My son is dying

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This is fucking cancer. He is 2. We are only 3 months from diagnosis and we are out of active treatment options.

I hate cancer, I hate the pandemic disrupting our world and keeping us from people we love.

He has been so tough she and strong and there is nothing more they can do, the cancer just keeps coming back.

I would give everything to keep him

I'm so sorry OP. It's so unfair that someone who loves their child, their baby, so much has to face this.

I know it's difficult at the moment but do you have real life support? Do you have a partner, parents, friends who can provide childcare, bring shopping, be a shoulder to cry on? Have the hospital arranged support for you and your family? There are lots of charities- Macmillan, Clic Sargent, Winston's wish, etc who can support you, your baby and your family during and after this process. Winston's were wonderful when my sister lost her little one to Leukaemia, his sisters were in bits and Winston's continue to care for them 5 years on.

We're here if you need us. Although nothing we can say will fix your baby, sometimes it's nice to know someone's listening and we are.

Are you looking after yourself? If you can keep yourself ticking with plenty of good food and drink, fresh air and as much self care as you can fit in, your heart and mind can focus on your baby. You're important too, and deserve to be looked after.

I am so sorry.

Thank you all, my heart is breaking for my poor sweet little boy.

He has two older sisters, 4 and 6. They have been told and are unfairly having to learn about death at such a young age

Fuck cancer, fuck COVID

Heartbreaking just utterly heartbreaking. Sending love to you and your boy x

I am so sorry

I'm so sorry. My thoughts are with you x

I'm so, so sorry ❤

I am so so sorry OP. I can’t begin to imagine what you are going through. It is devastating.

I’m so sorry to read this op. 💐

I am so so sorry. I can’t even begin to imagine the pain you must be feeling.

That’s so unfair, I’m sorry you are going through this

What an absolute bag of shit for you, your wee man and your family. Life is so cruel and random and awful it times it makes you wonder what the god damned point is.

I know there are loads of restrictions in place right now, but have you got some real life emotional support? You need an emotional punching bag/dumping ground. If you prefer to rant at a bunch of strangers then use this thread.

I knew my dd was dying 2 weeks before she actually died so I have some experience of being where you are at the moment and its such a surreal place.

Your mood and thoughts can change from minute to minute and hour to hour and you feel guilty all the time. Guilty for wanting them to keep fighting because you don't want them in pain anymore, and guilty for wishing for the alternative so they don't have to suffer anymore.

All I can tell you is to think of your beautiful boy and yourself first and foremost, everyone else can deal with themselves and their feelings, but he needs you and you need to be strong enough to support him.

Its the toughest thing to go through as a parent, and there is no right or wrong.

I'm wishing you and your wee man strength and much love

I'm so sorry

I have my DH, I have my mother. We have been in touch with the hospitals pedi attic palliative care team and some of the charities.

They are looking to stabilise him so we can leave the hospital with him and spend some time as a family. We need to arrange suitable accommodation in the city as our home is too far away

It's a terrible thing to be jealous of the parents if the kids with cancer who are going to get better

There are no adequate words

Sorry I see you have dds as well. Winstons wish is an amazing charity that can offer support. I'm not sure what the support looks like in these covid times, but they are well worth a look. They can help you talk to your dds about their brother.

So very sorry. I am out of words, just so very sorry xx

I'm so so sorry OP for the pain you and your family are going through. Cancer is f*cking evil. It's hit my family hard but I can't even comprehend if it got my DS.
You have the courage within you, as a mother, to make everything alright and I hope you continue to do so.

Bloody hell. The world is so full of sadness at the moment and just lately it seems like mumsnet is just one long death and illness announcement. I am so very sorry for you, your dds and you precious little boy. Fucking cancer. We need to cure it. We've found a vaccine in a year for covid, why is it taking so long for a cancer cure .

This post has brought teas to my eyes. I am so sorry. This is a cruel barbaric world at times and some people suffer unimaginable suffering. It’s simply horrific and puts everything else in to perspective

I am so tremendously sorry. Your little boy must be the same age as my littlest girl, and I just can’t imagine - nor telling my six and four year olds either.

You and your family will be in my thoughts.

I really don't have the words OP. I am so so very sorry.

I am so sorry. Cancer can fuck right off. Can we do anything to help? Want to tell us where you are so we can help find somewhere for you to stay?

I'm so so sorry. Just awful.

I am so sorry OP. Even attempting to imagine how this would feel is really distressing, and you and your family are actually living it.

Will keep you in my thoughts. I hope posting here brings some kind of relief.