I have had a horrible day with reduced foetal movement. I have been rushed off my feet and under a lot of stress at work for the last couple of days. Yesterday was fine, in fact baby was very energetic, kept me awake into the early hours with really strong kicks.
But today it dawned on me when I went for a quick drink that I hadn't felt any movements all day. Normally no matter how busy I am I still notice the movements. But I put it down to rushing round. I get an increase in movements at dinner time so thought I would see if the baby moved then.
Still nothing, so I phoned the day ward and burst into hysterical tears while I was on hold. I work at the hospital so could go right up thankfully, my mum rushed up and met me. The Midwife was lovely and reassuring and found the heartbeat right away and monitored me for 5 minutes, my notes say HB was 150 BPM and note 3x accelerations of movements in my notes with no decelerations. I had to stay on the ward drinking ice water and lying down for half an hour and eventually felt some flutters, but nothing too strong. I am so relieved and have a scan booked for tomorrow just to check.
I still don't know if there were no movements or I was too stressed to notice them.
I am really pissed off with myself. I feel absolutely crap for putting any job, never mind a shitty job where I (and my colleagues) are constantly taken advantage of (and I have been made redundant!) ahead of the health of myself and baby. I have rushed round all day feeling increasingly strained and anxious not keeping up with the workload at all, and I would tell anybody else not to take risks, not to let employers treat them like mugs, yet I am guilty myself. 