thanks for the support everyone. its weird how we have little waves of feeling the same way. i hate attributing anything to hormones as it seems to negate the issues somehow, know what i mean? but i am definitely more of a mad bitch these days then normal.
minnie - thanks for the hug its really not that bad - 7 people for the actual marriage and 30 the next day for rum punch and jamaican food (catered). My so-called "proper" wedding next year will require much more coordination but i am a serious fussyboots at the moment.
mcchesers thanks for that - and so true about being up the duff for the best part of a year. that is a lot of hormonal fluctuation! i also had a few drink blow-outs in the month in between but really, its been a rollercoaster, hasn't it.
minkus - i cancelled the danish this morning and felt a huge relief. the woman on the phone just said "good idea - just relax and enjoy the last weeks of your pregnancy" and for some reason, that meant a lot, coming from a stranger. why am i stressing so much, when the sun is shining and soon i will meet my lo. weird about the whole clit thing - everything connected to sexuality is just totally changed right now! also thanks for the compliment on my dh2b - i do think he is rather lovely but i am biased.
tinier - welcome to the club! we are all going through the same stuff to a certain extent so don't worry, whinge away. it can only help to get it off your chest. hope everything else is going as well as it can.
eec i have the same (guilty) feelings about stress and anxiety (and my occasional histrionics) but i am sure its going to be okay. we still have lots of time for baby to turn and to squeeze those pelvics. hope you mw appointment goes well.
libra - my nesting instinct is also very "abstract" and involves noticing grubbiness and things to do, then planning for other people to do them. maybe once i am off, i will actually do stuff . . .