November 2014 - anybody yet?

[Squeakybeaky]

Hi all, I have my BFP and due 30th October. It's my third baby and was 2 weeks late with the last two so bound to be November.

Anybody else for November yet? I know it's very very early :)

Sorry about the double words my phones autocorrect is awful!

Oh that makes me feel better, thanks alita
I've googled it & I'm only in the mild hypertension section so will stop worrying until I've seen a midwife!

Little update. Because of my previous losses, I have been offered an early reassurance scan at EPU at just under 7 weeks, which will be 2 weeks tomorrow. I'm excited, nervous etc. I'm just really glad they have done it for us, makes me feel like they care.

I've also booked a private scan for just under 10 weeks, simply because I wont be able to wait for the 12 week scan.

This weekend will be a milestone for me because I was 4 + 6 when I started spotting last time I miscarried. I didn't have any of these strong symptoms that time though, so I'm feeling quietly positive.

I don't think I'm doing too well. I really wanted this but I'm a mess, in all honesty. I don't seem to be able to cope with anything. I had an email from my ex husband today being his usual nasty bullying arsehole self but instead of just thinking oh eff off I have had to take myself to bed for the rest of the day because I got myself in such a state, I was screaming & shouting, sobbing uncontrollably, could feel my blood pumping in my head, gave myself chest pains, I was borderline panic attack and had cramps ever since and loads of cm to the extent I've been checking it's not blood. My head is thumping and I've had all sorts of histrionic dark and scary thoughts. This isn't me and I can't afford to be like this. If I'm like this when I'm not even 7 weeks yet I'm not sure I can cope with another 30 like this. I wasn't like this with DD. It actually crossed my mind a few times today to stop this now and forget the whole thing before I end up jumping off Beachy Head. Not sure I can do this.

Random first big hugs. This is an emotional, stressful time anyway without having additional shit to deal with. Do you have anyone else you are able to talk to? Even if you haven't wanted to tell people early I'd think it might be good to confide in a friend or someone, as you need someone to help support you and take the load off you a bit. Focus on yourself, not arsehole ex-husband and make sure you and your wellbeing is your first priority. We are all here for you.

Random, I definitely think you need to talk to someone. If not a friend then a GP or midwife? Take care, I hope it's just a blip.

Random it might not be much comfort but it's normal, I cried and felt angry for hours after a misunderstanding on a thread on these boards... It was totally silly, I've had loads of silly things happen between me and DP or DSD which I would normally brush off yet for ssome reason now I can't cope. Maybe we all need a group hug!

I dont know about anyone else but with all the best things in my life I've had to work for them or put up with shit in order to keep them - it's almost like life needs me to prove I want things enough. I think pregnancy is no different, It seems we have to put up with all these symptoms to earn our perfect little ones!

Oops hit send accidentally.

Anyway definitely think you need to find someone to support you, have you told anyone other than yo ex, maybe your mum or a close friend because I think you need someone to let of steam to. Are you able to get enough sleep? I feel worse without enough! Big cuddles and I hope you feefeel a bit brighter!

Random sending good thoughts & internet hugs if you want them. Weird emotions everywhere seem to be par for the course, I am a calm type (can count the number of times I've lost my temper on the fingers of one hand) and today, being asked to do something totally banal, got genuine rage over it. It is freaky feeling "this isn't me."

Are you in a town where there are meet ups etc? DP & I went to a meet up for parents & prospective parents recently and it was FANTASTIC being able to talk to other people who had been in the same position, because none of our friends know yet and the internet only takes you so far.

Hope tomorrow brings a brighter dawn anyway :)

So sorry you're feeling bad Random You really are in a very vulnerable situation and all the negative stuff is piling up and overwhelming. I agree with everyone, confide in a friend or your GP and get some advice. You know yourself best and only you can decide where you want to go, but don't make any quick decisions. Xx

Got an email back from the head of midwifery. Apparently the clerk who took my self referral over the phone was "misinformed" about when and where my booking appointment would be. It won't be at my local hospital on the same day as my 12 week scan. But at 7 weeks at my local children's centre, where I'll have the rest of my community appointments. Hurrah! Except it's one where I sometimes work, and know all the staff! So don't really want my booking appointment there! Hopefully it can be changed before my name goes in the appointment book for all to see.

Wilhelmina - so sorry, hope another chance comes for you soon .

random - I hope you can find some IRL support. Be gentle with yourself and just try to make it through each day.

I actually don't have much in the way of symptoms yet, aside from a bit of nausea in the morning and feeling knackered. Makes me worry. I'm sure I felt more nausea and more knackered first time round!

I'm so sorry Wilhelmina, it is terribly sad. I hope you have someone with you to look after you this evening. I am thinking of you.

Random I'm sorry to hear today has been so hard for you. This is a vulnerable time and can be hard going. Is there anyone you can talk to about how you are feeling who is close to you?

I'm having a minor panic today and hoping it goes away. I've had stomach cramps for the last two days, mainly towards the end of the day, which feel rather like period pain. It has been accompanied by the odd tiny bit of brown blood today. I had spotting very early last week for a couple of days from around 7dpo-11dpo, so I'm hoping this is just part of that rather than a sign of a problem to come. I'm only just 4+ weeks this week, so it's very early days. Drs appointment tomorrow thankfully so hopefully that will reassure me.

Anyone else feel a bit bigger? I'm only 4 weeks but yesterday and today my jeans feel tighter but it doesn't feel like usual bloating, different somehow. .

Saw Gp today and because of recurrent miscarriages in the past they'll refer me to epu for early scanning which is a relief so I should get an appointment for 6-7 wk scan.

Random hope you have some rl support and hope you're feeling ok tonight.

Yes! I feel huge today Definitely getting a little uncomfortable in the trouser department Also feeling a little sicky after dinner tonite. Hoping this isn't the start of nausea, I was hoping for a coupla weeks off!

Dilys moon, definitely I'm 6 weeks in a few hours (not that I'm counting my way to each milestone :p) and at 4 weeks not only felt bloated but could feel that the pubic area was slightly hard and stuck out a bit and it's now harder and slightly more stickiouty :) basically my belly looks rounder in general.

Also (apologies in advance for TMI), I'm getting a lot of CM in the last day or two, the normal stuff rather than EWCM. Random I saw you said the same, has anyone else had this?

I rang my GP surgery yesterday to get a referral to the midwifery team and they insisted that I have an appointment with my GP next week. With DS1 I only ever saw the midwives (different GP surgery) so I'm not sure what this is for. I did point out to the receptionist that I'll only be 6 weeks and wasn't it a bit early but she was very insistent. So, what will the GP do? Is it just a lecture on the evils of drink and the importance of folic acid? I really can't see the point of this appointment, I only wanted to get into the system so that I would get an appointment for my 12 week scan.

Best wishes and good luck to all those having a tough time of it.

Had to take my DS to doctors today so I mentioned pg to dr and she booked it in, took my blood pressure and told me to start taking folic acid and to make a booking in appointment with midwife which I did for the 24th March which I'm quite looking forward to, it might make it all real.

Wuthering I never understand the point of making you see the dr first- it doesn't add anything. Luckily we can self-refer directly to the midwives here without having to go near the gp surgery!

Feeling really crap physically tonight- went out for dinner with some friends and had a funny turn and felt like I was going to faint. Still feeling a bit weird. Was so hard keeping it from my friends as baby talk came up a lot as well!

They made me see the gp first too, even at only 3/4 weeks.. forms all sent off for the midwife but not been contacted yet, unsurprisingly!

I am fairly symptoms free too, bar some low level settling in pains. Last time was much the same till sickness kicked in around week 6 though, so hoping lack of symptoms is fine and just similar thing. Did feel like a fitted shirt I haven't worn in ages is a bit tighter but could be psychosomatic or all the pies I ate last weekend

We can self refer too but I'd previously been told to see my gp when I find out im pregnant to discuss my tablets. I have to take super strong vitamin d and calcium through pregnancy they're horrible

dilysmoon definitely getting bigger. Theres a noticeable difference under my work clothes. Gonna struggle to hide it soon!

It'll be a money thing re the GP. Probably.i bet they get extra payments if they have the initial consultation?
I reckon I look about six months pregnant despite being only 5 weeks- mostly bloating I'm sure as I don't think it's possible before 12 weeks for the uterus to protrude over the top of the pelvis?

Good grief ladies, I woke up with the worst migraine at 6am Thought my head was going to pop. Woke DH to get me some water and pill sang went back to sleep. Feel better but very delicate Hoping this isn't going to be am ongoing thing!