DD has a bruise that isn't going away.

[SaulGood]

8yo dd complained a few weeks ago that she had a bruise on her inner thigh. She said she couldn't remember how she did it. It looked very much like a mark made by her little brother pinching her which on occasion, when frustrated, he does. He also tends to aim for her thigh or the tops of her arms. She's also as active as most 8yos and rides her scooter everywhere, occasionally crashing and bruising her legs. I put it down to that.

A week ago she mentioned it was still there and I had a good look and it had faded to a browny colour but I could feel a lump directly underneath it. Around the size of a pea. She said it was sore.

A week later and it's still there, same size, sort of a reddy colour but she says it's more sore than it was. She does admit though that she squeezes it because there's a lump underneath it and it 'feels funny'. I don't know if that's exacerbating things.

I have a terrible health anxiety, particularly where the dc are concerned and I am jumping to the absolute worst conclusions. Because that helps, obviously.

She's not ill, not tired or not herself. She's perfectly well. She's also had other run of the mill, fell off her scooter or got whacked with a golf club bruises in the last couple of weeks and they've cleared up within a couple of days. It's just this bruise on her thigh.

I've made a GP appointment for after school today as it's preying on my mind but is there a chance this is absolutely nothing and my sky high anxiety and terror is unnecessary? I need to stop googling.

[Flowersinyourhair]

Just to wish you well OP and suggest that you write a list of questions for the consultant so that you don't forget what you want to talk about. Sending you and your family

[SaulGood]

I did say that to the GP today and she said that she remembered seeing DD two years ago and that she was pretty sure it was a trauma/haematoma and the partner who reviewed her later agreed. She said that trauma can cause "things" to develop later though. I know what she means by "things". So perhaps it was originally benign but not now. I just don't know.

Thank you minmooch. Perhaps we should just go home.

[SaulGood]

The list is a good idea.

[Hemlock2013]

just wanted to add to the positive thoughts here...

I think like foodietoo... if it was serious you would have known with symptoms before now. I'm sure protocol means they treat anything like this seriously which is preferable. But try not to completely lose it (easy to say I know)....

Positive vibes coming your way though! X

[aleC4]

SoH I had a dd with initial R and have an older ds, C.
We are also fb acquaintances through here. My initials are AE.

[FoodieToo]

I could be wrong but I am pretty sure that traums / bruises etc . don't lead to malignancy?
Fingers crossed for good news.

[horriblehistorieswench]

I think if your heart's telling you home is best then you should cut holiday short. Put it down to nasty norovirus if any explanations are needed rather than what else might be. Sit everyone on towels, have plenty clean clothes, baby wipes, fluids, sick bags for the journey. Get back to home & cosy down like a great big comfort blanket round you all.

[SaulGood]

I know exactly who you are ale. Videos and photos of R doing her hobby seriously have me in awe. DD tried it once. Seriously, tanks are not gymnastic. You live v near to my grandma too iirc. Good to see you on here! Hope you're having a lovely summer holidays and a good break from work (expect you're still v busy planning and prepping though).

I keep trying to be positive. It's been 2 years and it disappeared for a time, the ultrasound chap said no blood supply and if it had been painless, he'd have left it and expected it to self resolve again but he couldn't leave her in pain. But then my brain starts screaming. And my fingers Google. And we're back to square one.

[SaulGood]

This holiday was 2 years in the making and we're here with my parents, brother and nieces. A large part of me wants to go home but the DC would be gutted. Depends what the consultant says. I might have no choice.

[Freezingwinter]

I just wanted to drop in and say hope you are all ok. Take care of yourself

[ItsLikeRainOnYourWeddingDay]

OP you have not dropped the ball at all. You took her to the doctor when she had it first time. Then you took her to the doctor when it came back. You have done everything a parent is supposed to do.

Try and enjoy what's left of your holiday, easier said than done I know.

[guinnessgirl]

Just posting to say that I think you're doing amazingly well, OP. Please don't blame yourself for things not going to plan - your DC would, I'm sure, be the first to reassure you that it's not your fault and they're grateful for your help and support if they knew how you were feeling. Thinking of you and DD and hoping your sickness is short lived so you can try to enjoy holiday.

[happymumof4crazykids]

Just read your thread and wanted to say you haven't dropped the ballast all!. You have done everything you could. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you that the lump in nothing sinister.

[NanooCov]

Just another anecdotal weird thing that I have had for at least 5 years, that shrinks and grows, changes colour and is periodically painful - I have a sebaceous cyst on my back. Through much prodding by me (oops) it burst and leaked into surrounding tissues and is now very "ill defined" so not all such lumps are sinister. It periodically gets a bit painful and I have required antibiotics on one occasion. I'm finally getting it whipped out in the new year (can't currently as I'm six months pregnant and can't lie on my tummy for the op). As you said, DD's mystery lump has shrunk and grown which seriously points towards it being something other than a tumour.

Also, I know it's tempting to leap on the opportunity of an earlier appointment if offered, but I would seriously beg you not to while DD has noro. I know DD is your focus but it would be really awful to knowingly take noro into a hospital where you'll inevitably be in the company of immune compromised people. The consultant would, I'm sure, give you the same message.

Try and enjoy the rest of your holiday.

[HumphreyCobblers]

Oh SaulGood, I am so sorry to read that you are going through such a worrying time. Sending my best wishes and hope the next few weeks pass quickly and it all turns out to be nothing to worry about. I agree with the other posters, you haven't dropped a ball at all, I don't really see what else you could have done.

[aleC4]

You are rightSoH.
We are abroad at the mo, only one day left. First time I've brought them away since ex left and it's been a blast.
I would be just like you. It's easy to have the facts, rationalise things etc but it doesn't stop you googling and fearing the worst, especially when you hear words like urgent, as soon possible and big hospital.
I have everything firmly crossed for you:

[Jakc]

Keeping everything crossed for you all

[Jl2543]

I've never posted anything on MN before but I signed up because my toddler was driving me insane and I thought I could do with a couple of thousand other worn out women to give me a virtual eye roll and an exasperated "same". I started reading this thread and my own health anxiety has properly kicked in for you, Saulgood. I completely understand that dreadful, breath snatching, cold sweat inducing, pit-of-the-stomach-falling-out sensation you're experiencing every time you think about your DD. But there are a million perfectly harmless things this could be. Most nasty lumps are painless and it's highly unlikely that your DD would have had this for 2 years without some other symptom if it was what you're afraid of. No weight loss, unexplained temperature, swollen lymph nodes etc. Not that this information will be new to you. I'm so sorry you're feeling like this, it's awful. This will probably be something you'll casually tell her about when she gets older, that funny lump in her leg that kept you awake with worry for weeks. Health anxiety is the worst. A proper joy snatcher.

[MrsSthe3rd]

Sending you positive vibes Saul.

If you are told you need to come straight home, then for the children's sake, it may be a good idea to say you're leaving as you've been unwell, and you don't want anyone else in the group catching it, but then say you'd forgot about a hospital appointment, and all in a blasè way.

Not sure if that's even practical but it may stop the DCs stressing/being upset about leaving.

I think you've kept on top as much as you've been able to, so I wouldn't worry that you've let anyone down.

It's the anxiety trying to take over your rational thinking, but whenever you are able to reason about the situation, remind yourself how quick you've responded at every stage.

I'm crippled with anxiety and this sometimes helps me.

Take care and best of luck

[IdoHaveAName]

You very definitely did not drop the ball. Your anxiety made sure that you actually caught the ball. Hope all turns out well.

[Mooey89]

So sorry to hear that you are going through this. Try not to panic, it sounds she is having all the right explorations. Best of luck for Monday.

[SaulGood]

You are all so, so lovely. It really does help to know somebody is listening and delurking nonetheless. I feel very humbled.

I've started packing things up just in case. I need to DO something. DH doesn't want to go home unnecessarily. He says it won't help.

Ale, you deserve a cracking holiday with R and C. I'm glad you've enjoyed it. You're brillig.

[MrsMotherHen]

hope everything goes ok sending lots of love x

[FancyPuffin]

So sorry you're going through this

You definitely didn't drop the ball! There was nothing to drop, you had it checked and then it pretty much disappeared, what else could you have done..

Sending much love but secretly cause this is Mumsnet ;)

[Dodie66]

I second what other posters have said. Write down everything you want to ask the consultant. That's what they there for. Hope all goes well x