hi all
its another bank holiday here - april and may have so many, its quite luxurious.
the painter can't come today because we didn't organise a ladder! i have somewhat of an excuse for being an airhead (hormones???)but dp?????
this morning i made my spring cleaning list, which made me feel much calmer. now i shall hand it to the cleaner when she next comes - and thats my nesting taken care of . . . !
seriously its weird to me that the idea of dust bunnies under the bed is making my skin crawl right now. usually i really don't care as long as things have a superficial appearance of being tidy . . .
when i manage to get enough sleep, i keep having really weird and disturbing dreams. i woke up this morning all upset - i had been dreaming that i gave birth to a cat. a lovely cat but still . . . and i blamed this colleague of mine (somehow she had done some kind of embryo swap, i guess???. I was in floods of tears and quit my job in a massive flounce.
i blame the national geographic channel - i watched a programme on pregnancy and how the baby develops last night which was all really interesting and cool until it got to the birth bit. wasn't a difficult birth but whenever i see one, i get really emotional and cry (most unlike me usually). its not so much fear of pain (I think i am getting my head around the idea of that - of course reality will be very different . . .) but its the knowledge that we will got through this intense experience and at the end of it, have this beautiful but vulnerable little thing to look after - (for the rest of our lives . . .)
don't get me wrong - i am totally up of it and so ready - but its an enormous thing to get your head around if you think of it like that - you know what i mean??
heffa - enjoy your last few days at work! i have 9 half-days left but quite a bit of work to achieve in that time. they suddenly decided that they want an environmental/CSR (greenwash) strategy from me before I go. . .
jodie - sounds like a really nice weekend. it is so cool that the weather is good - much more chilled than winter time, despite heat and swelling etc etc.
libra - i so need to finish my hospital bag! getting a bit panicky now. its HUGE too - an old Orla Kiely weekended. The nurses are going to think that I am moving in. Read last night in the Baby Whisperer (pretty mad, I think, but I like it) that you shouldn't take too much to the hospital but you know - i never travel light!
piggley - love the pics! the programme i watched was saying how important those scans are for bonding with your child - pre-birth and how it has an amazing effect on your relationship with them afterwards. So I am well jealous. So cute!
Gilly - i have no position tips but hope your physio works it out for you.
CilC - your hubby sounds really sweet! i think that sympathy belly is cute too. In fact, I get rather annoyed at how fit and thin my dp is, which is crazy. On sat he bought himself a lovely linen suit from COS and a shirt to go with it (to get married in) and he looks so dapper. But part of me feels annoyed that I am getting hitched 36 weeks pregnant and will be so upstaged by everyone including him! very childish, I know . . .
but i console myself by thinking that at the blessing/reception in Jamaica next year - I will not be the size of a planet AND will have the most gorgeous flower girl ever . . .
Current name for the girl is Elodie Summer Harrison (I know someone on Enders is called Summer but the programme and the name are not known here . . .). Still in the shortlist are: Tallulah, Molly, Imogen, Eloise, Bonnie, Matilda and Zaylie.
sorry for the essay-like post. have great days everyone!