Just wanted to say hello to linsey and heavenlyE and to say that I am also here if you would like to speak further about your children. Shabba always calls this thread a safe haven, and it is absolutely right. Here, you can say anything you like, and you will only find love, compassion and understanding.
Linsey are all the plans ready for your little Kerensa's day on Friday? I am sure you will make it perfect for her, for you, and your whole family. It is such an impossible thing to contemplate though - it can feel unreal. I hope it will be a day filled with love, even while it will be something you never imagined you would have to do.
As for your other two children, well, they will understand. Don't feel guilty. Right now, you need to do what you can for Kerensa, whether it is grieving and crying, or trying to keep yourself busy. My mother always says that it is difficult to 'mother' all your children equally at the same time, as sometimes one does need more of your attention than the others.
heavenly your little boy sounds so loving. I started writing on here about 5 weeks after my Mia died, also of an unexpected illness, and she was a similar age, so I can imagine all the things your little adventurer was discovering. Your description of his little ways made me smile.