More ongoing and continuing conceptions and follicling ahead of Feisty, Fabulous Forty somethings

[Beattiebow]

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sassy I'm very hopeful for you! Please test soon!

I might try agnus castus this month - am worried it will mess my cycle up no end though, but I suppose I have nothing to lose. I am feeling very worried that for some reason embryos just can't implant in my womb as this is the 3rd cp I have had since my mc in Feb. I am not sure how a consultant can help me though? Presumably it is just progesterone they can prescribe? I am not going to go down any other assisted fertility route, so I am not sure what other help I can get.

Progesterone also (I have realised in retrospect) gave me the worst pmt ever. I was just so upset/angry/stressed. Not sure it is worth repeating this month. Poor dh can't put up with me again!

Dh has said he wants to know all about fertile times etc this month! I am a bit scared to tell him though tbh - don't want performance issues.

Hope you get good news this week diege
italian sorry you have been feeling sad. Have you succumbed to testing early?

galwaygirl weren't you due too?

hairy congratulations!

Well AF was due today, but test shows BFN, so I am going to stop progesterone and let af arrive as she should. It feels really really weird NOT feeling pregnant !!!! Having a month where I have had zero uterine stretching pain, no feeling of pregnancy, this is really a strange feeling. But at least I know that I can stop the progesterone with no doubts.

Beattie - sorry to hear you had yet another chemical pregnancy , hope that you get extra tlc over the next few days from your dh. Are you taking any extra vitamins, like q10 or preconception vits? I was told that agnus cactus is like natures clomid, and helps strength ov. I hope that it helps you.

Jolls - hi there, please do take a seat in the snug, here is a slanket cup of hot chocolate.

hippy - show us your new hair design!

Well got to go and collect kids from school and go swimming with them. Will come back later when I have dried out.

(plonks her shopping down in the snug)
Have brought a fabulous selection of olives, and tapenade to munch on in the snug... and a light refreshing rose for anyone who fancies it....

I'm sorry - I bottled asking for a pg test Did go and have a look in the supermarket, but they don't seem to stock them on the shelves like they do in the UK.. BUT.. next to the condoms they do sell "love balls" !!! And a little packet, inviting one (in English) to touch my flower! Opened up the front cover, and it was a blinking pink vibrator.... there on the shelves amongst the SMA and paracetomal.... Am I being prudish? Has Waitrose moved on?

I'm begining to sound like my mother....

Welcome back Jollster

gg sorry about your bfn. Would you normally have shown a bfp on the day you are due? Mine is always later (mind you I do seem to ov on around day 20).

sassy I don't even know the french for pregnancy test! and and [catsbum mouth] at vibrators for sale in waitrose!

gg I don't know what vitamins to take - would q10 help? I am going to start on the agnus castus etc today

sas how funny that they have vibrators on the shelves but not HPT's. LOL at touch my flower!

Well NEXT was ok. I was busy trying on a pair of size 16 jeans when I heard the lady in the next cubicle ask if she could have these in a 6 instead please!!! I though about asking for a 6 too just to see what the assistant would do - ha ha.

Then I went back to the launderette. It was the lady from yesterday's daughter working today. She told me the other lady had definitely gone for good and guess what... no one liked her. Everyone else has said she was a right mardy old bag who gave them snide looks. So even if DH never fixes the tumble dryer or never buys a new one at least I know the two ladies in the launderette are really nice.

Outside there I bumped into someone I knew a while back, her 10 year old went to school with mine. She now has a 2.5 year old, a 9 month old and is sporting a huge bump. She is a complete chav (sorry to sound like a snob) but she is, she's been on the Jeremy Kyle show and smokes and drinks through all her pregnancies.

She was stood there wondering if she had time for a fag before the bus turned up, with a baby inside her and two small ones close by . Then i came home and took my pre-conception vits - it's all fecking wrong I tell you.

There are people on here trying so bloody hard to get or keep a pregnancy and she just bonks away and off she goes.

Funnily enough i didn't feel jealous of her cos i don't want her life at all but i did feel that life can really take the piss sometimes!!!

Rant over.....

How am I doing at cheering you up jolls???

ps. DH said please No to the haircut. He's like my dad!

There is no justic hippy
(Sassy shakes her head furiously)
No justic at all.....

Did I mention the "touch my flower" was 24 euros!

What is the world coming to....

Is it the best 24 euros you've ever spent sas????

I read your blogs and totally agree with the others - you have a definite talent as a writer. I'm not just saying that cos you're my mate. I know it isn't meant to be funny but i did laugh at the bit about - there is someone here who had a heart attack - of course there is - this is Scotland!

I could hear your sense of humour in it even though it was about a serious subject.

Maybe you should try getting your blogs published.

How are you doing - I hope our least favorite Auntie is staying away and doesn't know how to get to France!

I'm getting really scared. I am about 7 days post ovulation and just so worried that AF will come along in the next week. I know it's daft but i would so love a baby conceived in IOW - it would somehow confirm that we should move there etc. I now it's mad and I know no-one wants AF to turn up so please feel free to ignore me .

hippy you do make me LOL - am loving your story about the chav but you are right there is no justice sometimes. I said to dp yesterday about an obvious drug addict in our town 'she's had ANOTHER baby - she has more than me' and but you know - life's a bugger sometimes...

I am always like you with the IOW thing too. Things are kind of 'meant to be' for me - always wanted a June baby due to loving my psuedo mother grandma so much and her being June . not happened do far apart from an m/c

sassy - flower sounds ewwww and lol at you exploring it in french eepermarchay!!

Beattie so sorry that test faded - i had that in august - more than PITA you just feel deflated... I too might start on the old agnus castus if you recommend it?

Have just been to the loo (TMI) and I was just thinking - right here she is...

then I realised it was patterned toilet paper

So still no AF - so still off the booze..

Where are you going on holiday Lunatic ? I will text you

Hippy The Spiritualist Chruch was a complete scream - we went to see a celebrity medium the other night. I think I am on the verge of getting us chucked out - we were laffing so much on the bus coming back that I was actually crying.

If you are not pg, do you think it could be a 'sign'that you shoudl move to the IOW and bonk there more often?

All this talk of cakes etc.......I can't just can't even a virtual one so someone can have mine please. I've decided until AF turns up cd43 and flaming counting (yes saw consultant yesterday and he confirmed nerve root injections for my back CAN interfere with my cycle...he did apologise)and to stop obsessing about ovulating, I'm going to focus on me, eat healthily (drop all manner of biscuits, cakes and chocolate...omg tough but have to try), walk more, just generally take a little more interest in me. As tend to look after everyone else first and then either too tired or not enough hours in the day to see after "liddl ol me". Waves to all and I apologise for not keeping up but wow how long is this thread.

sas - I've done that before with patterned toilet paper

I'm getting very excited for you now.

I think my DH would love to have as much sex as we did in IOW!!

diege my boobs are feeling a bit tweeky BUT I can't trust them - they lie and are sneaky.

At present they still feel like mine - not yours.

Sorry curly crossed posts.

Good luck with the healthy stuff - women always leave themselves til last when it comes to taking time and caring.(idiots that we are).

Maybe sas will find some healthy food in France - if we can drag her away from the 'touch my flowers' - god I will never tire of that one!!!!

Oh wow there is just too much to catch up on. That "touch my flower" thing was hilarious.Those Continentals are ever so brazen!

I'm madly packing and just hate this part of going on holiday. But nearly there. Think I won't be temping while we are gone. DH doesn't like the beeping thermometer when he's trying to sleep in.

The 21 day fertility diet challenge includes these things:

1. Drink 1 quart of water first thing in the morning. You can add squeezed lemon to this if you would like.

1. Drink 1 fertility smoothie every day. The fertility smoothie should contain at least one fertility superfood (maca, spirulina, UltraGreens, royal jelly, etc.)

1. Eat one big green salad per day.

1. Eat one dark leafy vegetable every day. Swiss chard, kale, spinach, etc.

1. Drink one green juice every day. (If you are not able to get a juicer you can replace this step with one serving of UltraGreens or another organic greens supplement everyday.)

I'm already doing most of them, so I'll just try to keep it up.I don't do a salad every day, but now that it is warming up I'll give it a go.I just had my freshly squeezed juice with maca,l-arginine,liquid minerals and green powder.

At least I'll know that I gave it my best shot...

More packing to do...

I hope there will be bfp's while I'm gone.

gum that's all very well but that woman i bumped into in the shops yesterday swears by:-

1. At least 20 fags a day

2. either 4 cans of strong larger or 1 bottle of cheap wine per day.

3. Dine out at MacDonald's at least 3 times a week (then you don't need to buy the kids toys either!)

4. Take your partner on the Jeremy Kyle show because you don't trust him, and then continue to shag him anyway.

As for me - I'm about 8 or maybe 9 days post ov. I have that dull ache (like pre-cramps) in my belly, tender boobs and got myself in a state about nothing this morning and nearly started blubbing!

So I figure I am either A) Pregnant or B) Suffering from PMT!!! So at least that's all clear then .

Off to see the baby later on today. Please God I don't try and run off with him!!!

Morning . Fertility diet sounds great Gum, but can I ask what 'supergreens' are? At the very least you'll certainly be getting your 5 a day . Agree abut the packing too - dire, but you will soon be at that gorgeous resort.
Hippy my boobs are a bit tweaky too, but then they always are a week or so before af. I'll let you know when they start to leave my body and migrate over to your's
I chuckled after the chav description, esp the ref to Jeremy Kyle. My friend is a make-up artist and does the make-up on the show from time to time. She has the best stories to tell, and says that guests are frequently pis*sed off when they get the requisite 'make under' as opposed to the transformation they imagined
40some agree about fading tests - def far worse than plain old bfns. I had one last month so have tried to hold off testing as I think I'd rather not know about chem pregs. I very nearly gave in today (10dpo) but pulled myself together as it would achive nothing. I've stopped temping after ov this month, but may take my temp the morning af is due (Fri) to give me a few second preparation before heading to the loo!
Sassy my heart was in my mouth reading your post . I've done the same thing in the past - while sitting on the loo, blotted (red-ish) lipstick on wad of paper, then folded over and wiped (is that disgusting? )cue red showing through . Ok, so I probably didn't need to be so graphic but I do know that awful feeling followed by redemption! . So, the low down - do you have a test in the house woman!!!???
Curly I'll do the cake(less) challenge with you. I've started baking again for the packed lunches and can't resist!
Working from home today writing a module booklet for the dullest of subjects. Dh coming home at lunch and we're going to pizza express which will be a treat.
Love to all x

I love the idea of these numptys expecting to look all glam on the show and then being given a make under (I'll just add some grease to your hair and put this dark shadow under your eyes, love!)

I'm now officially too scared to go for a wee cos I just don't want to see that first streak that means spotting is on it's way.

I know it's not relevant at all - but i do feel like DH and I worked hard at it all this month - of course it wasn't all work but you know what I mean. I don't think we've ever done it 5 times in one week!! Well not since we got past the first glow of our relationship

diege - I really hope we get to be bump buddies this month

sas Put that flippin' flower thing down and come and tell us if your preggers .

Bump buddies would be wonderful Hippy though my gut feeling is that it's not my month. Distinct lack of EWM at ov time combined with dh's man 'flu and absolutely no symptoms other than twingey boobs don't bode well...
And don't hold back on the wee!! You'll give yourself a urine infection. I need to go now so let's go in the same cubicle (as in the days of the sticky-carpetted nightclub)and I will hold your hand!

hippy sounds very promising!

I actually held off testing til cd 35. Then got 2 positive tests 2 days running. so didn't test early or anything. Oh well.

sassy have you found a french test yet?

jolls sorry didn't say hello! Sorry you are feeling shitty. I am cancelling my appointment with E this week - just can't face her tbh. will see her again next week though.

the other woman I know who had a mc in March at my school (and was 40 in June) announced her not very surprising pregnancy this week -at 14 weeks. I am finding it very difficult to see her at all at the moment. Feel a bit like lying on the ground screaming "it's not fair". But I won't.

Oh beattie you poor thing. It isn't fair I agree. But on the other hand there is a woman in her 40's having a successful first trimester - so we should be taking that as a good sign.

But I DO know how you feel - i promise. It's not rational and you don't want to feel like that but it happens.

Take care of yourself.

diege I don't know if this is my month either. Despite all the egg whites and shagging - this mild crampy feeling is just worrying me.

Thanks for taking me to the loo The last wipe was all fine (TMI).

Darn it - after all my self-persuasion not to test, of course I grabbed the first pee stick to hand and tested. And a resounding, whiter than white BFN Which of course I fully expected, but still....I do feel strangely better for testing though (after a large 3 course pizza express lunch), as I felt very despondent this morning anyway that it wasn't my month, and figured testing could only make me feel the same, or better.
Anyway, I bypass the baton that is still at present firmly in Sassy's bathroom prodding her towards the direction of the pharmacy!!!!

oh dear diege I'm sorry.

sassy it's "Test Grossesse" apparently. Go one you know you want to...

Thanks Beattie - feel ok now, nothing will compare to last month's cp, just hoping LP hangs on for a day or 2 so that I can get to the usual 11 days! . How are you feeling?

Hippy if it helps you feel any better, I have cramping too, and have done since last Friday... Still no AF.

Diege Couldnt that be too early to test. Can I borrow one of yours?

Haven't bothered to get a test. Will just wait till I get back at home on Saturday. My lovely dad's gf is a native French speaker, and is closer to me that my mum (which wouldn't be hard) so I have no excuse really.... just seems a shame to spoil a nice holiday with bad news... Sorry - I am gutless!

BB At least she got to 14 weeks though.... you next eh? xx