Morning everyone, thank you for all taking the time to reply to me. I had a terrible night sleep. Really shaken up and panicking about my treatment. Feel like I need to get my head around all this and write down questions and call my BCN on Monday. You struggle to take it in and think of questions when you're sitting there with the consultant.
I need to level my head and look at the positives - and you lovely ladies have helped me with that - the positives are clear margins and also that although it was in 1 node that's been removed and the fact my consultant said it's unlikely to be in any other nodes which is why he said no more surgery just radio to the underarm and breast along with the chemo and oestrogen blocker tablets.
I also struggle with the waiting. I waited a month post op for that news yesterday and now I've got to wait again to see oncology to start more treatment.
All of this with me isn't helped by the fact that in July I lost my mum to ovarian/womb cancer, I saw her go through surgery and chemo and she died regardless. I know it's a different cancer and hers was very aggressive but it's still very raw for me since losing my mum and now having my own diagnosis I can't help but think of the worst. Especially when I have a 7yo child. But I need to remind myself this isn't the same as my mum and I have to be strong to get through this. I have to get through this. Hard not having my mum around to chat to either.
Positive vibes needed. I guess I want someone to tell me it'll be alright in the end and positive stories from ladies like yourself really help me take a breath so thank you.
Sorry this turned into a really long message but it helps to write it all down!
Have a good weekend ladies xx
@quietmaelstrom That's great news you've now got clear margins so can move onto the next step, thanks for the virtual hug and well wishes x
@PemberleynotWemberley I did ask if having a positive node meant more surgery to remove the others but the consultant said no, he said they would give me radiotherapy to the breast and underarm along with chemo and hormone blockers and that further surgery wouldn't be needed. But that's something I feel confused about and also thought I would need further surgery but apparently not. Thank you for the hand hold and hug x
@dancingwhilstfacingthemusic Good luck with your scan this weekend. I think I'll use the weekend to try and process some of this and get my questions ready to call the BCN on Monday. Thanks for the well wishes x
@spartanrunnergirl Hope you're doing ok. Your story really inspired me and I so hoped I was following the same path as you but looks like I've got an extra hurdle to jump on the way with the chemo. That's how I think I need to look at it. I've got to stay positive but right now I'm in the 'oh crap' stage of it all. Thank you for the well wishes x
@TheFormidableMrsC Thank you for your positive message and well wishes. I think I just heard it was found in the node and kind of shut down when the consultant was talking. But I need to frame it like that - it is only 1 node, it's been cut out and the margins were clear. That is positive news and I need to cling onto that to stay positive throughout this. Also when you hear you need chemo you panic so always nice to hear of someone else's experiences and have someone to chat to so thank you x
@SunnyValemin Wow 31 nodes, that makes my 1 seem very small in comparison. Your story also feels me with some more positive energy. Especially as you are a year ahead of me. I guess I have to accept I'm in for a rough ride but hopefully by this time next year things will be looking brighter. Really appreciate your wishes and your story thank you. I also appreciate the offer re the head coverings etc, let me get back to you once I know exactly what I'll be facing once I've seen oncology x
@Pixilicious1 Thank you for sharing your story and well wishes. My consultant told me they wouldn't remove any more of my nodes as only 1 was positive for cancer cells so they would just do radiotherapy to the under arm along with the breast with chemo and hormone blocker tablets. I thought more surgery might be necessary but he says no. I wonder why that is. Keep us posted with your next steps of treatment x