Arcadie, Retro et al thanks for words of support. Still bleeding this morning dark red and quite heavy - like a period basically.
Have been trying to get a doctors appointment all morning - went to surgey but their systems went down, then did the calling a million times only to get engaged tone before finally getting into a phone queue and then got through and the earliest appointment they have is at 430pm! its shit isn't it, when i was there this morning the 2 women were sat there gassing to each other and one of the people who was being checked in even when the computers were working
do they not know that people are there because they don't feel well and have had to get up extra early because of the crap system and when you are standing there thinking you are having an mc, holding your baby who you need to get to nursery before 830 to get breakfast and then go to work and fake like you are fine and happy and had a great weekend seeing people being inefficient in and already inefficient process is about the icing on your rage cake .... whew rant over
am feeling abit better this morning, still not holding out much hope of this not being a miscarriage, and keep randomly bursting into tears, but shock has worn off and am feeling less dejected
will let you all know what the doctors says and what the outcome is,
hope everyone else is feeling ok alls going well for you all xxx