... Completely exhausted by craziness of previous night with so many intensive contractions (obv did not abuse gas & air for hours when waiting for anaesthetist to return, and end up completely high, in agony but strangely happy)
This morning spent 3 hours pushing exhaustively whilst behind the scenes Drs & midwives organised EMCS in theatre, as they already knew my enemdeavours hopeless as LO & I back to back. I had no idea.
Rushed into theatre for forceps / CS, & ended with c section this afternoon.
Completely thoroughly knackered & bewildered. Did all stages of labour except give birth. But now struggling to move or properly even cuddle LO.
Soooo in love with him though, all totally worth it & DH proved himself a star (& a guaranteed baby bore
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Sorry if TMI & I think mine is unusual in that things were unexpected & a few things went wrong that don't generally. I guess
My biggest moral is trust your own judgement
One midwife told me my contractions were pessary 'twinges' thus terrifying me of what an actual contraction would be like. I was 4cm dilated 
I knew something wasn't quite right about 1st epi but anaesthetist didn't listen as in a rush.