Well today has been absolutely awful. I know this isn't the right place to put this, but I don't think anyone else would be bothered.
DH and I have split up. I am so angry with him right now that I don't think I can ever bear to breathe the same air as him. He has accused me of being a thief and a liar and then proceeded to scream at me in front of DD. Apparently some of his money went missing from the house and "it's not the first time, we haven't got f*cking fairies living in the house".
I asked him, none too pleasantly what he was trying to imply and he basically came out and said he knew it was me who had taken his money and it wasn't the first time.
I am so disgusted with him, not only for his behaviour in front of DD but to even let it cross his mind that I would do something like that to him. Needless, to say, a huge row ensued, which I'm not at all proud of, and I ended up packing my bags. DD and I have come to mums for a bit of space. I told him that if he had that low an opinion of me, he could get his stuff and move out. He said he would "probably save me a f*cking fortune".
So here I am, sitting at my mum's house with DD in a strange bed. We are both away from home and staying here until he leaves. I can't bear the thought of him at the moment.
The sad thing is, this is supposed to be a happy time for us. We have been ttc dc2 for almost 3 years since the mc and having finally managed it, things are falling apart.
I am adamant that I did not steal his money and I feel sad and angry that he would think that of me in the first place. I fully intend to see through my decision for him to leave because at the end of the day, he'll lose more than I will. I do not intend for him to have any part of this pregnancy and that includes my emergency scan at the beginning of next week. To be honest, I would rather do it alone than live with, or breathe the same air as someone who thinks of me as a liar and a thief. (I feel, at this point that I should put a sneaky AIBU? but will refrain lol).
So, thanks for all your support over the last month. It's been great having people to talk to. I don't expect any advice on this one, so please don't feel obliged to give any. I am hoping that I will be able to pop back in the next few days, but as he pays for the internet, chances are he'll cut it off because he knows I rely on it for uni. Plus, although I am at my mum's, this is my brother's computer and he is a bit of a git when it comes to sharing.
Thanks again and good luck to you all xxx