Okay, here goes. Last post. I'm going to try and keep to the lighter side if possible but it is distressing by its nature so please don't read if you're feeling fragile.
I gave birth to my boys on Monday morning and they were utterly, mesmerisingly gorgeous and perfect and they looked like little mini-daddies. I held them on my bare chest for a long time, we/ MW took photos and made foot and hand prints, and we were able to keep them by us in a cold cot. My family met them too. On Tuesday night we held a wee private naming and goodnight ceremony, just me and DH, and then allowed the boys to be taken care of elsewhere until their funeral. They've gone to try and help other babies survive.
I came very close to death as the infection took hold during the births. I gave my poor husband and a dozen medics and midwives a hell of a scare. I'm at home now with a personal pharmacy and a lot of bruising, but definitely on the mend. RL support is amazing.
I've popped in here and there and you lot still make me laugh out loud. I will miss you and I'll check in down the line and see how you're doing. Ladylel you're obviously having some similar worries to me but it's a completely different situation - you're much further on and have much more chance of reaching a safer gestation. If there's one thing I've learned through all the TTTS stuff it's that prem babies make it at what seem like impossible GA's - all the time. Good luck, my darling.
So, our wonderful sons!
Ivor Mama'o 'A Hikuhikusila, born August 4th 2014, 8.43am weighing 12oz.
Ã’ran Fononga L?loa, born August 4th 2014, 8.49am, weighing 1lb.
Ivor - Norse, warrior. Mama'o 'A Hikuhikusila - loved one far away who will return. Ã’ran - Gaelic, song of life. Fononga L?loa - one who has travelled far. Polynesian names a gift from Granny 10,000 miles away, Scottish names were the ones I fell in love with, just like I fell in love with my beloved twin boys. My mum had started knitting the first shawl so we gave it to them as a wee blanket, made with love like they were, and they'll be wrapped up in it together, forever living in our hearts.
Thank you all, so very much for all your support - it has meant the world to me. Please continue blooming and busting out all over and have wonderful, beautiful, happy babies and give them all the love in the world. I'll be back here in happier times and maybe some of you will be back then too.
With love x