So my tick box exercise of visiting the consultant today has turned into something larger than a tick box 
They did a growth scan and baby is apparently measuring at 4.446kg (9.8 lbs), anything above 4.5kg they worry about, while I've been measuring on the 90th line on my growth chart this puts me 4 boxes above the line at 39+1
The consultant was lovely, she explained everything really well but now feels like everything has turned on it's head. Baby's head is nowhere near engaged, which also concerns her because with first babies she would expect to be engaged at least partly by now so she was going to try a sweep but couldn't.
The elective c-section list is currently full (unsurprisingly since anyone going for an ECS will have been planning it for weeks) and I initially said I didn't want that anyway. She doesn't want me to wait for baby to come on it's own, partly size and partly because she doesn't want my waters to go when baby is nowhere near my cervix in case the cord prolapses. So I'm currently booked in for an induction tomorrow, however.... 1) she's not confident that the induction will work because of baby's position, 2) it would mean labour ward not MLU 3) she was very clear that delivery (if we got that far) would be on my back on a bed with legs up. Basically the complete opposite of my birth "wish" list.....
So now I think I'm leaning towards a c-section, but no one has mentioned this as being anywhere near a possibility so I haven't looked into it at all. The consultant said we can go to the hospital to and say I don't want induction I want a c-section and they'll admit me and do the c-section when they have a gap.
Basically my head is a mess, feels like everything has just been turned on it's head and I don't know what to do. So concentrating on checking my hospital bag because whatever happens I'm in hospital tomorrow..... 
