Due December 07 - The end is in sight, or is it just the beginning!

[Wizzska]

Hello everyone. Will you come and join me?

Thanking you kindly... that was from Xmas last year so not very up to date.

really? He looks so grown-up... or maybe I am just getting into newborn baby mode

He has always looked quite old for his age IYKWIM. People are always surprised when i say how old he is.

Skid you dont have a profile... whyyyyyy I like to be nosey.

I did have one but somehow I made it disappear - had no photos on it anyway - maybe I will try again - pass the time until I need to go and get my bus

So glad to hear everything is ok Skidaddle. Just like Suey says - how bizarre that she had a scan for being on larger size for dates which had opposite result to your scan!

Just had a major nesting urge. With this weird smell in the spare/baby's room I now want DH to move his music stuff from the box room to the spare room and he will have to share so the baby can have the box room - it's plenty big enough for a first bedroom. Sooooo going to cook a lovely meal tonight (Sainsburys had Duck breasts on offer at half price) and gently break it to DH.

Now I need to decide what colour to paint the room - will have to be done this weekend as next 2 weekends are busy. What colours have you done yours? I was thinking a boring pale cream colour as have dark venetian blinds and curtains in there and moses basket is cream and have Millie and Boris bouncer and changing mat which is all cream and light brown - oh will also need to go to Ikea to get a cheap chest of drawers to tide us over.

What's everyone else got planned for the weekend?

Just back from Sainsburys as well where they have lots of toys at half price - really good for some stocking fillers.

Hi everyone

More of the same again today,lots of runblings down below but felt that the school run and then a dash to floors to go did not help.Came back and had a long rest and dd out tonight at sisters so more rest.

The end appears to be in sight with building work and by Mon we will have a kitchen. Flooring to go down in the week but that wont take long. Then they can wheel by big american fridge freezer in and I cant wait to use it.Im craving ice cold water and ice and as we are using a caravan fridge theres no option to have either stored at present!

Struggling with heartburn and everything I eat just sits on my chest so coughing and then weeing starts.Currently going through a pack of tena ladies a day and do hope it all returns to normal.

TMI coming up

When I wipe myself I can feel a big bulge underneath which must be pressure of head and explain weeing problem.Anyone else got this?

Told dh today that I cant get head round having a baby as been so preoccupied with house.He said same. Hope we will be ok.Its going to be very emotional anyway and will bring back memories of stillbirth so hoping we can get through it

loucee

We painted nursery a pale cream colour as I got all my soft furnishings from USA and they are rich autumny colours.I keep going in for a look as its so lovely

Chocolatepeanut I am the same with the heartburn. Am starving, but everything seems to repeat on me. Want to lie down, but then my back hurts and heartburn is worse. Everytime I get up then want to go to the toilet, but nothing there! Feel VERY disfunctional. Also being very impatient with my poor kids (6 and 3) as just want to look after myself and not them. How mean am I.
Like the sound of your nurseries. Not really into the pink/blue scenario. Yours sound much nicer! We're just renting, so sadly can't do much, but I've got navy blue curtains up and dark brown furniture and that looks ok.

Our nursery is a lime green, we love it feels really cosy all furniture is old pine and bedding greens and yellows.

Know what you feel about being mean with kids

I just dont have any energy for dd at moment and all she sees is me throwing up all the time

Its amazing how much wee comes out when i lie down and cough and yet if im on loo even if i cough NOTHING!!

CP - hope that's not the baby about to pop out of your nether regions that you can feel
I still can't get my head round the thought of having another baby either. You'll be fine - as I said on the other post, you almost certainly will be emotional after what happened to you before but that's perfectly natural. It'll probably be a great release when it happens and actually you will probably be mourning the other little one at the same time as celebrating the birth of this one.
I reckon your little baby knows it can't come until the kitchen is ready though....

Am really into lime green in fact any green at the moment.My kitchen leads into new conservatory which is painted willow green and kitchen and doors and floors are oak so thinking off green glass tiles for kitchen as worktops glossy black

my midwife said my waters will go as the last nail goes in!!

i wonder just how big this baby is as he seems to be popping out all over my body

our nursery is a nice pale yellow colour with a blue carpet.

melly poor you. I know how tough that is. My father is dying slowly every day in front of my mother's eyes. I have 3 older brothers but i am the only one who will just listen and not tell her what to do IYKWIM. If it helps, I take the view that i feel so privileged to be in such a lovely and exciting place right now that I have enough left over to share some good vibes with her. She is extremely excited about the baby and I ring her lots to ask advice which kind of takes her mind off it. She is very strong and not a depressive type at all, but it often gets a bit too much for her. Saying that i don't have to deal with lots of tears on the phone etc. I just hope LO hangs on until she can be with me (dad going into respite care so she will be down on the 12th dec for 8 days)

Hs your mum considered counselling? TBH if this is 17 years on and she is still struggling and finding it difficult to be happy for you it may be about time she had some help so she can heal a bit more? It must be miserable to live that way.

CP - didnt realise you had such a trauma. Hopefully you will be able to enjoy this baby.

Choc, it is good that you have so much to take your mind off of things and more so that your building work is nearly done! Does sound like the bulge could be your baby's head! How exciting. I can imagine how emotional you must be feeling too but you need to keep in your mind that your other LO was very early. I am sure you and DH will get through it and your new baby will be perfect and healthy x

We have not decorated our nursery yet at LO will be in with us to begin with, DH seems to think he will be painting it pink if baby is a girl so wants to wait and see for now. I think it is just an excuse for him not to get his finger out and sort the room out!

Well my LO has definitely dropped in the last 2 days, even DH noticed it is much lower and my bladder is now feeling decidedly squashed at times! I am finding it hard to eat though, have not really had much appetite for some time so have just been eating at set times out of habit. Think is, I am now finding that I can't fit much in and it is sometimes still trying to come up a few hours later - not nice. At least I know LO will still take everything he/she needs from me!

Not got a lot planned for this weekend. DS1 has football practice in the morning and getting a food shopping delivery in the afternoon. DH is working in the morning and will spend the afternoon with his mate. Sunday will be a lazy day, DH may be out looking for a new truck or may be finishing off the doors to his new shed - either way I am unlikely to see him until the evening when we have some friends popping in!

What's everyone else up to?

suey

sorry to hear about your dad.

My mum died when my sister was pg.Its a very difficult thing to balance,life and death

thinking of you x

Yes i think building work though it has driven me beyond madness as been a good distraction

But even now if lo goes quiet i do panic.

The end is in sight though but it feels like i have been pg since we lost philippa in April 05 as we tried since then and it will be wonderful to put everything behind me and get my life back if that sounds ok?

thanks choccie. I only hope he gets to see this little one before he goes. Sorry to hear about your stillbirth- i can't imagine how dreadful that must have been. But, positive now, how wonderful you had the courage to go again: there will be a few tears of joy and sadness when your LO appears, i think!

Of course you panic Choc, I panic and my losses were all first/late first trimester! I do understand what you mean about getting your life back too and of course it is okay to feel that way. I feel as though I have been treading water for the last couple of years waiting for this baby.

we all have to remember to count our blessings though dont we?

The end is in sight and I will NEVER forget how hard ttc is and really feel for those who are still trying

Heartburn,weeing and builders aside,it will all be worth it
x

Suey sorry to hear about your Dad too, I hope he gets to meet your baby - it will always be a comfort to you to know that your LO met his/her Grandfather in years to come.

Approaching birth is a very emotional time. Since I had DS1 DH and I have lost 4 of the most important people in our lives and I so wish they were all going to be here to meet this LO. DH lost his Dad when DS1 was 1 and his Mum when DS2 was 6 months old and the photos we have of them holding the boys are some of our greatest treasures. There are days when I want to talk to my Mum and Gran so badly and it makes me so sad that this LO will never meet these wonderful people. Without you guys to talk to I would feel very alone some days.

Exactly Choc, I don't care how many varicose veins, hernias and various other ailments I get as every single one will be worth it the second I get to hold, nurse and kiss my new baby.

I do feel very grateful.

Ah Choc, did not know about your past experience, I totally echo everyone's words a new chapter is coming for you and that is so wonderful.
I have willow green for my kitchen too - I just need to actually get around to putting it on the walls sometime!!

Suey2 - so so sorry to hear about your Dad. I hope as you say he gets to meet your LO.

My Mum has had counselling over the years but it never seems to have completely got her out the otherside of her grief and this time of year with xmas looming she is always more fragile. She's a complex little bean and often her own worst enemy, very good at interpretting people's comments not how they meant them which I'm sure is what's going on with her and my sis at the mo, usually I would intervene and be the negotiator but i just can't cope with the extra stress I know this will entail right now, so I'm going to try and stay out of it and hope it blows over.....

I miss my mum too.She was so desperate for grandchildren and died 4 mths before 1st one was born

But I like to think that she looks after the dd i lost