Does anyone remember my little Blue-eyed Joseph? Bad news and I could use some support, please.

[Trazzletoes]

My 6 year old, Joseph, was diagnosed with stage 4 high risk neuroblastoma cancer when he was 3. He had 14 months off treatment and then had no evidence of disease for 2.5 years. We were starting to imagine a future for us all and make plans.

We found out a fortnight ago that he has relapsed. 5 year survival rates from here are less than 5%. Possibly even less than 1%, I can't remember. Chemo starts tomorrow, I am struggling to understand how this has happened to us again (because there is no reason) and how on earth we are going to make it through this. I know it's by taking a minute at a time, but it feels so huge right now.

I've been thinking about the Trazzles too. Hope they are ok. In fact hoping that a mumsnet absence means things are good and trazzletoes doesn't need us at the mo for that reason.

Still thinking about Trazzles

Still in my thoughts too Trazzles.... Xxx

Trazzles I've name changed since your other threads, but I'm an 'old friend'. I missed this thread when you started it, sorry X.

How are you all holding up?

Just a little while ago you posted on a thread re illness at school and I was so thrilled to see J was at school and life was ticking a long.

I can't believe you are going through this now - it's so bloody unfair xx

Stealth. I'm glad you've been bumping, I'd totally missed the thread. Thank you.

Is everything okay Trazzles?

So sorry you and your lovely boy are going through this hell. Sending lots of love

We all have our gingers crossed. I really am a ginger so mine are more powerful :)

Still thinking of you and joe here too....

I remember you and your boy. So sorry this is happening to you. Wishing you strength. I am a blood donor and will be thinking of Joseph when i give.

Hope you are all doing ok.

Oh Trazzle how awful, I am so sorry you and your family are having to go through this terrible time. I remember your previous threads about Joseph.

Sending you love and strength, it's an absolute fucker of the highest order. I am so very sorry.

We are still here Trazzles x

Oh Trazzles I was on the Children with Cancer thread (Twunk).

I'm so sorry you and Joseph are going through this. I can see you're not posting at the moment. Big hugs to you

Trazzles, I remember you and Joseph too. Just wanted to send you the warmest wishes and much love x X X

I really am starting to wonder if I should keep bumping. If Trazzles is lurking or even posting elsewhere on the boards is this helping or nagging? :)

I think she'll appreciate that we are thinking of her and Joseph. And that she'll come back if/when she needs us.

and gingers xx

Trazzles, hope you're alright.

Still here Trazzles x

Oh Trazzles. I know we haven't spoken for a while but I think of you and your gorgeous boy often. I absolutely heart broken to hear that Joseph has relapsed.

I wish I was nearer, I wish there was something I could do or say but please know that we are with you every step of the way.

Things must be impossibly difficult but your strength shines through. When I'm having a particularly bad day I try to remind myself that none of us have any guarantees. All we can do is take a day at a time and make that day as fill of love and happiness as possible. So much love to you all xxx

Another who remembers and cares

........ and another one who remembers and cares too. xxx

I was thinking of you only today. I am so sorry to heR this.