, instead of clinging onto them for something we havent got.

I lent all the baby things to my SIL for her babies. Makes me feel better that they're being used by a baby rather than in the loft. Be positive bossy, there's no need to think that there won't be another baby for you, or me for that matter, we've just got to work on the patience for the long wait!

got pink cm boohoo but only cd23

changing, left you a reply on charters thread but doubt I make any sense!

bossy that brought a lump to my throat - your little one talking about the cot etc. I've got a DD too so despite all the problems we're having ttc No. 2 I do cling onto the fact we've managed it once when I'm feeling particularly shit.

ellangirl that's why we're all here!
I feel terrible, eye-stingingly tired... hoping it's a good sign! Playing the waiting game. I'm quite enjoying charting though it gives me something to look at rather than just obsessively POAS.

Sympathy bossy- I avoid going in room full of baby stuff as I keep thinking should clear it out but can't and dd also asks about it ( thankfully she hasn't asked about baby brother or sister). Gun and sympathy here for those who have had a tough day.

And completely agree that I am so blessed with dd ESP given issues I had having her but that doesn't stop me wanting another one .

Let me sit in glom I m keep ing my last glass to self in Rl and ive killed a few threads whilst better of three glasses. angry and sad today, and according to MN I am reminded of neing overweight and the tiger who came to tea is to do with cocks.

Why does MN roundup email never reflect my experience of MN. I mean its farciful that it never mentioned twattergate banning of the lou person - yes I saod fuck it a few lines back, I am pissed off in this bore hole and there are no jaffa cakes in the house - whic is just as well. I am on the weightwankers diets:

I limit my food
Dh limit the latter to BD opitimum etc etc

Who has pink gins@>

Is it too early to start drinking? Temp has dropped below cover line. Feel like af is in her car driving along the motorway to visit. Was always a long shot. Positive: at least I can really get drunk on holiday. Negative: no more trying for a few months :(

my chart has cruelly gone shooting back up but still have brown spotting which was pink at times last night though you know what its like, intermittent so builds your hopes up after it disappears for hours only to return then disappear again then bang af arrives. Still above cover line at the mo, 2 days till af due thurs so plenty of time to take that almighty dip again.

It's an emotional, physical and temperature rollercoaster isn't it?! Been busy with work this morning so not been thinking too much though have been staring at FF chart to see if it changes without me changing the data!
Thought of another positive: at least AF should be out the way by my holiday or at least tailing off by the time I leave...

you have to find a silver lining dont you, I could write a book full of the ones Ive used the last 16/17 months! I have managed to rack up 69 pregnancy points at least, yesterday was a strange day, very emotional, crying at biggest loser and glee, various aches and pains, the spotting. My silver lining this time is that at least Im seeing the gyn later this month who is investigating my 'symptoms' otherwise I would have been just making an appointment with gp so at least Im a few steps ahead towards finding out whats going on.

[back from offy with more gin] have some loveaname. I completely agree re talk round up- it's a smug fest focussing on certain posters. How can you generalise on a site this size?
Bex getting it out the way good but small blessing. Bossy- when is your appt?

Am in mid month denial at moment.

I had a positive thought today which was such a revelation had to share it - February has the lowest number of conceptions out of the whole year - its March now...

Aww pooch, that's nice that!
I'm almost sure I'm going to cave tomorrow at 12dpo and test. hmm.

Dammit! Knew I shouldn't have bothered to test.

oh dear but you know its still early, but we all do it!

I see gyn in about 3 weeks, well thats what they said when I was rearranging vaginal scan appt but havnt had official letter yet, DH wont be doing his 2nd SA until a couple of days before so they might change it. I dont know what to do about blood results as im assuming the results will be sent to gyn who requested them but dont know if docs will have them as well and if they do, do I actually want to know as I would just google and depress myself more!

Just waiting for af to make full appearance now but at least I can symptom spot when it does ready for seeing gyn again.