New Year sadness

[Fancytrike]

Well, I lost my brilliant, funny, so very alive and full of life DF this year. And here comes grief again to whack me in the face on New Years Eve. Christmas fine (obvious gap/something missing, but manageable). NY for some reason makes it even more final. Felt odd last few days, out of sorts, lots of memories. So used to carrying on and caught up with Xmas busyness that it’s only occurred to me today that it’s a year he will not see - and I really will never see him again.

Just a little thread for anyone feeling the same. Grief is the gift that keeps on giving. Hope everyone doing ok tonight.

Sorry for everyone that's struggling and has struggled over the new year. It's so very hard. What is clear through everyone's messages is how much all our loved ones were loved and now there is nowhere for that love to go so we have to channel it into another place I suppose.

I have been eating ice cream every night at the moment that has been my way of coping and I know 100 percent my Mum would have approved 🥰🩷😀

Thank you @Fancytrike for starting this thread. I lost my lovely Dad (suddenly, but not unexpectedly) in September. His birthday was Christmas Day, so I got through that by organising the day for my brothers and sons, and making it the best it could be. He also made me executor of his Will, so I have been caught up in paperwork & bureaucracy. But today, reading this thread, and facing 2025, it has hit me. I have sobbed my heart out tonight, and am missing my precious Dad so badly. But, it feels right to bring my grief and heartache out, and to make him (and me) my priority for a little while. So thank you. Love to all who are missing loved ones tonight xx