My son is dying

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This is fucking cancer. He is 2. We are only 3 months from diagnosis and we are out of active treatment options.

I hate cancer, I hate the pandemic disrupting our world and keeping us from people we love.

He has been so tough she and strong and there is nothing more they can do, the cancer just keeps coming back.

I would give everything to keep him

Wishing you and your family all the love and strength in the world. This is the worst thing and I’m truly sorry this is happening to you all. I don’t know what to say but please if you need to talk, swear, rant, cry or anything just come here and we’ll all be there for you. Love to you all xxx

Well he sounds like a little pocket rocket, can't make up his mind what he likes so just likes everything. I like his style 🥰

Can I suggest writing things down, get a lovely notepad and write down cute and funny memories and things that he does now. In the coming years you will treasure it. And I promise you that one day you will read it, with your dds and laugh at some of the memories, although that seems a long way off now.

I hesitated before posting as I don't have children and therefore cannot even begin to truly imagine how you must feel but your post made me shed a tear so I wanted to say how sorry I am

My love to both of you. So very sad.

You will be broken but you will carry on for your girls. Your body numbs itself when you face an unimaginable pain like this. It's when the numbness wears off that you will need the most support.

I am so very sorry this is happening to your lovely boy and family. So utterly unfair. Wishing you strength x

Oh love, my heart is breaking for you all. Sending love and light.

Absolutely heartbreaking. I’m so, so sorry x

I just wanted to add my love. I've typed this message so many times then deleted it for many reasons. Nothing can compare to what you've gone through OP. My heart breaks for you. Much love xx

I'm so sorry you are losing your beautiful boy. He is and always will be so very loved. My heart breaks for you and your family.

Use this thread to tell us how you're feeling and as much as you want to share about your darling boy.

My heart breaks for you and your blue eyed boy. It's so cruel and so unfair. I will be thinking about your family and sending love.

I'm so sorry xxx

@blindspots

He is blond and has big blue eyes. He is cheeky and so happy and loves chickens, trucks and tractors and playing outside in the rain. He loves his big sisters and getting dressed up and princessed up with them. His favourite books are Dear Zoo and Oh Dear.

When he goes a piece of me will go too

It will. I remember saying to DH that we also lost a part of ourselves when we lost DD. I still struggle to look at the pictures before. Happy pictures somehow tainted with the sorrow that we now know awaited us.

But life still has its beautiful moments, moments which her beauty still touches us. Death does not stop the love. It continues to grow. You will continue to carry him with you and he will live on in your hearts.
One day you will see/hear/smell something and your heart will be filled with him, as if he was standing with you, for that moment your heart will be light and it will carry you if only for a while. Little a little gift of a hello by chance, a trick of the light which eases your soul.
You will meet other parents who share your pain and will walk your path alongside you. They will remember his important days, and you will remember their child’s too. Together you will ease your pain and one day share in each others joys. These will be friends like no other.
This is not the end, just a journey you didn’t plan. He will always be yours.

The whole of Mumsnet walks with you OP. With love, love and more love.

Your boy sounds amazing.

I am so sorry, sending love to you all xx

Oh op I am very bloody sorry. Absolute bastard cancer. Reading this puts your own “worries” into perspective and hits you like a ton of bricks.

Like pp have said, use this thread as much or little as you like. There will always be someone up whatever the time.

I will say a little prayer tonight for your amazing son xx

I am so heartbroken reading your post OP, no words but so much love and thoughts to you, your precious boy, your DH and your girls 💗💕

So sorry OP

so sorry. this should not be happening. he sounds a treasure...

I’m so sorry OP, it’s just the worst thing imaginable

Absolutely heartbreaking for you and your family OP. My thoughts are with you.

It’s bloody awful OP. I am so sorry to read this

So cruel, unfair, awful.

So sorry

Any words seem inadequate in the face of such a heartbreaking tragedy.
Lots of love to you all 💐❤️

I'm so so sorry OP, this is such a cruel and unfair thing to happen. The pain of losing a child must be like no other. Please also try to look after yourself during this time, can you talk to any bereavement counsellors?