Had a miscarriage and due in April 2015? shall we try not to scare the other ones?

[TinyTear]

Hello

Having had 5 mcs and 1 DD I am not feeling very hopeful (juest realistic) even though I am doing different things than before...

4w today and on cyclogest pessaries since CD21...

Maybe we could have a separate thread to the biiiig one so we don't scare the others with our (my) negativity...

Welcome

TinyTear, 40, 1 DD, 5mcs, due in April but don't want to know the exact day...

Ok - so 8 week scan booked for Thursday morning.
12 week scan booked for 10th October - feel a bit funny about that, like it's tempting fate somehow.

Any news bristolian ??

Scan is at 2:45. Arrived at medical Centre ridiculously early and now just stewing in the car park !

Argh! Now my husbands car has broken down on the way here so I'm going to have to go in by myself! Nooo!

Good luck Bristol

Good luck Bristol.

hope everythings ok Bristol

You'll feel better once you've had your scan on thursday Shetland, My matnra at the mo is no cramps no bleeding, its likely that all is ok...

Well that was the opposite of reassuring. The bean is smaller than it should be and heartbeat is very slow. They've referred me back to the epau tomorrow but got to say it's not looking good (though she did say she's seen pregnancies go on after ultrasounds like this). Feeling devastated.

((Hugs)) bristolian I'm not going to say don't worry because of course you're going to a- but it could still be fine so maybe try and focus on that xx

I hope that's the case lila I was relieved when I got the appointment through this morning but now I just have that sinking feeling every time I think about it.

Hugs Bristolian
What was the date difference? I heard that 3 or 4 days either side can be ok (last time i measured 6 days smaller and some people still tried to tell me it as going to be ok)

I hope you have some answers tomorrow

It had doubled in size in the week but should have grown a lot more. Heartbeat should have been quicker too. It's obvs still alive but maybe only just? The sonographer also said it could have been a twin pregnancy with one lost. She said it looked 'unusual'. Anyone got any wise words? I don't know what to think.

Oh bristolian, hugs. I know you must be feeling awful.

Just wanted to say thank you to everyone for such a warm welcome yesterday.

hi bristolian - fingers crossed for you. last week you had a blob with a heartbeat and this week you have a bigger blob with a heartbeat. take the positive in that - of course you'll worry, but they're going to look again soon. im sorry you're left with more questions than answers for now. thats rubbish. Thinking of you xx

Thanks for the encouragement ladies. I've just downed a whole bag of haribo, and am trying to stay as positive as possible for now.

Bristol - sorry it wasn't better news but good there is still a heartbeat. do you have the scan measurements? early on they are really testing the scanners ability to measure tiny lengths and an extra mm here or there can just be a slightly different cursor position and that can add or remove days on a scan. how far out are the measurements? I.e. how many days did you gain on the scan versus days in real life? A few is quite easily explained by machine/user accuracy. hope your other half is being supportive and the haribo helped.

I am definitely over the worst of my sickness. Hoping it is just me getting better at managing it rather than anything more sinister. got a scan on Saturday at hopefully 9+1 and I hope after that I may relax a little more for my holiday.

who else has scans this week?

Hi ladies

Sorry I've not been on for a while, will read back to catch up with everyone.

bristol I'm sorry your scan wasn't as reassuring as it could have been. I echo the other ladies though, keep positive and good luck for tomorrow.

Good luck with the obstetrician tomorrow smiling

Welcome carebear

As for me, had my booking in appointment with the mw today. Very strange going through everything again considering we only did it originally in May. She was really great about my mmc though and said that I can see her as many times as I like if it helps. I have been marked as 'anxious about pregnancy' in my notes as my answer to being happy about this pregnancy was a but muddled (of course I am, I'm just terrified)

Private early scan on Sunday (where I hope to see a sticky bean measuring 8+1) can't stop thinking about it and not in a good way. I'm fully preparing myself for bad news and feel sick just thinking about it.

Bristol I am so sorry that you didn't receive such positive news at your scan today. Take comfort that beanie is still hanging on & has a heartbeat.

Best of luck with your scan tomorrow. I have one too & I'll be thinking of you.

Oh Bristol, I am sorry, I reallyhope all is going to be ok, its the not knowing thats the worst. Are they going to rescan you tomorrow? Will they do bloods to? Be kind to yourself and take it easy.

I feel exactly the same about my 12 week scan next week Shetland and one day , and the same about my 7 week. You won't know till they get scanning.

I think I have to see an obstetrician to smiling, will be interested to know how you get on.

Just read the scan reports a bit more thoroughly. Less than 1mm growth in a week and today's sonographer thinks it could be a molar pregnancy. We do not have much hope for tomorrow. I'm getting a scan and I guess hCG bloods as well in light of the possible molar. Just googled molar pregnancy and just about have myself a heart attack. I think I need to stop looking at the internet for the night. Thanks for all your lovely support ladies xx

Bristol, someone in the RMC thread (I think Squizita) had a molar. Maybe ask there for advice?

Hugs if you want them

And on my news I don't have morning sickness... I have afternoon/ evening sickness. Just managed 2 pieces of toast as couldn't stomach anything else...

And my left hand hurts! Doctor Google says maybe carpal tunnel syndrome... Have a GP appointment on Thursday anyway so shall ask then if it continues...

Sorry to hear that bristol Don't google/research anymore and try to get some sleep for tomorrow. Wishing you the best of luck for tomorrow xx

tiny I hear you with the afternoon and evening ms. Haven't actually been sick yet but am really sickly in the afternoon and after go to bed and fall asleep feeling sick too. Last time I felt instantly sick on waking so am keeping fingers crossed that the difference in ms means a different outcome this pregnancy!

Good luck to you too london for tomorrow x

Oh Bristol im sorry your scan didnt go well, I know its hard but try and stay away from dr google.

got to work this morning and ended up having to walk to school, it took 40mins and id forgotten most of it is a gradual climb then the steep hill down and the horse steps up, by the time I pushed my charges through the gate I was in tears, I had a pain in my stomach and actually thought I was going to pass out, thankfully my friend found me and gave me a lift back otherwise I would have curled up on the pavement

told my bosses this afternoon who said they had already guessed , I was really upset that they'd guessed but still think its ok for me to walk. I was too gobsmacked to say anything but im going to speak to the dr tomorrow and see what he says, ive still got shooting pains in my pelvis and my hip is really sore (its been clicking for weeks)