Walking together on a journey - sharing experiences, tears, anger and sometimes even laughter. United we stand, divided we fall.

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This special thread was started in 2008. Its a special place - one which nobody would ever willingly come to. I hope we pay tribute to our lost children by helping each other. xxxx

Just pulled in every direction with family. Very tired - not sleeping very well. Feeling very taken for granted to be honest....I will be OK - just sometimes gets a bit too much xx

You will be ok, Shabba, but sometimes it's ok to shout: 'Stop the world - I want to get off!' Sleep is a bugger - let me know if you solve that one :) x

Will do x

Morning girls xx

They don't usually let you stop the world and get off, I find. They get very arsey about it.

this is my Supporting Anyfucker name, by the way.

LOL!!

Morning girls xx

Morning - hope the wind and storms aren't preventing people from posting here. We are away at the moment, so the weather chaos feels very distant.

Made it though last week, and Finn is now enjoying time with his big cousins, just as Mia did two years ago. Lovely moments in the present but full of memories too.

Shabba - poor sleep and feeling overwhelmed... Hmm. Did you ever make that medical appointment?

Chip and Helyantha - how's things?

White - how is your gorgeous baby?

Thinking of Tamisara today, as I think it is two years since her little Tamsin Rainbow died.

hi everyone

well had a big bust up with dh last night

twice now he has referred to ds2 as our second

he did it the other day with my mum saying when its your secondblah blah blah

then mum started joining and saying to me well when its your second your more relaxed etc etc
i replied hes our third

next ay she called me and said dont worry we wont forget ds1

i told dh how much that upsets me
and i asked him not to refer to ds2 as our second

then he did it again yesterday

and i got really really upset
spent most of the evening in tears
frst of all nhe was trying to be nice to me saying he would try harder not to do it

then he started getting mean to me saying noone wants to hear about ds1
and that i shoehorn it into conversations all the time
because the other day the hv said oh you already have two other children dont you
and i replied well we did have two but one died
i mean what else am i supposed to say to the hv who says so you already have two children

then he started saying noone can say anything right and i think everyones in the wrong
which is simply untrue theres loads of people thankgoodness that have been kind and v supportive

i said that when he refers to ds2 as our second other people will follow our lead and that hes making things harder for me
as that makes me so sad

then i said how can you pretend as if ds1 didnt exist
and thats what hes doing by refering to ds2 as our second
and dh said i was evil saying that to him

i am really really upset and pissed off with him
i am dreading him coming home from work i do not want to see him

he didnt evn say goodbye this am

im tired as im bf im sore my cs is ozzing so i have a drs appointment

but im sooo pissed off with him

i want to lock him out tbh

oh sorry that turned into a rant didnt it

mias mummy where are you away at?

i wish i was somewhere hot and sunny

with just dd and ds2

Morning girls xx

Hi guys just wanted to say I'm taking a break from this thread

Thinking of you and wishing you well

OK love - hope you soon come back - you will be missed xxx

Morning girls xx

Morning all. Back again, and thankfully no weather damage here. Brrr, it's nippy today.

White - sorry to hear you had that argument with your DH. Hope things are better now, and that taking a break from here isn't a consequence of that - but yes, we will always be here for you.

Morning girls xx

Mias - glad there was no damage when you got home. Its so cold here this morning!!

Hi all. Think I am about to have a little rant about Halloween... Nothing against this celebration in general, I think it's fun. But I have been listening to the radio about how some people like being scared, and so they love watching horror movies / go to haunted house theme parks, etc - and the scientists or pyschologists are saying that people like the adrenalin high afterwards because they "survive" the experience. Other commentators were blithely saying "People seek out these experiences because life today is too safe." Huh? Scary things do happen in our 'too-safe' lives today. Try being scared as you watch your child die. No adrenalin high there, dudes. You don't survive. You emerge, battered and bruised and broken, a different person.

Now I know I am not seeing the fun in it all, and I am being a real party-pooper , but those comments just made me cross!

I'm not suprised they made you cross..........strange world we live in??

Morning girls xx

Morning girls xx

Kale Mera girls - thought it would be a change to say Good Morning in Greek

Morning girls xx

Freezing cold here!!

Evening! Very cold but sunny here. How's things, Shabba?