In memory of our lovely Aillidh

[expatinscotland]

At 11.25 last night, our beautiful, 9-year-old daughter died of complications from treatment for acute myeloid leukaemia, she went into respiratory failure after contracting human metapneumo virus following conditioning chemotherapy for stem cell transplant.

For many days, she lingered on a ventilator. But last night, she developed a pneumothorax and rapidly deteriorated.

She died within seconds of the ventilator being taken off.

I can't believe she's gone, or how broken her long body looked.

So sorry for your loss. I only came across her battle a few days ago but had been willing her to pull through with all my heart.

Can't begin to imagine what you are all going through and send all the love and hugs I have.

RIP Aillidh and may your star shine brightly sweet girl

"The mention of my child's name may bring tears to my eyes, but it never fails to bring music to my ears. If you are really my friend, let me hear the beautiful music of her name. It soothes my broken heart and sings to my soul."

Much love to you Expat and all of your family and friends. I am so very, very sorry that you have lost your beloved girl xx

I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful, brave daughter. She certainly put up a courageous battle to fight her disease. May she rest in peace now. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

Praying for you, Expat.

Life can be so unbearably unexplainably cruel. Expat, your loss is too deep for words to even touch the sides, and all I can offer is genuine love and real heartfelt sympathy xxxx

I'm so sorry and thinking of you and your family and hoping that you all find peace.

You couldn't have done more and Aillidh's light shone bright x

I am so so sorry xxx

I feel so much sorrow for you and your family. I will never forget your beautiful daughter's brave fight for as long as I live.

I am so very sorry. Xx

I am so, so sorry Expat - there are no words, but you are all in our thoughts and prayers xx

I'm so very sorry. I've never been in your awful position, so can't possibly know how you're feeling, but I hope that one day you may take comfort from knowing that Aillidh was loved by so very many people.

Words cannot fill the uole she has left. Sending heartfelt love.and.sympathy. Nothing in my 39 years has touched me more than this has. She has left a legacy so big, bigger than many peoples. She fought so so hard.

Expat, I was so sad to read that brave beautiful Aillidh has lost her fight. I cannot begin to imagine your pain.

I hope one day you will see that Aillidh left a wonderful legacy by inspiring so many of us to become donors. She will live in each of those lives saved.

I wish you all the strength you need to walk the difficult path ahead. May you find some comfort in your wonderful, loving family and in your faith.

I'm so very sorry that your beautiful, courageous, special girl has died.

I cannot fathom the depth of grief you must be feeling and I so wish there were some words that I could type on this screen to help you and your family on your journey.

I think Northern put into words upthread how so many of us feel Expat, please know we are here for you.

I keep trying to write a post but I just don't have the words. I'm just am very sorry for your loss xx

Biggest hugs x The feelings of 'I can't believe she's not here' and 'I just want her back' are so overwhelming aren't they :( Complete shock & disbelief. It is an awful, awful loss you are dealing with & I wish I could take some of the pain away from you.

When I text Aillidh on my phone, it self corrects to Billie (until I get to the h) - I just know they are together and that Billie is looking after Aillidh for you - along with a lot of other people who are there before their time (in our worldy opinion anyway!) - the thought that they're all there waiting for us gives me some comfort & hope.

All my love
xxx

Expat I have read the previous threads about your beautiful little girl and how her life has touched so many. I am so incredibly sorry - I cannot imagine your grief. God be with you in this time and always.

Northern, what a beautiful post.

Expat, there are no words, just know that thoughts and prayers from across the UK are with you and your family tonight. I am so so sorry for your loss xxx

I am so sorry to hear your gorgeous girl lost her ( and your) battle. Praying for you all. Be proud of her forever.

Im so so sorry for the loss of your beautiful and unique daughter, my love to you and your family

I'm so very very sorry your beautiful girl is gone xxx

So sorry to hear about your daughter. We don't know each other and nothing I say can make anything right but I wish you and your family all the best.

I too have been following your story on FB and here expat.

How desperately sad I was to read this morning that your beautiful precious Aillidh had not made it.

Through your posts on FB I know something of the agonising decisions that might have faced you with some of her doctors thinking it was time to withdraw treatment and your distress that Aillidh wasn't ready. I think the fact that Aillidh took this unthinkable decision out of your hands is her final and loving gift to you and the rest of her family and friends.

She did not die because she didn't fight hard enough, because there was not enough love, or because you didn't believe in her enough. Or for any other reason other than that cancer is a dreadful bastard disease and sometimes its might, and the effects of its treatment, is sadly greater than all the belief, love and strength in the world.

Aillidh will live on in all of our hearts and her legacy remains that hundreds of people have joined the bone marrow register who might not otherwise have done so. It is a direct result of her story, and your courage and bravery in sharing that story, that lives will be saved.

Take care of yourself and your beautiful family expat. Breath in and out, and put one foot in front of the other. Be kind to each other. That is all. One day there will come a time when your memories of Aillidh make you smile and laugh rather than scream and cry and rip out your heart. Until that time we are here to hold your hand.

RIP Aillidh, never forgotten xxx

Rest in Peace, Aillidh.

Much love to you all, so sorry