I think I may be going completely mad. DS is 19 weeks and I hated BF for the first 12 or so as had thrush and tongue tie and and and...I decided for my own selfish reasons to put him onto bottles two weeks ago and it took over a week for him to accept it, though still BF at night. He is now teething and very distressed, and although he still takes the bottle has a lot of "boobie time" to feel better. I have realised that I was being a selfish witch and am now wanting to go back to BF. I know, how cruel is that to do to a little boy to mess about like this?! Is it too disruptive? Am I being horrible? The time and space has given me perspective and I don't ever want to deny him what's best ever again. I just want to scream when I think how stupid I've been. Do I go back?