yes thank you wo
i went up on saturday, he had his son and a friend for the weekend, waas his son's 14th birthday.
we sat up watching tv, watched 51st state on video, i tried very hard to stay awake! he kept his distance tho, and yes, i went to bed in the spare room, was incredibly frustrating tho, spent all evening wanting to hug him or kiss him and couldn't, reassured me that i do love him, it's not just for convenience.
then had a lovely day sunday, we took the lads to the park so his boy could go on the skate park, they had good fun while we went for a walk round. went back to his and he cooked a roast, then we took the lads home, an hour each way.
got back to his and talked properly, he explained (with tears in his eyes) that he feels he can't compete with A (matthew's dad), as every conversation we have i end up mentioning A, tried to explain that this is just because he has been such a big part of my life for so long. talked lots and lots, he still needs to think things through but no, i didn't stay in the spare room last night 3 times in 4 hours