New Year sadness

[Fancytrike]

Well, I lost my brilliant, funny, so very alive and full of life DF this year. And here comes grief again to whack me in the face on New Years Eve. Christmas fine (obvious gap/something missing, but manageable). NY for some reason makes it even more final. Felt odd last few days, out of sorts, lots of memories. So used to carrying on and caught up with Xmas busyness that it’s only occurred to me today that it’s a year he will not see - and I really will never see him again.

Just a little thread for anyone feeling the same. Grief is the gift that keeps on giving. Hope everyone doing ok tonight.

Thinking of all who have lost loved ones this year and in the past. The year my dad died it was a sudden death in the November. I have always found New Years much harder as every passing year makes him further in the past. Have lit a candle and toasted him, my sister and all others who have passed before us. Xx

Sending best wishes to all of those missing a loved one tonight.

it’s been two years since my beautiful sister closed her eyes and it’s with a heavy heart I remember her tonight. Thinking of you all. Time may pass but our memories and times we shared are always as fresh as ever.

Totally with you. I lost my darling sister in August and I can't bear the thought of leaving her behind in 2024 while we all move forward to 2025. Breaking my heart 💔

I'm moving into the New Year without my beautiful mum. Absolutely heartbroken and missing her so much tonight.

I lost my mum also this year. And I gained a new granddaughter who is wonderful.
But she was my mum and it's hard.

So sorry for everyone's losses.

We're (not) sitting with FIL who is on end stage hospice care for advanced dementia. He's several hours away and dh is a GP on cal for 111 tonight and unable to get any cover. FIL hasn't known dh for about 18 months and dh feels he said his goodbyes at our last visit (I did too) but it's especially hard at this time of year. Fils partner is with him and he's at peace. But it's hard.

That poem captures so much of what I feel 8 years on. I’m not sure when grief is supposed to get easier, and I get on with life, but there are moments when it feels so raw and this evening is one of them.

I'm sitting beside you all.

I lost my mum last September.

Somehow this Christmas and tonight are worse than last year.

I feel so bloody sad.

Just sorry to all of you grieving too. Xxx

i hate this i fucking hate it

@JenniferBooth sending you lots of hugs. You spoke before about your Dad building the Wizard of Oz set for your play and I thought that was so lovely, he must have been so proud of you and I bet he loved you so much.

Thankyou @KylieKangaroo Hope you are doing ok

My dad died in May this year, the fifth body-blow loss for our family in just four years.

It feels as though all of the losses have rolled into one this year and hit me like a sledgehammer. I miss them all so much.

Lost my dad on the 17th December. We haven’t even held the funeral yet and just had to see in a new year that he won’t be in. Know how you feel 😥

I've felt this today, I feel like I'm leaving my DF in 2024 if that makes sense? Like I'm further away from him, I can't explain it. He died in Feb 2023 & my heart aches everyday.

First year without my db. Didn't realise it would hit me this hard. So sad

@BryonyDuck oh im so so sorry and that goes for everyone else on this thread

@twinklingturtle I lost my dad in the small hours of New Years Day as well, it wasn't the same year as your dad. I know exactly how you feel, it's horrible. Sending you love.

So very very sorry to hear this. Xx

My dad died on the 5th January and I'm so upset
I've been sat here crying and I can't stop
And I don't want to get up tomorrow
And I don't know what to do

And I'm scared and I've got no one to talk to

My thoughts are with everyone feeling loss and grief at this time, may you have the strength to get through these tough times xxxxx

@purpleme12 I’m here, my Dad was amazing , always felt I had someone and always had my back. Do you want to tell me about your dad?

@purpleme12

I hope this poem provides some comfort as it does me.

@Fancytrike he was big. He would give me a proper hug when he saw me. A real one.

He always said love you when at the end of a phone call.

He respected me. He respected that I knew what I was doing with my child.

We went on holiday together. We were going to do it again in 2022 but then he got the cancer 😓

I hurt 😓😓😓💔

I can hear what he'd say in his voicemail to me

I think of all things that I could have done with him 😓💔😓

Same.

A friend advised that she often found the quieter days harder than the big events without them. You can kind of brace yourself against those, but it's when it hits you unexpectedly that it's harder.

I've definitely found the last few days harder, we lost DM in October, but saying that was 'last year' and facing a whole year ahead without her is incredibly painful