I am glad you are on the mend. I think what I was trying to say is that there is a great difference between elective and emergency sections and, if I'd had a half decent consultant in the first place, I know I should have been given an elective section.
I have a very, very real phobia of hospitals. I informed the midwife as early as my booking in appointment. She did nothing to help me. A different midwife enrolled me on an antenatal course, thinking that would help. It didn't. I already knew the ins and outs of pregnancy and labour. I'm a biology teacher!
Anyway, to cut a long story short, if I'd been the consultant and someone as terrified and upset as I was had been my patient, then I would certainly have suggested an elective section. Instead, I was told my baby was potentially going to die if I didn't get induced. How stupid was I to listen to them? So, in reply to your statement that it was the best option for me, then I'm sorry to say, it most certainly wasn't.
I honestly believe they did this as a cost cutting exercise because c sections are so expensive for the nhs. Well, now that I've had 2 rounds of counselling ( both failed), ongoing physiotherapy, umpteen rounds of medication and finally cortisone injections to eliminate the scar, I doubt very much that they have saved any money now. It must be costing thousands. It annoys me how they don't have the patient's best interests at heart. Certainly in my case they didn't.
I do have a serious case open against the hospital at the moment (surprisingly, it was at the hospital's request that I did this). There were many, many errors throughout my pregnancy, one of them being they weighed me at the start of my pregnancy at 4 stones more than I weighed after the baby was born. I was sent for extra testing as I was classed as obese ( I'm 8.5 stone!) and classed as a high risk handling hazard! I I was also administered drugs without my consent ( given suppositories) which, apparently I agreed to ( I most certainly did not). I requested my notes and could not believe what was written. Potentially, they overdosed me, which quite frankly could have killed me. So, no I don't trust doctors at all now. I wouldn't trust them to administer an aspirin, let alone major surgery. I'm convinced mine is botched. I have terrible pain and the scar is disgusting. I literally look like I've been sawn in half. I'm sure after ten months, it should've gone by now. I know not everyone has problems, but mine sucked. If I could turn the clock back then I would. It will always haunt me. Sometimes I even think I shouldn't have had the baby, and if someone had told me what would happen to me, then honestly I don't think I would. That sounds terrible, my baby is so precious but I can't help feel this was not meant to be. My life wasn't worth sacrificing because if I can't like myself then how do I ever expect the baby to like me? My partner has been brilliant but it has very nearly destroyed our family. I am praying I will get some resolution at the hearing, but not counting on it.