@Sobsanta You are incredibly selfless and graceful in all this, I don't know if it's the right word, but I'm finding it hard to find the right words now. I don't think we need to tell you you're strong, you're one hell of a woman. It tends to annoy me when people say that to someone going through loss and grief. We weren't given a choice, it has just fallen on us, unexpectedly, and it's the heaviest weight to carry in the world if it's the death of your child. This grief will gradually weigh less and it will be liveable with, but it needs time and love from others.
Death of a child never makes fucking sense. I've stopped looking for reasons, answers, justifications. I've concluded that some of us have a dose of terrible, absolutely terrible bad luck in their lives and it really is a complete lottery. Some of us make up those statistics that others do not want to look at because these things are too awful to imagine. There is no reason for your beautiful child to have died. There may or may not be a medical reason, but it shouldn't happen, it just shouldn't. It isn't fair. None of it is. Somehow, life doesn't fit in the "fairness" box.
But Wyatt's life, as well as her death, will not be in vain. She has left a legacy in you, your family and every single one of us who know about her. She'll live forever. Even though I'm not religious either, I believe in After Life and I know you and Wyatt will meet again.
You may wish to look at Zoe Clark-Coates instagram. There are also multiple accounts there helping bereaved parents and there is a beautiful group on Facebook called A Bed for My Heart. I think it would give you a lot of comfort.
Ending this with my favourite quote from Zoe, "Forever, for always, my child, you will be".
Xxx