TTC after MC, ERPC anyone want to join me??

[nurse47]

Hi ive been posting on the miscarrage forum but now feel ready to start all over again!
My story, Had my first MMC in nov 2007, followed by an erpc (worst moment of my life) this was my first pregnancy and i felt robbed. Waited for two periods and got pg with my little DD in feb 2008, i had a great pg and birth but was on constant knicker alert. We decided when she was two we would like another baby to add to the familiy, we decided to try in sept this year and got pg first time! (very shocked) I was so hoping this would be my time to have a stress free pg and actually enjoy the experience! How wrong i was, i started to spot at six weeks had a scan which showed a sac but no baby, i then enjoured the worst two week of my life by having scan and blood tests. I was told on the 8th on nov the pregnany was not going to continue and i had a blighted ovum, and on the 9th i had a erpc. I have recovered well and stopped bleeding the day after the procedure. I went to see my doc last week who told me i could start ttc asap as long as i feel up to it?? anyone else ttc straight away, last time i was told to wait and i did but this time i have read that there is no lit to say wait apart from to date the pg?? Im hoping there are some people who can share there experiences and someone who wants to join me!

nurse I'm sorry you are feeling so anxious but it is totally understandable. i know if I ever get pg again I'd be a basket case. I'm heading that way as it is! What helps me is a relaxation/meditation CD....it does seem to calm down my thoughts..maybe worth a try? Please don't apologise for talking to us about it...we're here to hold your hand.

star i think you should def go and see the GP find out what's going on. 11 weeks is quite a long time...wow what a big step to move to another continent....but also what an adventure.

wombat thanks for the links, it's all so confusing...at the moment I am not going to see the GP or consultant as there doesn't seem to be much 'western' medicine can do for me if I rule out IVF/donar. I'm going back to see the acupuncturist a week on Thursday and will show him all the results and see what he says. I think Chinese herbs and acupuncture can have some success in lowering FSH but I also do have to start to accept that I really am in the last chance saloon.

You're fancy dress sounded great, 80s such a 'bad taste' era! We had friends over for dinner last night and I have got quite a hangover today. I will still battle on with the SWI however.

pecker might you have tonsillitis? Sounds painful but I am most impressed with your dedication to the cause.

kitkey big hugs to you, sorry you are feeling so anxious as well. have you seen the GP and are you having an early scan? I don't know that much about it but no symptoms in not necessarily a bad sign. Finger and toes crossed for you. The 2.7 puts me nearly in the next category up, the next one starts at 3. i think it is just looking at the odds....i am not in a very fertile situation and I am unlikely to be successful getting pg and if i do I'm much more likely to mc. but it could happen just not a very high chance. I wish I had a crystal ball.

Did temps again today, really not sure how it's going to work out because it's already doing my head in that taking the temp makes all this ttc business the first thing on my mind as soon as I wake up. Not sure that it's very healthy....

Right I'm going to go to the gym to try to sweat out some of this alcohol! And then SWI....it'll be a busy day!

Hi ladies
Oh dear, looks like we are all having a down day......I was just pottering around the garden, and saw that the Rose bush I planted for my lost baby had some shoots on it so I was :) and :( all at the same time.
11 weeks of limbo is too long star could you be PG?
kitkey everything crossed for you....
nurse deep breaths its not over until the fat lady sings....
You never know pecker the just laying there stratagy could be a winning one.
The holiday tickets have come today so thats good.
Hugs to us all xxx

Nope. Defo not preggers. Did a test at the beginning of the week.

No haven't seen GP - don't really like GPs or midwifes. I am a terrible patient for knowing best. Going to have a private scan at 8 weeks - my 31st birthday or thereabouts - 15 Feb. Am only 5+3 right now. I am so very tired and I have never had morning sickness so not sure why I am fussing about the lack of symptoms. Am just checking out best place to get a privt scan done in London - there are hundreds of place at least - around £100.

ahhhh worm shoots like made me a little emotional, maybe its a sign?? I didnt do anything like that but my due date is looming, 22nd march, so my big sis is coming over from cyprus to help me through it.... Fingers crossed we will be preggers by then xx
star thats a very long time, i got my 5 weeks after but my doc did say it could take upto 12 weeks, so fingers crossed she arrives next week for you.
Yellow good luck with the gym session today, i dont know where you get the motivation...
Worm, laying there didnt help me at new year, so not holding out much hope, the only good thing about not going to the hen is im here for my ov peak, so fingers crossed i get that valentines baby.
Just wanted to add my dh friend wife is 6 weeks pg and i asked her last nyt when she thought it happened and she said it happened two days after her af as that was the only time they did it prior to??? Is that possible?? Maybe that where im going wrong?? Confussed.

Hey star I forgot to say......I went to one of those butlins adult weekenders a year or so ago. If you are awake early watch out of the window at all the people going back to their rooms after a night of lust, still in last nights costumes, I spotted a wonder woman, a manquini, a smurf and tom cruise! was a great weekend.... just what you need!

kitkey theres a place in leamingtonspar thats alot cheaper, £75 ish, not that far from london??
Watching knocked up!! Classic film, chinese on order, shame my throats the size of a pea!! And as sore as!!
Hope you ladies are having a better evening, with plenty of wine, not you kitkey.... X
ohh and change name, was too long!! X

pecka if you like Knocked up, look out for the 40 year old virgin.......one of my favorites x

yep love that one too, watched that last sat, my lifes so sad at the moment, sat nights are spent infront of the tv with a takeaway!!

Sounds like a real giggle worm - ah... the walk of shame,eh? A dim and distant memory....! Felt quite teary hearing about your rose bush - a lovely gesture at the time I thought and I hope the shoots continue to come through. x

pecka - am by your friend's dating - I guess she could have got her dates a bit wrong or perhaps he has got sperm with duracel batteries installed that kept going for a week! I've been wanting to watch those films for a while - will have to see if I can lay my hands on them - maybe they'll have them on the plane - 3 days and counting....!

kitkey - I am impressed with your patience - I don't think I could last until the 15th - thinking of you lots.

star - must be v frustrating for you. When do you think you might head to the GPs?

yellow - hope you made it to the gym and got the endorphines going and the hangover gone and the SWI in the bag! Keep us posted on your 2nd appt with your accu guy.

mana - how is everything with you? Are you lurking but anxious? strawberry, wellie - are you ladies still around? nurse - any update from you? Have been thinking about you lots x

It's funny - as we are leading up to ov time, I am feeling very apprehensive..... really want to get PG but almost don't at the same time due to super-high anxiety levels that are bound to accompany it (assuming a BFP comes along of course) - anyone else feel that way?

Waves to anyone I may have missed

Morning thanks for all the support had no more spotting, got not sore but swollen veiny boobs and started to feel a bit sick (although I don't if that's cos I'm a nervous wreck) just trying to stay positive will keep you all posted, I'm trying not to read to much on the internet as it just messes up my head! X

Morning thanks for all the support had no more spotting, got not sore but swollen veiny boobs and started to feel a bit sick (although I don't if that's cos I'm a nervous wreck) just trying to stay positive will keep you all posted, I'm trying not to read to much on the internet as it just messes up my head! X

Morning all

Nurse glad spotting has stopped and that you've started to get a few symptoms. Try to keep calm and keep breathing, one day at a time you're making progress.

kitkey I had my early scan in Harley St, can't remember where though but I think it was £120

pecka how you feeling? Hope your throat has gone down a bit......are you still on the SWI action? i reckon I should've ov'd on Sunday so we're at the beginning of the 2ww now...dunno if i actually did though, temps haven't risen. Grrr so annoying isn't it, I wish there were clearer signs so neon flashing and an alarm going off or something! It does sound odd re your friend getting pg....has she got really short cycles or something?

worm What a nice idea to plant a bush, I guess it can be a little bittersweet sometimes too. Hurrah for holiday tickets, remind me when are you off?

wombat i can't believe you're off so soon, 3 weeks is it? Make sure you take your phone charger, we need updates! I know if I get a BFP I'll be hysterical esp as I've now been told I have an extra high chance of mc...I wonder if it is possible to be knocked unconscious for the first 12 weeks?

So I have a job interview on Wed and 9.30....so if you could all send me positive vibes at that time it will be much appreciated.

I think I am still working through shock/denial re my blood tests. i have realised that I don't want to talk to anyone about it though (except you ladies) I'm not sure I could take the pity/false hope etc. I think friends will find it difficult to know how to react and I'm too raw to cope with that right now so you'll have to bear with me whilst I witter on.

How is everyone else today?

oops - sorry pecka - just realised I never said sorry you're feeling so poorly and that you get better soon - how are you feeling today?

nurse - well done on getting through the weekend and good news re: no more spotting and you're right - stay away from the evils of tintaweb!

yellow - fingers crossed you did ov and all the best for the 2ww. Fingers, toes and all sorts crossed for the interview too. Will be in Hong Kong at that time starting on the cocktails with any luck! It's funny re: talking about things in RL isn't it? Witter away here as you know we're all so strongly with you and maybe consider telling one person in RL to see how you go - I was totally against talking to people after 2nd MC but then reluctantly did so after it was getting too hard to cover up all the untruths and was so glad that I did - the support (not pity although some false hope) was fantastic. I do of course appreciate that we're all different and that the blood tests disappointment is different again from MC so please do tell me to peeeeeeeeace orrrrf

I'm gearing up to ov time - need to buy some new sticks. They say start testing from CD11 with a 28 day cycle but I'm fairly sure I start ov later than CD11 so will start POAS tomorrow at CD13 and SWI tonight... I have a funny feeling we may be mid-air to HK when I ov!

How's everyone else doing today? x

Morning Yellow. Am sending you positive job vibes, did you feel positive about the interview? Understand completely how you feel re talking to anyone else, I don't think anyone can really understand unless they've been through it and so they're unlikely to say the right things, also you're head is so all over the place you may not even know what the right thing would be for them to say! I feel like that with dh at the moment and he's been through all this with me, just isn't actually physically experiencing it. Love your idea about being knocked out for the first 12 weeks. Tomorrow I will (theoretically) be 8 weeks, spent a lot of yesterday hiding under my duvet in tears cos had a tiny bit of brown mucus and had periody pains but I don't think that hiding is a workable solution for the next 4 weeks! I know I am lucky I have had 2 healthy babies already and no reason that statistically things shouldn't be fine but I am finding it v hard to cope with the uncertainty and my brian going into overdrive.
Nurse, I won't say congrats, but will send you a little squeeze and hold your hand for the rest of your 2 week wait for scan. Good to hear that you're getting some symptoms and no more spotting. I saw my GP last Thurs who was v excited for me and referred me for an early dating scan cos I haven't had a period since mmc. Told her I don't want to see a mw until we know its good news and she was v understanding. Particularly as I had just picked up a voicemail that morning from the mw asking why I hadn't been to see her for a while.... apparently the news hadn't filtered through! Glad I didn't get to the phone in time. GP was v apologetic. Having said I wouldn't want a scan until after 10 weeks I am now just desperate to see what's going on in there so am hoping it will come through soon.
Kitkey, how are you doing? My symptoms didn't come through properly this time until 7 weeks, good that you're feeling tired if you know what I mean.
Star, do you think you'll go to see the GP? 11 weeks is around the maximum they quote as usual so it might be good to talk it through with someone. Or I guess there may be people on the other mc threads who'll be able to give feedback on how long theirs took.
Wormshuffler, rose bush is a lovely idea. Can see how the new shoots would be heart-breaking and make you smile at the same time.
Wombat, have you started packing, or making a list? Great timing for the 2ww. You were right, I've been lurking and quietly going insane with worry.... fingers crossed that scan date comes through soon!
Hello to everyone else, good luck everyone who's SWI ing. x

wombat good luck with your POAS and trying to detect ov and SWI. Don't let being on a plane on the way to HK make you miss a SWI opportunity. And then you'd have a sex story to tell us too!

Re advice about telling people, I think (for me anyway) the mc was different because although some people did say the wrong thing sometimes it was still bearable. Whereas with this as wise manamana says my head is all over the place and so I don't really know what I want them to say either. it feels too raw. And once they know they can't 'unknow' and I feel that will be between us like a big elephant in the room. My friends kind of fall into 2 camps, the ones my age all have kids and then others are in early 30s and just starting contemplating trying. So can't really expect either group to understand.

I am going to talk to my counsellor when I see her tomorrow. That might help to clear my head a little bit, it often does.

I kind of feel that I'm living a double life at the moment as there is so much going on that nobody knows about. haven't told anyone about the job interview either.....I'm not normally a secretive person at all but I think maybe I'm feeling a bit vulnerable at the moment and not really up to explaining myself to other people. Except on here where I can't seem to stop

manamana sorry that you had the need for a duvet day yesterday and I have fingers crossed that a scan appt comes through soon.

Hi All, Feeling alot better today, so that weekend in bed wasnt a compleate waste of time... thanks for all your get well wishs.
yellow, good luck wednesday positivevibes being sent your way..
manamana, nurse, postive vibes also your way, fingers crossed you both have extra sticky ones.
this weekend was meant to be where i swi but it was all abit all over the place tbh, friday once, i just lay there as felt dreadfull!! sat nothing as felt worse and last night once... had plenty of symptoms yesterday,(egg white) (middle pain) but no lines on my ov sticks but got two today so swi tonight and the next few nights fingers crossed for me ladies...
yelow not sure on my friend, i think she forgot when she did it last?? unless his got super spunk!! lol
waves to all XX

Hi Pecka, sorry to hear you've been poorly. Don't think I've read all the recent posts. Ov symptoms sound v good, good luck with the SWI while ill, not great but shows dedication! Thanks for positive vibes, and for yours yellow. Hope counsellor helps, particularly with the double life thing. I feel slightly detached from everything/one especially at work because you've got so much going on in your head that you can't share. Working from home and spending 2hrs on MNet is probably not going to help me on that front! Better do some work... Take it easy.

Scan booked for feb 14th dd conceived around this time so hoping its a lucky omen! Did another IC pg test and the line is getting a lot darker so I'm praying this one sticks!! Feel a little bit more optimistic x

Manamana glad to hear your feeling ok,what are you pg symptoms I hope mine kick in all of a sudden, if I remember with my DD they kicked in at 6 weeks.
Yellow hope your keeping your chin up, its good that you've got counciling and I would still hold on to the fact that not so long ago you got pg on your own! (Well with DH help of course)
Wombat i$ defo staying away from the internet as one story lifts me up and another makes me feel down!
Pecka glad to hear your feeling a little better too x

mana - so good to see you're lurking still and we are all holding your hand on this scary journey and great that you have such a supportive GP. Fingers crossed for a scan date soon and you get to and through that date without biting all your fingernails off.

nurse - I like that omen of 14th feb and great news re: the darker line.

pecka - good luck on the SWI - sending lots of egg meets sperm vibes your way.

yellow - very good point re: the "unknowing" side of it and hey, if you're getting the support you need from us, keep typing away - I'm sure seeing your counsellor will be hugely beneficial too.

It's like buses on here. No-one for 24 hours and then BAM....10 posts!!

Yes Mana i am gonna have to go to the docs i think. The last week i've sort of had something but not sure what it could be. It's just brown and a bit bitty if that makes sense. I had a period (of time) when i had it before in between period but the docs did internal and abdominal scans and smears which all came back normal so he put it down to my cervical ectropian/erosion which was bleeding a litle.....lovely. If you are unsure, it's just where cells that are normal inside the cervix are visible outside of the cervix and they are a little sensitive. I do bury my head in the sand so feel free to bully me until i go :)

Good luck for wednesday for your interview Yellow. I'm not sure if you have said but what is it that you do? Hope it all goes well. Are you managing to hide your 'double life' well? If i'm struggling with one area, i think i'd find it really hard to cover up or DH would feel my wrath at least .

Glad to hear you've booked your scan Nurse and what a lovely Valentines Day gift to see your little bean. Not too long now to wait.......2 weeks!

Glad to hear you're feeling better Pecka. So many people seem to be ill this year and for some reason, i've still avoided any illness. Not sure if i should be worried i'm gonna get hit by the mother of all flu!!!

wombat, what are your plans whilst in Oz? Is there an itinery? Pleasure or work?

worm, haha, the walk of shame, eh? It is all very funny watching everyone. I just need to sort out a school uniform and cheerleading outfit. Saw some online and could sense DH behind me. His responce was "No chance"!!! But then they did look pretty slutty....all PVC'd up like bondage dress. What he doesn't know wont harm him .

Sparkly.....are you out there?? It's very quiet so where've you been hiding???

I have just this morning signed up to Mr Bannatyne, Yay me!!! Only been moved up here 6 months, but hey?!!

Hope everyone else is good too.

Hi ladies,
So much to catch up on from over the weekend!
Nurse, I'm really glad you are feeling more optimistic. I've read through really quickly so sorry if I've missed anything but apart from the spotting there's been nothing untoward?

Yellow, the new stats seem more in your favour which is great, and as others have said you were recently pregnant so you are already defying the odds they've set out for you. Good luck for Wednesday's interview!
To everyone else too, I hope this week is a happier one, January seems to have been quite a struggle for most!
No news from me, I'm about one week into the 2ww. AF due next Tuesday, so will have a Friday-treat test, and then wait to see if I'm late before taking another .

My mind has been tricking me into all sorts of symptoms, including a weird tugging in my bellybutton that I got last time, though think it's a bit early doors for there to be an umbilical cord! The mind is a powerful instrument. I think we swi over the right time period, and had a lot of fun doing so , but with my age, weight, drink problem fondness and the 25% success-stat I think I'm in it for the long haul. A silly part of me petulantly wants a baby before Christmas, so the pressure is on for next month. I really need to stop projecting, and just live life!

Hi Star, cross posts, we are active today!
Get ye to the quack!x

Thanks sparkly did a pg test (11 dpo) day before period due, got a Bfp then a few hours later had one episode of spotting (dark old blood) so I though period was coming and I was having a chemical but I've had nothing else. I ov on day 16 so I praying it was an implantation bleed although I've never had one before ,or any bleeding till later on (6weeks) that ended with MC x

Morning ladies

have to post and run today as I'm already late and shouldn't be here at all by now!

Just wanted to say 'bon voyage' to Wombat......don't forget us whilst you are having all your cocktails and laying about in the sun......