In memory of our lovely Aillidh

[expatinscotland]

At 11.25 last night, our beautiful, 9-year-old daughter died of complications from treatment for acute myeloid leukaemia, she went into respiratory failure after contracting human metapneumo virus following conditioning chemotherapy for stem cell transplant.

For many days, she lingered on a ventilator. But last night, she developed a pneumothorax and rapidly deteriorated.

She died within seconds of the ventilator being taken off.

I can't believe she's gone, or how broken her long body looked.

Expat, Godspeed to your parents for their trip home.

I hope you can find some comfort at Ailidh's grave side, but agree that you do not need to physically be there to be there with her IYKWIM.
She is forever in your heart, in your memories and is part of the family you are.

How have your LOs taken Ailidh's loss?

Been thinking of you today (and every day). Hoping that visiting addlidh's grave was a positive experience for you all x

Thinking of you expat and admiring you from afar, not many people could be as gracious in this situation x

Just seen my spelling of Aillidh earlier. I'm sorry for getting it so wrong - it feels important to get her beautiful name right x

I too am still thinking of you Expat xx

Still thinking of you and your family, it must be so hard for you all to comprehend.

Had a bad day myself roday but i know it is not as bad as yours are now expat. How are her siblings coping? I know you think you need to be strong but please let the tears flow. We will always listen here expat. Someone on mn will be online whenever you post.
Elephants xx

Sending love to you x

Still thinking of you all, sending love x

Went to see her yesterday. We can put a stone up anytime, but we need time to think, want to get it right, so I've ordered a wooden cross with plaque for now.

It's a large cemetary with no dedicated children's area, yet all around her, the graves of so many children and young people who didn't make it have their own children - a 19-year-old soldier, a young man, even a family of three, only the daughter left now, the mother having died after a short illness age 40 and the father and 18-year-old son, having died in an accident just 3 years later. Was heartbreaking. 'A dear brother/sister, uncle/auntie . . . '

Even next to her, a 38-year-old woman with 'A loved daughter, sister and auntie.'

A 2-month-old baby boy across from her, a stillborn baby born in back of her, an 11-year-old girl in the same row, a 16-month-old girl diagonally.

It's a beautiful spot and there's a bench, a gift of the two siblings of the 2-month-old boy, about 6 feet away. The second DD2 saw it, she suggested we come back and have a picnic there, with all Aillidh's preferred picnic foods. A great idea!

Four weeks tomorrow, since she left us.

expat i haven't post for a while, i could not think of anything i could say that i hasn't already been said.

I do just want to say that you, Aillidh and your family are still in my thoughts. I can't believe it has been four weeks already, my heart aches for you.

Much love x

Four weeks without her in your lifes :( it must be heartwrenching. Your in my thoughts always.

expat - what a lovely idea of your dd2's.

Four weeks already...how time just flies by...

It's amazing and sad that there are so many young people taken. Near our family plaques in the crematorium there is 'Baby Clare.' She has been there since my Grandad's plaque went up in '75...his was the first of our family in that crematorium. He was young too :(

Lovely idea to have a picnic expat. Just lovely. How are R and S doing? keeping you strong I imagine.

God bless.x

Four weeks... Forever and no time at all. Surely time should stop, as a mark of respect, for our beautiful children?

thinking of every one of you wonderful mothers that have tragically lost your darling children, love and hugs xxxxx

You have been in my thoudghts all day. I will light.a.candle at 11:25 for.you . Hoprle it is ok. X

Almost the time, when I felt her heartbeat for the last time.

Xxxxxxx

Oh expat. I wish there was something I could say. It is so cruel and unfair.

holding your hand again,expat xxxx

X x c