New Year sadness

[Fancytrike]

Well, I lost my brilliant, funny, so very alive and full of life DF this year. And here comes grief again to whack me in the face on New Years Eve. Christmas fine (obvious gap/something missing, but manageable). NY for some reason makes it even more final. Felt odd last few days, out of sorts, lots of memories. So used to carrying on and caught up with Xmas busyness that it’s only occurred to me today that it’s a year he will not see - and I really will never see him again.

Just a little thread for anyone feeling the same. Grief is the gift that keeps on giving. Hope everyone doing ok tonight.

Sending ❤️ love.
Lost my wonderful kind and caring sister this April.
I know exactly how you feel.
X

Sending lots of love @Fancytrike, I’m sort for your loss. It’s a tough time of year for anyone grieving.

Im feeling the loss of my dbro this evening, he died suddenly in the summer. It’s been a horrific year for several reasons, not least losing my dbro.

i feel desperately sad this evening for the future that was stolen from him and his beautiful wife and children. 2025 should have been his year but he was gone in an instant😢

Grief is tough and I think there are just times it hits us really brutally.

My mum died many years ago now but NYE always hits hard because it's another year further away from her. The first one after she died was awful, because it was saying goodbye to the year in which I saw her and each one feels the same - not as hard, but still horrible.

Lost my adult ds 25 12 weeks ago.and it's worse now.

@AuntieMarys I'm so sorry for your loss, I can't imagine what pain you must be going through right now.

I lost my Mum in October and it's a lot harder at this time of year, I've found the past few days worse than Christmas too.

Thinking of everyone and sending so much love and hugs 🩷

Lost my husband in September and I feel torn between happy to see the back of this shitshow of a year but also not looking forward to saying he died 'last year'.
Makes me think of this short poem below

I'm spending NYE with my siblings and children and we are having a quiet one. A take out and a glass of fizz. Hoping to keep a handle on the tears

DM died this summer. Not sure I have had time to really say goodbye as DB had cancer diagnosis and younger DB has disability. Been sorting/looking after them too.
DMum's birthday is New Years Day. My first without singing to her. Not sure what to do to night/tomorrow.
Feel very out of sorts. Think I will just stay in bed and try sleep but she loved to sing and dance even into her 80s.
Take care everyone xx

Thinking of you all tonight.
When df died 7 yrs ago fathers day and NYE were the unexpected hard ones.
The firsts are the worst.x

@Fancytrike My dad died in October and i cant bear the idea of entering a new year that wont have him in it.

The first Fathers Day without my dad in June is also my birthday. Used to love sharing the day with him

Sending love to you all. I lost my wonderful Dad in March. I'm very tearful tonight.

I’m so sorry for all your losses. There’s also comfort in learning I’m not alone. I hope everyone is getting through the evening - I have a candle for my Dad. And a glass. It’s all I can do.

Im burning a candle in my bathroom for my dad (safest place to burn it in the flat) Frosty Walks , mistletoe and citrus orange.

Sorry for your losses. I lost my DM in November after a short illness. Christmas Eve was awful, the rest of Christmas was ‘ok’. Tonight I will be going to bed long before midnight, I don’t know how I’m feeling tbh, but I know I’ll never be the same ever again.

I am lighting a candle tonight for my DH. Much love tonight for everyone who is missing someone dear to them

Ddad died nearly 41 years ago.
I've had many losses since then, but it's always him I shed a tear for at the bells.
I'm older now than he was when he died, which always brings home how young he was.
Sending hugs to everyone who's struggling with a loss. 💐

It's the reality of a year that the lost loved one will never be in.

I am so sorry for your losses.

I lost my uncle, two pets and my marriage.

Sending love to you all💐

My dad died in the early hours of New Year's Day two years ago. I miss him every day, but tonight has hit me far harder than I thought it would.

So sorry for everyone's losses ❤️ I lost my DF in August, he was only 63 and I feel like I've been getting on 'okay' till this week it's hit massively, and almost unexpectedly. I feel your pain, riding the waves of grief is hard ❤️

I lost my darling DH to cancer in April aged 49. I hate the thought of moving into next year without him by my side where he should be. Sending 💐to all who are grieving tonight X

Yes Iost my partner in September through illness. First few months afterwards were horrendous. Finally starting to feel a bit lighter but not sure if am just in denial. sorry to anyone going through this heartache also. ❤️‍🩹

I have candles lit most nights but definitely a few burning tonight and thinking of everyone on this thread

I lost my mum this year too so I know how it feels. It's strange for me because I'm glad to see the back of the worst year of my life but sad to start a new year without her

My husband died in September. Christmas was quiet and sad, but grief has hit me hard this evening. As you’ve all said, it’s the marking of a year he’ll never see. A year further away from him and the life we had.
Role on midnight so I can open the door and let this year out and the new one in.