My son is dying

[blindspots]

This is fucking cancer. He is 2. We are only 3 months from diagnosis and we are out of active treatment options.

I hate cancer, I hate the pandemic disrupting our world and keeping us from people we love.

He has been so tough she and strong and there is nothing more they can do, the cancer just keeps coming back.

I would give everything to keep him

My boy is 19 months. I just cannot imagine what you're going through. I'm so so sorry.

I'm so so sorry OP.
No one should go through this :-(

So sorry for you and your family

It's a terrible thing to be jealous of the parents if the kids with cancer who are going to get better

It isn't terrible. Its as natural as anything is at this hideous time. I remember sitting hate staring parents just getting on with their days and wishing that they could have been in my position instead of me.

Is there anything that MNers can help with on a practical level, searching for funding or accommodation or charities or anything in your area for you?

Sending love x

I am so very sorry for you and your darling boy.
This is so bitterly unfair.
I wish I could say something or do something to comfort you.

I am so very sorry for you and your lovely son. Wishing you all the strength to cope with it.

OP, I'm so sorry to hear this sending you all the strength and love in the world

@blindspots

I have my DH, I have my mother. We have been in touch with the hospitals pedi attic palliative care team and some of the charities.

They are looking to stabilise him so we can leave the hospital with him and spend some time as a family. We need to arrange suitable accommodation in the city as our home is too far away

It's a terrible thing to be jealous of the parents if the kids with cancer who are going to get better

Ni, it isn't a terrible thing at all. It's natural and if I was in your shoes I'd be exactly the same. I'm so sorry OP, it just doesn't seem fair.

I so sorry. There are no words which can make this better. Love x

I'm so sorry. This is gut wrenching and utterly unfair. Thinking of you all x

I can only imagine the pain, I am so sorry you going through this. This is utterly tragic x

I am so sorry ,much love and gentle hugs x

I’m so sorry I can’t begin to imagine how you must feel

I'm so sorry, holding you and your darling boy in my thoughts

Oh goodness, I am so sorry. X

I am so, so sorry OP. I lost my two year old in November 2020 unexpectedly and not in similar circumstances but my heart is breaking for you. It is so, so cruel.

So so sorry. xx

It's a terrible thing to be jealous of the parents if the kids with cancer who are going to get better

No it isn't. It's not that you wish their kids didn't get better. It's that you wish the same for your boy. And that can never be a bad thing.
Am so sorry you are going through this horrific experience. There are no words that can comfort you but am so so sorry. You and your boy will be in my thoughts tonight

Blindspot I am so sorry for you your family and your baby boy
Sending love and prayers to you all
And no it's not irrational to be jealous of others who recover .when my mum died I hated everyone i saw I the street with there mum
And while that was bad enough you are having to endure the worst human heartache so rant away feel jealous you are only human ❤🙏

I'm so, so sorry. It's so cruel and unfair.

I keep typing and deleting as everything I say feels so trite . I am so sorry x

God bless you and your family

for you, your family and your beautiful boy. I’m yet another one keeping you all in my thoughts x

Does your hospital have a Ronald McDonald house? Or do ClicSargeant have any properties near your hospital (I’m assuming you are in U.K. apologies if you aren’t).

My youngest has been an oncology patient and luckily is in remission now (age 9) but we’ve sadly seen way too many little people die of various cancers since she was diagnosed just over two years ago.

If you are in the NW I might be able to find you some contacts re: charitable support, but I expect your MacMillan nurse is the best person to contact for that kind of stuff.

The paediatric oncology ward at our hospital has a really active Facebook support groups for parents of both warriors and angels, I would definitely recommend you reach out to other parents who are or who have been facing the same awfulness as you are, no one ‘gets it’ like another oncology mum.

Life is so unfair. I am so sorry that your precious baby is so poorly. Please make the most of every minute you have left together