Due in October 2012 - Part 5

[Kyyria]

Just starting us off on a new thread

Hi ladies

Guess we all really feeling it now eh??!! I too am just totally fed up with everything, finding it hard to cope etc, and suspect its because I just want to be on mat leave already!!!

What's everyone's last day? I finish 31 Aug, (I can only carry bean to around 34 wks due to a medical condition). We are looking at my section being booked for around the 3rd wk in Sept, so if I finish work then, I can have a week or so at home with DS before he starts school.

Just realised how mental the next month is going to be tho, we are nearing the end of term so got loads of paperwork to sort and file, plus we run a holiday playscheme so iv got to plan and arrange everything for that. They haven't got anyone to cover my job yet......oh, and the sale of our flat is completing on the 27th July, so iv got 2 weeks to pack before we move in with my parents aaarrrrggggghhhh!!!!

Sod the Olympics, give us pregnant ladies the gold medals!!!

Huffle DH gets a kick in the shins if he wakes me up .

CWest last day is for me is 19th July. I would like to work later but no-one needs me this summer holiday. We are taking DS to London for a few nights to do the museums and that, spoil him a bit, then we may well be moving. Plus I have Uni work to catch up on and all my child minding paperwork needs its annual review (supposed to me done in March ). So you are having your baby first then?

I'm feeling fairly hopeful about the house today but actually feel guilty for thinking of leaving Letting Agency because they are so nice, and it's not their fault the landlady is a meanie. I will have to find a way to leave some really nice feedback for them. I feel sad about moving. My little house is my castle and it could be so beautiful if it was properly looked after.

Squidkid Enjoy your time off. Really, nobody EVER died wishing they'd worked more hours.
As you are on 6 month contracts (I think), and you will be off 2 months before birth, will you RTW at 4 months or 10 months of age? If you can at all afford it 10 months is great.

Totally agree lisbeth- however much you love work (and you're lucky if you do love it and feel you make a difference), it's not the most important thing in the world.
I'm finishing on 21st Sept, so still got 10 weeks to go. The first 2 weeks will officially be holiday, then maternity will start- and I'm taking the full bloody year. Can't wait.

Thanks for ankle-based well-wishings- it's finally on the mend!

Huffle, I've been having similar movement experiences- total, baby woke up at 5 and kicked me furiously for an hour. Then haven't felt too much all day today, but she's definitely feet down and facing the back because what I can feel is like I'm being kicked up the arse.

Am still reminding myself of the 'teddy bear in a balloon thing'.

Cherrychopsticks Your story reminds me of my friend who was living in Japan when a colleague said to her: "You must find it very difficult buying clothes because you're so big and fat." She is 5ft 5ins and a size 10! But compared to most Japanese women that is quite big I suppose. My French doctor has already told me to fait attention and I've put on about 7kg (just over a stone).

My little wriggler currently has a foot or something very ticklish under my rib cage!!

So tired today - woke up early from stoopid early morning light, then dozed fitfully having a series of increasingly mad dreams including DH having an affair and a much older work colleague wanting to 'do the sex' with me Also heartburn like you wouldn't believe today - youch!

All in all it has not been the best of days...

Angelico ouch, you made me laugh with "do the sex"!! I'm with you on the weird dreams. I also dreamt recently that DH had an affair Makes you feel crap all day when you've had crap dreams. Last night i had a bit of a horror film moment, zooming up close to a really horrible face. Stayed with me all day.

Huge sympathies to those feeling exhausted and over-worked. I'm with you! Today was hard. Running (in my mind - in reality, lumbering) around like a headless chicken today, left late, stuck behind a really fecking slow driver ALL the way home, cook supper for screaming child, sit having continuous braxton hicks whilst said child throws food on floor for 45mins, then spend 45mins cooking fecking supper. At least DH did bath.

I am absolutely totally and utterly shagged.

Last day at work 30th Aug in theory (depends if I have to use annual leave for any DS illnesses). Feels like ages away, I'm big and achey and lumbery and slow. Last pg I stopped at 34wks, and had a blissful 6wks swimming, napping, meeting friends etc. This time I fear it will not be quite so chilled... At least I have the sweet memories of last time!!

Right, fecking supper is finally fecking ready. Off to eat.

(sorry about all the fecking. When I'm tired I'm cross and abusive)

I'm struggling too. Really really tired, ended up crying the other night over something completely stupid just because I felt so tired and rubbish just as though I couldnt do any more. Woke up at 4am this morning and couldn't get back to sleep. Being tired also makes me anxious so I end up internally questioning every decision I make at work completely irrationally, which makes me more anxious.
Going to be reducing my hours from the end of next week so I'll only be working 2 days a week - unfortunately it will be GP work which is the work I find more tiring and stressful. Need the money though as I won't be getting much maternity pay cos most of my work is self employed. And I will also have more time to spend with dd over summer holidays, really looking forward to that.
I am also eating too much chocolate because I am tired and stressed, 3 chocolate bars in a day is not a good idea. Need to get some self control.

Dame your day kicks my complaints into the long grass. Wish they did a medal smilie but in absence of medal have some Am in complete awe of some of you, especially those still working AND looking after DC already. How are you doing it and not dropping dead from exhaustion?!

X-posted Smiley - some for you too.

Your name made me realise why my spelling of 'smilie' [sic] in last post looked odd - doh! Clearly head is still wrecked at my colleague's pursuit of me through my dreams...! :o

Ooh, Dame, I haven't had any Braxton Hicks yet, although I'm really nervous about them because I'll probably freak out and skip straight off to hospital. These days, the slightest thing makes me think something might be going wrong. Anyone else?

thanks guys. you're really lovely. Yeah lisbeth I am taking the full year so will be going back when baby squid is 10 months. And I'm going to go part time. My work's important to me, but other things are too and I have no interest in having a kid I barely see. Part time as a doctor is 30-odd hours a week anyway. And I'm very very lucky in that I have job security and a decent salary (and no expensive tastes!)

Today was a bit better - I slept a bit better and dealt with all my patients well even though they were all weird and complicated. Admin dept giving me crap at the hospital then made me burst into tears, because I am an overly-sensitive tired pregnant idiot. It seems like we can work all day every day for our patients trying to do the best we can possibly do, and no one ever comments on that, but we fill in some stupid form wrong which has nothing to do with patient care and get snotty emails and threats (I'm sure all the teachers on here know the feeling!) I hate them. Had a good cry and upset poor boyfriend, he's gone to football now.

Not many days left at work at all for me.

very-nearly-30-weeks. i feel massive and tired but I'm still in my normal clothes mostly and I am supercute you tell yourself that squid. a mate of mine says I look like how dr suess would draw a pregnant girl that is my favourite compliment ever.

aww thanks, Angelico. I didn't mean that to come out as crap day one-upmanship - we all have lots to cope with! My day brightened up when I finally tasted the (fecking) supper - it was surprisingly delicious! New recipe, and I was bitching to DH that I would never be ever cooking it again unless it was (fecking) delicious as it was such a (fecking) pain in the arse to make it (DH was washing up at the time, bless him, trying to make as little noise as possible and not stand/breathe/exist in a way that wound me up at all ). Looks like I'll be making it again...

London IME BHs are absolutely nothing like actual contractions. It feels a bit like weird baby movement to me - except my bump goes rock solid, sometimes all over, sometimes just one side or t'other. No pain, just discomfort, because suddenly there's less space to breathe. They're really weird.

hufflepuffle my boy snores sometimes and this morning (about 5am) I smacked him and said "stop snoring!" and he woke up with a jump and I felt a bit guilty... I keep worrying about having a baby in the bed too! (planning to co-sleep hopefully) I fear we might need a bigger bed...
The variable movements are weird and stressy aren't they!! Squid went quiet for a day or two and is back to kick boxer today. Enjoy your time off. and thanks for your comments xxx

Cwest sounds stressful :( I can't imagine trying to move in amongst all this... let alone with my parents! really thinking of you

WantanOrange another poor moving pregnant girl... I don't know how you do it! Hope you have a lovely summer otherwise, london museums sound like fun!

Londonmrs heh, I like your description of bean acrobatics. Mine seems to only boot my upper/left abdomen. I hope this means he/she's nicely head down already!

Smorgs huh! As if we don't have enough stresses without being weighed repeatedly, not impressed with the french docs on that front! (Nor japanese ones for thinking 5'5" and a size 10 is fat! ) I don't know how much I've put on and I'd rather keep it that way, though will prob weigh myself at 40 weeks for interest! AS if women don't beat themselves up enough already, pah.

angelico I have been having so many crazy sex dreams you wouldn't believe. Also my sex drive is through the roof and I am having to sort myself out at least once a day if boy is too tired. And then when we actually have sex I have to get in weird positions which is amusing/embarrassing. Even my very-inappropriate sex dreams seem to turn me on madly and I wake up the boy and he then considers this a "work-free shag" as I don't need any warming up... er this may be too much information. dreaming about affairs is no fun though. I have dreams where everyone dies in a war, or something - standard feeling-vulnerable dreams I guess...

dameflatyoulent sounds like a crap day, poor you. I'm with you on the sheer exhaustion and feeling LUMBERING. Your prev pregnancy sounds like my plan for August... we'll see.

smileyhappymummy you too... seems like we are all so tired and worn out already! I'm glad you're reducing hours though GP work is pretty emotionally exhausting and lengthy days. I am exactly like you with the overly-questioning and losing my confidence when I'm tired... it sucks.. it is really hard to maintain self-belief when you can't sleep,it affects everything. Hope you have some nice plans for summer holidays with kiddie.

I think that's everyone.You're all so lovely and I feel like I just come on here and whinge about my own silly problems, I'm sorry!! thanks for everything.

I'm hoping to finish on the 28th Sep (4wks hol) then officially start mat leave around due date (28th Oct) - not sure yet if we can stretch to 9months off or if it will have to stay at 6months.

Back to work a week on Mon (23rd July) after 4 wks off sick with stress. Not looking forward to going back, just got to tell myself I've only got to get through 9wks. Have also got 8 days hol left so will try and take the odd day off each week (or maybe do mornings only on my last weekat work).

Sympathy to everyone suffering from general crappiness.

Must admit I stupidly decided to look up some videos on labour today - from proper websites, not just you tube! Have managed to freak myself out...not majorly, but enough to think I better get my arse on gear and start thinking about birthing plans.

Does this sound weird? The main thing I'm worrying about is having to be stark bollock naked infront of hubby and general strangers! I've obviously been naked infront of DH before (otherwise we wouldn't be baking a bean!) but it's mostly with the lights off/under covers. I've always been on the big side and I'm just not that comfortable with flaunting my naked body in public!

I think I'm just overly worrying and being a massive nobber!

I know we have members all over the globe bit just interested in knowing if any of us are local to each other...I'm in NE England (Chester-le-Street).

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Kyyria everyone tells me that when the time comes, I won't care if I do a poo on the bed in front of my hubby... and I've already warned him this is a possibility.
I think you're all lucky having interesting sex dreams. I dreamt last night that I was looking after the baby and her legs fell off. There was no blood or anything, they just fell off. It was horrible. Then I was trying to reattach them with sellotape and hide the botch job under the nappy so my husband wouldn't notice. What a nobber.
Fear of being an inadequate mother do you think?! Or possibly just a literal fear of the baby's legs spontaneously dropping off. Bizarre. My brain terrifies me.

Kyyria from my limited experience of labour (seeing other people's, not my own!) by the point you're naked you're in your own separate world and I don't think you'd remember to care. It's a crazy, primal thing, labour - the ones I've seen anyway. Maybe some second/third time mums can share if this is true or not...

I think about stupid-seeming things as well. LIke how I can pack my hospital bag (hoping to have a home birth, but obv need hospital bag in case) when I need many of things from it in everyday life? I only have one pair of pyjamas/brush/etc!

I know it's hard with work looming on the horizon again but I hope you manage to think of some nice things to do in your last week-and-a-bit.

I'm in Sheffield.

By the way Squid, you look a bit too gorgeous on your photo- it's almost annoying.

Re: Sexy dreams.... I wish! Mine have been verry random and bizarre. dreampt last night that i had to rescue a lady that fell underneath a foot bridge over some very very cold water. And then found burried things under the bridge including dead bodies... then the mob came after me.
Squid... my DH is a bit jealous... he's been lucky to get a shag every other week. (however my sex drive has always been lacking)

re: Leave... I'm planning to work until Oct 12th. Work has a stupid rule that your last day before mat leave has to be a friday. EDD is Oct 19th... so only a week off before my due date. Am I being unrealistic? I have a pretty slack desk job so i'm not too worried.

2 more hours then i'm off on holidays for 12 days!

londonmrs you are ridiculously kind but thanks. I have a round face that means when I am dropping dead of tiredness people say I look "so healthy!" ALso means old women talk to me at bus stops (and work, which is often useful).

the sellotape dream sounds pretty standard worried-about-being-a-mum dream! Why are our brains so mean to us? I had lots and lots of horrible dreams about bleeding and dead babies in the first trimester - thankfully they stopped - I haven't even had a miscarriage like so many women so it seemed a bit over-the-top to be so subconsciously worried about it. But it's a big thing we're all doing, even though it's the the oldest and commonest thing in the world.

Kyria I was NOT naked in front of a crowd when having DS - scarey thought
Man size t-shirts preserve modesty.

On the sex front - I am also horny high libido-ed at present. Strange isn't it as I feel I look like Homer Simpson with the big belly. Proves to me that our issues with our bodies are just that OURS. Anyway DH is loving it as he feels there is a sex-famine around the corner tee hee hee. I am not interested in sex when I'm tired so he's just lovin' it. (The feast part, not the impending famine). Still who knows as I don't remember this with DS.

I'm never taking my size12-14 bum to Japan. Friend of mine tried to buy a bra once in Hong Kong. Apparently could only get a size A. I was DD before all this. I'm hoping to shrink post BF.

DS is having a wonderful time at my mum's. I am taking 1 day unpaid, 1 day hols per week and commuting 4 hours for the other 2 but it is worth it. My mum and brother think he is the smartest/most fun/wonderful etc child. He (DS) is like a pig in muck with all the attention. I cannot organise child care with strangers quickly.

I (DH actually) sent the letter to creche. We may not ever see a shilling but it feels good to bite back

beeblebear I always had a high sex drive (higher than boyfriend's) but in first trimester it HURT and for most of second I just went off it so it's been nice to get it back... Your dreams sound very doom-laden as well. Working till 39 weeks sounds superhero to me, desk job or not. Though I think it's easier to plan to work till later and come off sick earlier if you need to than the other way round, if you see what I mean. Enjoy holiday!!! Hope you escape rain!!

Thanks yomping for the advice on how to see people's pics -u r my official mumsnet coach after helping me with the little symbols as well.....i didn't get very far, though - nothing popped up when i hovered over people's names....maybe they didn't have any pics, i will keep hovering. Squid's bump is the only one i can see via her link, but at least her's is a very lovely looking one :)

Midget, that consultant sounds like a nobber, what a waste of time and how dissapointing not to get any reassurances :(

Feeling for all you tired ladies - am feeling good this week, but was really lucky to have had a week off on leave last week where i had lots of day time naps. If i feel as awful and as knackered as some of u ladies sound again, i think i would be tempted to consider calling in sick. can't wait to start annual leave followed by mat leave at end of sept!!

Giggling at the weight fascists in japan and france - can't believe cherrychopsticks got a stamp and smorgs got a warning :) I must have put on at least 12 or 13 kg by now, thank god I'm living in one of the more obese nations, or i'd be getting in all sorts of trouble.

Does anyone else get a weird pins and needles feeling around their diaphragm sometimes? All my kicks and punches and rumbles are defintely in my lower abdomen, so I dont think baby is in the birth postition yet. Does anyone know at what point they run out of space to turn and does anyone know when 3rd trimester officially starts?

Am based in kensal green in london if anyone else is near by. Hope everyone sleeps well.

Ok this is probably FAR too much info... but on the sex front is anyone finding they get a bit TOO turned on? Like all the blood in your body rushes to your nether regions and you get a bit swollen and it's erm... hard to actually... get anything in?

I told DH it reminds me of being a teen and reading 'Just 17' etc when they would talk about how wicked boys would claim they had 'blue balls' if you didn't sort them out when they got a stiffie. And we were all like :o but actually now I believe it!

And Beccus yes I have been getting that - there's a thread about it in pregnancy at the minute which another girl started and she was v reassured when a few of us said yes same thing! Mine is just beneath left boob near sternum and it's a horrible crawly tingly sort of feeling. I'm thinking it's either a) related to heartburn - maybe acid irritating something? or b) a hand or something dragging and pressing. Sometimes when I press on it for a minute it goes away so suspect it is the bean up to tricks :)

And on Japan front - if you are TEFLing there and you are:
a) taller than 5'2
b) bigger than size 10
c) have bigger feet than size 5 (women)
you are advised to take all the clothes / shoes you will ever need with you. Also really strong deoderant as Japanese people barely sweat and their washing machines only did cold wash because of price of electric.