Hi girls, something amazing has happened here.
When my mum died, almost straight away I thought "I need to keep her fleece", it was a fleece she bought the last time I took her into town shopping, about 4 years ago now and she wore it loads. So anyway that was the thing of hers I wanted to keep above anything else. But it disappeared, that and brushes my dad used to clean our shoes with. They both disappeared when I was clearing out her house. I searched and searched for them, especially the fleece. I had to clear out mums house myself and in only 2 weeks, as I had to give the keys back to the council. It was the hardest thing I've ever done. My friend helped me do her clothes, but something happened the night before this and made it much easier for me, I felt it was a sign from my mum. Anyway that day we cleared her clothes and I left them in her flat to take to oxfam etc. I didnt bring any home, I was all over the place. When I went back to her flat I checked for the fleece but I couldnt find it, I asked my friend if she had it by mistake but of course she hadnt. So dh went over to look for it the next time her was there but he couldnt find it either. So before I took the clothes out the flat I emptied every bag looking for it, but I couldnt find it at all. I just couldnt understand it, I knew I'd never through it out the only thing I could think wasif my friend threw it out by mistake. It literally disappeared. I've thought over and over since then, "where did it go mum", I could never understand it.
Anyway tonight dh went up to our loft to look for something. I hate the loft ladder but I went up it to poke my head in the loft. In front of me was a black bag and I seen something familiar in it, my mums wreath that she hung on her front door every Xmas, I asked dh to look for it last Xmas I was sure I had brought it from her house but he couldnt find it. So I was delighted to see it poking out from this black bag. So I took the bag down from the loft to get the wreath out. And underneath it was my mums fleece and scarf she always wore with it, also her good coat, a pair of trousers and velvet joggies from M&S, also a pair of her shoes. I couldnt believe it, the fleece was there in front of me, and everything else there fits me like a glove, all of it I was with her when she got it. I'm just so amazed the fleece turned up in my loft!!! I cant remember bringing it home here or asking dh to put it in the loft, (I never go up there myself). Also of course, what else was in the bag....my dads brushes for cleaning the shoes! Everything I couldnt find was in there. I dont know how it got there, I have honestly no clue, but its nothing short of a miracle to me. I thought it was gone forever but its been in my loft all this time. I know I was beyond upset clearing her house out alone, but I have no recollection of bringing this stuff home at all. Its just a mystery, but a great one now its solved!!!
sorry this is so long.
my mums stuff still has the smell of her flat on them, but smelling it the memory isnt quite so painful now as it would have been last year.
maybe I wasnt meant to find it till now, now I can keep and wear all the things, before I couldnt have bared to
who knows how these thing work.