nickelbabe is resigned to never giving birth

[nickelbabe]

there.
part 2 of the "not-live-birth-thread"

How come I can conceive and carry through a pregnancy but I can't finish one?

No posting until the original thread has ended.
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I am now officially 40+10.

every day that woman comes in for eggs.
every day.
this is one of the things that makes me feel pressured.
why should I feel pressured into supplying her with eggs?
why should i feel pressured like this?

I don't even know if i'm ready to look after a baby (that's why I love my DH so much, he's going to be proper hands-on)

at least I know that i can produce milk.

It still feels really surreal that I'm growing a baby inside me.

pmsl at a midwife with hair grips for your lady garden sparklingbaubles.

nickelbabe your baby aint coming out cause you're too busy! stoppit woman!!
i gave my car a full valet inside and out then decided to switch off and chill out for a bit, then baby decided the time was right. worked 3 times. how about some nice whale music on and a lie down in a dark room? you know you want to!

It still feels really surreal that I'm growing a baby inside me.
I remember this feeling. And then when DC was born thinking how the hell did that happen? How did you fit inside me?
Stupid as it sounds and kill me if you want but I actually missed having baby inside me once he had been born.
s/he is coming - just a little more patience and alot more sex

After DS2 who was definitely going to be our last, I remember thinking when the midwife left for the last time how sad it was that i would never need a midwife ever again.

i think i'm going to cry.
there have been 3 orders released that have been sent to the wrong address.
:(

Do you work alone in your shop Nickel with only the customers and we MNers for company? Cause I think you could probably do with some real life support right now.

I do.
DH comes in after work every day (he's a postie, so finished shortly after 2 (or later depending how heavy it is)) then he stay with me until home time.
he's learned how to work the till, too, so if I'm tired, I can go off for a nap and leave him in charge.

I wish this baby would just understand that when it's born, I'll get to have some time off!!

That's good then, your DH being there in the afternoons.

Nickel speaking as someone who had 2 late deliveries at 40 + 11, I found the longer my pregnancies went on the more depressed I became. It was almost as though the hormone levels were dropping and with them my mood. I clearly remember sobbing all night the night before DS1 was born as I felt I could not take any more.

You sound to me as though this whole thing is really getting you down. Is there any way you would consider being induced? Or is it not an option?

Hope you're OK

I don't feel depressed, i feel like there's no end in sight, and that this baby will never be born.
On the whole, though, I feel happy, iyswim.

It's getting me down a bit, I suppose, but i'm not dwelling on it.
I can't/won't be induced.

I think my main thing is the amount of people who are obsessed with the status of the baby's birth. (not you lot, you're great, I asked for your input)
and the people who have to phone me or see me in real life, who can't just text or email.
I think that's why I don't mind you lot, because I choose what I read and what I say, and when i do it.
it's those people who demand progress or updates constantly in real life.

oh, and those customers who insist on taking aaaaaages i nthe shop when I neeed a weeeeeee"!

Aw nickel, time to go home eat your own (pregnant) weight in choc, lay on the sofa and watch father ted/jane austen/madagascar2, whatever you fancy and just admit you are too tired and your brain is too floopy to work anymore.

I wish I could come and help in the shop (am librarian and ex shopassistant), but it's just too far.

I know where you are coming from. With DC1 (40+15) & DC3 (40+7) I felt fine in myself it was everyone going on at me all the time that did my head in - as though I could do something about it!
Just keep doing what you are doing - everyone will have advice (stay busy, relax, eat pineapple, or in my case have sex ) but at the end of the day baby will come when s/he is ready and when s/he does it will be the most joyous wonderful thing in the whole world.

I've got a big bar of cadbury's caramel in the fridge upstairs.

:)

and i'm off to my carol service now"!
feels weird shutting the shop i nthe middle of the day.

Gah! I typed a long post and then mumsnet decided to go offline for a few minutes and I lost it.

Come on Nickelbaby!

I know what folk mean about missing being pregnant. After DC1 and 2 were born I missed feeling them kick inside me. This baby is our last and i know when I leave the hospital (no home birth here due to medical history) that I'll be sad I will not be doing it again.

Sing the baby out Nickel.

I vote we invent a mumsnet version of the twelve days of christmas for Nickle and baby, I would do the first line but am crap at inventing so somebody be first...

Ooh Nickel I always wondered what job your DH did and now I know .

Nickel - what are you going to do with ISBN when you have to go back to running the shop? Is s/he going to be your little assistant? Can you leave DH in charge for the afternoons? Can you open up later?

To the tune of The 12 Days of Xmas...

On the last Day of Christmas said Nickel's baby
I'm not coming out
Even if you shout
In here's very warm
I kick up a storm
You can just get fat
I will be a prat
Here in this lovely womb
I am very happy!!!
This is a great place
You should see your face
Pop some more Rennies
And don't forget you need a wee.

Like that, you mean? :)

Hi nickel.

Keep smiling, you are fantastic ! I feel for all you ladies who are waiting for babies to arrive. Mine all came early so I never had to go through any extended waiting, it must be horrible.

Virtual gifts can be whatever you like !

On the first day of Christmas
My uterus brought to me
My ISBN from my wombeee