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My son is dying

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blindspots · 21/01/2021 17:53

This is fucking cancer. He is 2. We are only 3 months from diagnosis and we are out of active treatment options.

I hate cancer, I hate the pandemic disrupting our world and keeping us from people we love.

He has been so tough she and strong and there is nothing more they can do, the cancer just keeps coming back.

I would give everything to keep him

OP posts:
sogi · 04/03/2021 23:18

I am so very sorry.

Lydali · 05/03/2021 18:04

I am so sorry to read this devastating news :(
You are all in my rhoughts x

barefootcook · 12/03/2021 00:15

Just thinking of you OP. How are you?

blindspots · 12/03/2021 00:29

Thank you everyone. I'm still here, still plodding along and taking it in minute by minute, day by day.

It's good to be back amongst his life but god it hurts still. Just a look from someone who knows can be enough to set the tears going.

I hate my new reality, it will never ever be ok that my son died

OP posts:
IFoundMyselfInThisBar · 12/03/2021 00:59

I’ve just read this thread from the beginning to your last post. I am so very sorry. I am crying as I type, for you and your little boy, your two little girls. There are no words, I don’t know you, you’re on the other side of the world to me but I am thinking of you tonight and I will think of you often now. Life is just so cruel and unfair sometimes.
You made me smile when you said he loved chickens and playing outside in the rain. Happy memories for you. He was obviously very loved. ❤️

Apileofballyhoo · 12/03/2021 01:17

I'm so sorry, blindspots. He sounds like a beautiful little boy. I don't know what else to say, I just can't imagine how you are getting through each day. I know you have to for your little girls. I'm just so sorry.

kylie122 · 12/03/2021 01:28

Please look up cbd oil not thc so sorry to hear xxx

JustDavesWife · 12/03/2021 07:20

@kylie122 please read the whole thread before you post your cures and remedies. This ladies little boy had passed away.

Standrewsschool · 12/03/2021 07:54

flowers. Sorry for your loss

Standrewsschool · 12/03/2021 07:54
Flowers
Ilikeviognier · 12/03/2021 22:38

I Have no words OP. I’m so so sorry for your pain. Xx

IFoundMyselfInThisBar · 13/03/2021 01:16

Thinking of you. ❤️

Lililou · 14/03/2021 20:07

Thinking of you today OP and wishing you a happy Mother's Day ♥️

RedcurrantPuff · 18/03/2021 23:57

Your beautiful baby, I’m so sorry xxxFlowers

Ttc42nearly43 · 19/03/2021 18:55

I have read your posts about your little boy this must be the hardest thing in the whole world to cope with. I expect your body is aching to hold him again am so sorry what has happened to your boy. What is his name? If you want to share this if not that's ok. I have children 2 age 7 and 5 it is difficult to keep going for them as my mum passed away unexpectedly 2 weeks ago. I can't believe it she became unexpectedly unwell and fought for her life for 11 days in hospital. I know your grief will be different to mine but I just wanted to reach out to you. I spend almost every waking hour thinking about my mum. We buried her 2 days ago and I have been visiting the cemetery daily but it still doesn't feel like mum is buried in the ground there. It's like my mind won't allow me to process what has happened.

There seems to be nothing anyone can say or do to make this pain go away. People say that it will ease and I need to move on but I don't want to accept what has happened it makes it too real. Moving on seems impossible right now and even wrong in a way.

You are an amazingly strong woman a momma whos heart is aching but keep going for those other 2 little human beings in your life as they need you as much as you need them. I take my hat off to you at your resilience. I know there is no choice but to keep going. I feel like my heart has been broken into a million pieces it's so hard. I wish you well.

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