Feck off with your babydust - The hut of gl/doom, home of inadequate reproduction

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ok, so the hut disappeared so I decided to open a new one. tis a 20's style gin joint!

Hi GWTMH - I had a 42 day cycle as well back in December - shite isnt it! So hard to plan when the cycles are all over the place!

You are not alone, I am 15 months of trying. x

G&T anyone? I'm in the mood... Sounds like you Pink and Ninja might be too, sorry to hear you two have AF on her way for a visit too :-(

AF has arrived for me too. I was secretly hoping acupuncture was going to perform a miracle but still an 11 day LP. Desperate for that elusive 12 day LP to give me peace of mind!
So I go in to cycle 9 since m/c. VODKA please!

Welcome GWTMH - in terms of charting , i think there is a double edge sword on this one. I chart and the one hand it does give me a great indication of exactly when I'm ovulating as I use with OPKs. It has told me I have a short LP so i guess that is useful but sometimes perhaps it's best not to know. On the other hand, I find it has caused me stress as well because i wake in the night worrying about my temps coming down so now I stop taking them about 7 DPO. If you're not the obsessive type - I would say go for it, it might tell you sth.

Vodka all round - hooray!

Mousey (If I can call you that?) I have charted my temp for the past 4 months and actually found it more of a worry and quite a nuisance to take temp every morning before doing anything else. But I do use a CBFM which is reliable at detecting Ov and has agreed with temp chart each time so I'm switching back to just the monitor from now on.

Changing I'm just starting month 15 too - joyous.

I actually feel better today that AF has definitely shown its face than I did yesterday when I was in that horrible limbo of suspecting it was about to arrive but still desperately hoping it wouldn't. I'm also feeling generally more positive about it all as I'm viewing my elusive BFP as a lack of something good happening rather than something bad happening (keep reminding myself of all the good things I do have). I'm also throwing myself into organising DS's 3rd birthday next month too (and definitely not feeling sad that I had hoped to at least be preg by then, or ideally to have produced a sibling for him).

Welcome Mousey! Glad you found us.
Pink I know what you mean. It's the limbo in the tww that's the worst thing really, getting your hopes up. I am there atm, 50% convinced and symptom spotting yet drinking cider so not that convinced. After a year guess I'm tired of putting my life on hold every other fortnight!
Cheers!

thanks for the welcomes. Ugh I just DON'T want to get obessesive.

Pink, my son is 2.5 and I really hoped to also be pregnant to have produced a sibling for him by now too....can't help but start to worry about big age gaps

Saw my acupunc today who said that because my temp hadn't risen by much after OV it was unlikely I was PG this month - on the bright side instead of having a 2WW I've had a 5 day wait. I'm hoping of course that he's wrong.. Along with stressing about getting PG, I then worry about staying PG, there being nothing wrong AND the age gap! Oh the joys of being female, I fuckin hate it... Desperate to have a gin/vodka I still don't want to risk it, just in case...
My SIL had 2 boys really 18 mths apart in the hope they'd be close and they're like chalk and cheese so I have to park stressing about the age gap.
Hairy - how r u doing?? Better I hope.

Blimey I'm either ill or pregnant - had one cider and despite buying a four pack have switched to milk!
I suppose that's good news Pooch - more indication of what to expect.
Interestingly my colleague deliberately had 4 year age gaps between her 3..she wanted to be able to give all her attention to each one when the elder one was at school. They all get one really well, because they're not so close in age they don't rub each other up. I'd always wanted a two year age gap but now would be ok with a bit longer. The stress of tttc#1 may put DH off the idea of dc#2 full stop!

BTW mousey I just started charting (am using fertility friend www.fertilityfriend.com) and found it quite helpful just to understand what's going on with my body. I also recommend "Taking charge of your fertility" by Toni Weschler. I started reading it and it was like lightbulb moment as to why why we'd be unsuccessful (assuming our medical tests come back normal!).
But then again I AM a bit obsessive and taking control has made me feel better!

same here bex, using FF and reading TCOYF has really helped me to understand my body and I feel more confident in getting pregnant now, also subject to normal test results! 10dpo now and feeling really quite tired, a bit iffy, headaches on and off, temps still high, suspicious looking boobs that would usually be really sore now but just look swollen. Im going for a lie down!

I'm having the same symptoms, have opted for retail therapy. Ooh new shoes! Even if I an preggers they will slip on :)

I was looking at the new thread and the people who are on their third bus, do you think I would kill the thread if I said it was my 17th bus?! Third month of trying and being laid back as it was early days seems like so long ago. But never mind theres always biscuits

I have to avoid wheat so I have gf biscuits sometimes. In season I have creme eggs most days! I'm on my 14th bus. Actually I've never got on a bus. I'm generally quite positive (if I was American I'd be 'perky'!) butI didn't join MN til about month 11 of ttc and by then I'd join never feel confident enough to hop on a bus! I prefer to hang out here.

actually I think I only got on 1 bus and it was very crowded and went too fast! And also very depressing, think the thought of having to switch threads every month just emphasises the failure. Then theres the lucky ones that would be on the bus for 5 mins then miraculously fall pg and you would be fighting to get their lucky seat! Though im sure its more civilised than that! Its good to be in the company of other long term ttc'ers rather than the oh ive been trying for ages, how long? 6 months

Or like "I only came off the pill 3 weeks ago, was really surprised to see BFN"!!
Useful to swap tips on the whole issue of people questioning why DC1 is not here yet or at least conceived or at the VERY least why aren't you having swi?!
Seriously there is something wrong with me tonight we're chilling out at home. Couldn't even finish one cider. Have switched to milk......Also my nipples feel rubbery. VERY strange.

I know it is early but can I join your hut and have a double please? I just need to get this off my chest. Our closest friends announced last night they were pregnant and I really want to be happy for them, but I can't. They weren't even trying - had agreed not to for a few months yet but then got drunk etc etc and I just want to punch something! And dh is driving me nuts by telling me that 'our time will come' and that I just need to relax. I suggested that getting drunk seemed to work wonders for most people so maybe if I got shit faced I'd be more relaxed! I just don't want to hear about how easy it was for them and how they have no idea what they should be doing as was so unprepared - I'm prepared, i've done my reading, I'm dutifully taking my stupid vitamins, and barely drinking and eating better and it's not bloody fair. I had a crap year last year because of non-ttc related stuff and it just feel like we've had our share of crap and that we do deserve a bit of a break. And instead the couple that have had a pretty bloody rosy time of everything now also get to add conceiving really easily to their list!

And I feel really guilty for all those things, and I don't want them to feel awkward around us as this is a happy time for them. And obviously i wouldn't wish the frustration of this on them - it just feels unfair.

Sorry - rant over.

Hugs to broccolitrees, welcome to minih how long have you been ttc?

Ten months - which I know doesn't give me much right to complain as there's plenty of people who've been waiting longer.

Welcome minih- 10 months long enough to start worrying. Dh away it's raining and I am feeling very lazy. Mousey welcome your son same age as my dd.

I avoid the whole bus thing as can't help hoping they crash and also thinking they may Carey baby dust.

I am so glad I have here- was about to post on my post natal then someone was worrying about possible pregnancy(it wasn't ) and someone else (who had previously moaned everyone else was having two ) was talking about her pregnancy. Not their fault but Its not really somewhere that
Suits my mood.
Still done nothing re booking third anti phospholipid test mainly as wonder what is point.. At moment I doesn't seem likely i will get pregnant and even less likely I can carry it.

sick of looking at my squint and you see it invisible line and have caved in and ordered more of those evil cheapie tests and a pack of 2 first response for £5.80 and free delivery at amazon. I do like punishing myself!

Do the cheapy hpts work bossy? Or anyone? Feeling poor! 10dpo tomorrow and trying not to symptom spot.

I did a cheap today despite only being 10dpo! Spent about 10 mins checking then two later only to conclude my eyes were hurting and it's probably too early regardless. No idea if they work, only ever had bfn!

Dunno about cheap ones off net but any of the ones I bought were shit (to extent never got a positive even when I was subsequently pregnant). So ended up using clear blue digital. That said access diagnostics do a range of stuff and it's all been quite good so if you were going to try any cheap I would start there.

This Is a new low- why the fuck am I watching wild at heart (must find remote).

12dpo and the temp has dipped and teeny bit of brown spotting started, though it may indicate what my problem is - the egg breaking down too early or something along them lines. Gloomy day today.