***** DUE IN JUNE 08 ****** OMG I can't believe I just got BFP

[nh101]

I got BFP this morning six months to the day after my MC, only 12DPO but so happy. Please pray this one holds on!!!! I am due on June 1 according to OV calendars so have the pleasure of starting this thread.

Anyone else out there or am I the only mental person who tests this early?

Oh Lily. Poor you. So terrifying. Please try to keep your chin up. Are you able to get to your nearest epu?

My EPU is actually only about 10 doors away - I live near the hospital! I don't know whats up with me and why I won't ask to be referred. But I suppose its because I was treated so casually before by the EPU that I just cannot be bothered with their lack of interest. I spoke to about 4 different nurses and Drs and not one of them asked me how I was. They bordered on rudeness to be honest.

Can the scan def pick up heartbeat at 6 weeks if there is one? As I might just wait till 7 weeks so that I know for sure that there should be heartbeat so if they can't find one then I know where I am at.

Hi Lily, according to Wikipedia a heartbeat may be seen on a scan at 6 weeks and will normally be seen at 7 weeks (but even then, not 100% guaranteed it looks like) - link here - so for reassurance, you might be better off waiting a few more days, HTH

If you're that near then I'd go if it's stressing you. The stress could cause problems that might not even be there now. If you think you can cope with waiting then yes, that might be better but if you are like I was with the waiting then I'd get seen asap for your sanity. The worst part for me was I was put on bed rest and it was pre ds so was just laying on the sofa thinking about it whilst I spotted for a week and a half before it happened. Keeping your mind busy on other things would help you get through it but I personally would have to go to EPU because I know I couldn't handle the wait - that's just me though. I really hope it's nothing to worry about!

{{{ hugs }}} xxx

Flosspot and Lilypink - How are you both this morning?

Deb

Lilypink hows the bleeding this morning? I had some yesterday evening, sort of old blood in cm which is the same as I has earlier on on pregnancy so I'm hoping all will be well I think I really was too busy yesterday and need to rest for a while.

Flosspot, thinking of you.

Thinking of you both this morning and hoping that you are ok. xxx

Same here, Lilypink and Flosspot, thinking of you both this morning.

I woke up this morning with terrible pain under my tummy running along the length of the underneath. I was imagining all sorts of terrible things but so far there have been no other symptoms. I phoned the EPU to be told that I can't just walk in, I need to be referred by my GP. The lady did say though that if it was that bad to go to a and e.

So, because I am such a wuss, Iphoned my mum to ask her to have DD whilst I went to a&e but she is going to come with me. I spoke to the GP (can't belive that happened, first time in 26 years!) and he said the same, just to go straight there.

I know I am probably worrying unecessarily, but I've got all sorts of terrible thoughts going through my head just now. I think I just want to be scanned to be told that everything is looking ok. I'm hoping that this is the course of action they will take because I know I will only worry unless I actually see bean and know that everything is ok for myself.

This pregnancy business is so stressful. I just want to enjoy it and be happy to be expecting again, but I think the MC took that away from me and now I keep thinking the worst.

I'm off now, but just wanted to let you all know what was happening, because you are all so supportive on here and I think I could use some of that.

Hi Lazylou, hope things are OK and it's just ligaments stretching, thinking of you, let us know how you get on

Hi Lazylou - hope they scan you and everything is ok. I look forward to hearing how you got on.

I totally agree with you when you say that a mc totally takes away any enjoyment from a pregnancy. With my first pg all was well and I had such an amazing 9 months. I remember the first few weeks when no-one else knew that I was pg, DH and I would give each other secret knowing little smiles when out with friends and family. This time we hardly talk about it or really even acknowledged that I am pg - its such a shame. I feel robbed not only for the baby I lost but also or the ability to ever enjoy a pg again.

Today, I have had some more blood -darkish - similar to what I get before AF. And as I have had zilch symptoms for over 2 weeks now - I am pretty sure that I am mc again. I think you know in your heart what your body is doing. Damn my body.

GF3 - in my first succesful pg I did have something similar to what you describe when I was gardening - I knew it was from over exertion so wasn't worried. But this time my blood is different - no cm really just the blood IYNWIM.

Anyone feeling lovely and sick with whopper boobs? Lets hear something positive please!

Oh Lilypink, my heart goes out to you. I really hope it is not what you think.

How are you floss?

Nh what beautiful little beanies.

Lazylou I hope you've just overdone things and everything's OK

Lilypink So sorry to hear about your bleeding.

You wanted to hear some postive news - I've got the whopping boobs and am sooo sick and tired.

Deb

Lilypink really hoping all is well. I think pregnancy after miscarriage or infertility is always going to be a really different experience to those who just fall easily - the physical and emotional experience of that journey shapes everything that comes afterwards. Both my SILs fell v. easily and were happy to announce to the world early, whereas we had such a struggle to get ds1 that I couldn't bring myself to tell people till 13 weeks, didn't dare, and could never relax into it enough to really 'enjoy' it. This time round I am consciously trying to 'enjoy' it more but still can't feel that unalloyed joy - there's always the awareness that this is contingent somehow.

I also feel I have to explain to everyone that though this time came easy, last time didn't - a hangover from those seemingly endless months when I felt irrational loathing for people who fell easily (tried to control it but wasn't that strong) - though I'm sure people don't really want to know the intimate details!!

Now, to change tack a little, can anyone tell me if a bottle of Tizer and half a pound of Tangfastics sweets makes a healthy balanced lunch? They both have fruit in them ....

If Tiger and fangtastics is what you want then you should have it!! I've managed beans on toast here, am trying to eat often through the day to keep sickness at bay - it's not working.

Had to have a sleep before lunch - 20 minutes on the settee. Dh now has to do the morning school run as It coincides with my 2nd bout of sickness int he morning.You would think my boys would have noticed by now that things aren't the same but they seem happily oblivious!

Deb

Systemsaddict - definitely two of your five a day .

Haven't heard from Floss which is worrying.
Lily, are you going to see someone or just see what happens? My mother bled loads when pregnant with me, she thought she'd miscarried and I was fine (obviously!) It seems a lot of people bleed and it's ok. Must be absolutely terrifying though.
Lazy, am hoping as everyone says you've just stretched something. Sounds like you're in pain though which is awful. Hoping all is proved ok in A&E.

Agree with what you all say about lack of enjoyment. This is my first pregnancy so am torn between incredible excitement and being so scared. Am talking to the little bean inside me, willing it to live. But we all want that, and still such bad things happen.

Can I just ask a question from those who've had babies before please? Had period like feelings, cramps and pullings from a week before period due till the other day (now 5+6), now I've got a slightly taut tight sensation but that's it. How long did everyone else's cramping etc go on for? If it stops is that ok? Mild nausea as I've had all along and can't really see a difference with my breasts.

har - i had cramping all through with ds and was convinced something was wrong, but my sister told me (she's had 3) that you get that more with your first while everything's getting ready down there.

floss and lilypink, i am so so sorry to hear your worries, everything crossed from head to toe that all will be well. {{{huge hugs}}}

on the positive this stage of completely losing my mind seems to have passed. i think i've just been completely overtaken by hormones (and exhaustion) and i couldn't see the forest for the trees! had a long talk with dp yesterday and he really got through my fog and convinced me to drag my butt out of the house and since then i've been feeling much better. ds slept almost through last night which was a godsend and i've discovered that sparking water (which i usually detest) with a squeeze of lemon does WONDERS for ms.

also have enormous boobs... dp can't wait until they're not so sensitive.

oh I have just been catching up and want to cry, sending lots of thoughts out to you girls, hope its good news for you all and bleeding and pains stop.

I have felt like the bottom of a landfill today, started gagging while eating breakfast and have the energy of a squashed spider. My boobs are also sprouting nicely, fuller rather than bigger. DH isnt very good at people slobbing about feeling rubbish so Im sure he is quietly stewing at me.

Dylansluckymum - I know, it's beautiful weather outside, if I just got my own butt out there I'd feel much more perky I'm sure! Glad you're feeling better. It must be so tough being pregnant when you already have children. about enormous boobs!

Thanks for answering my question, thing is it was not really worry about the cramps being there, more that they've stopped now (just the taut sensation I talked about), wondered if that's ok (ie it's done it's bit for now and will cramp and stretch later on if need be) or if I shouldn't have stopped yet?

Hi Har, I had more cramps in earlier weeks and it's settled down now - it makes sense that it might do and that the initial stretching 'from scratch' hurts the most, so I wouldn't worry. And I definitely remember the same, though more intense, pattern last time. I think everyone's body and every pregnancy varies a lot so try not to worry too much! easier said than done

Hi Josey, sorry you're not feeling so good and dh stewing! Mine's being very sympathetic but can tell the novelty will wear off soon (and I shouldn't use up his patience so early!)

Systems, thanks so much. You're right, it absolutely makes sense that most pain at the beginning. And you're right about not worrying too, it certainly won't stop anything bad happening if it's going to. Feel stupid doing it when there're these things happening with some of the girls today, but I guess that's why I'm worrying! Oh I want us all to be ok!

har when i was pg with ds i was a nervous wreck and wanted to know what every little niggle was. i didn't find out about mumsnet until after he was born so i bombarded my sister (in Canada) with a minimum of one phone call a day, but usually 3 or 4). she used to answer her phone and say, is this my stalker?? so don't feel bad about asking too many questions or worrying too much... i think we all go through it!!!

Thank you dylansluckymum, you're so nice . Lol at you being your sister's stalker! Believe me if I had a sister who'd given birth (or a sister at all) she wouldn't have a minute's peace either!

Hope everyone's OK

Dylansluckymum - my dh is waiting for the sensitivity to wear off as well - he's hoping it happens before the milk squirting stage!!

Deb