Hello Expat, today must have been another difficult day. I remember going to register my Gran's death. My Dad asked me to do it. I did. It was a weird out of body experience. We lived together as an extended family, my mum, dad, sisters and grandparents (my dad's mum and dad).
I am born into a Hindu family and I suppose I am a hindu. But I am not a practising one and although I am not an athiest, my 'scientific' head has questions that remain unanswered so I am not sure one way or the other.
You and Aillidh have awakened the spiritual side in me. I prayed for the last 2 weeks like I have never prayed before. I have been so moved byyou and Aillidh that I have experienced heartache in a way I never have before.
I was remembering a word in Hinduism today and I just wanted to share my thoughts if that's ok. The word is AVATAR. It is used to describe when GOD takes on a human or animal form and visits the earth. There are differences, from what I remember, in why people believe this happens. Some believe that GOD takes on this form to experience for Himself the trials and tribulations of man. SO that He himeself may experience their pain.
Others believe He takes on this form when there are troubles in the world and a message needs to be delivered so that good can overcome evil.
I have never felt one way or the other. As I said my 'scientific' head is always looking for answers.
I mean no offence when I say this, so please report this thread if it is offensive in anyway. I truly believe that Aillidh could have been an Avatar. I believe this because she had to endure unbearable pain, but did so with dignity and a beautiful smile and an amazing fighting spirit. I also think this because as others have said, she managed to do what the vast majority of mankind fail to do. She brought together people, from all corners of the globe, and from all religions and all walks of life. She brought them together in their desire for Hope and Love for her, irrespective of their differences.
We have all learned from her, and we are all better humans because of her. Humans are hurting one and other for lots of reasons including their radical beliefs in the name of 'their' religion across the globe. Politicians seem to have no idea how to bring people together.
Aillidh's brave long battle with this awful illness brought people together in such a loving hopeful way that the world surely is a better place because of her.
I am angry with God and am still unsure what I believe in terms of religion. But I do know for certain that I believe Aillidh has made the world a better place and I feel priviledged and heartbroken to have been able to know her through your words. I am also honoured to be one of the many that came together in her name for love and hope.
You will all be with me in my thoughts and heart forever.
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