In memory of our lovely Aillidh

[expatinscotland]

At 11.25 last night, our beautiful, 9-year-old daughter died of complications from treatment for acute myeloid leukaemia, she went into respiratory failure after contracting human metapneumo virus following conditioning chemotherapy for stem cell transplant.

For many days, she lingered on a ventilator. But last night, she developed a pneumothorax and rapidly deteriorated.

She died within seconds of the ventilator being taken off.

I can't believe she's gone, or how broken her long body looked.

I was thinking of you expat, I can't imagine how wrong it must feel to not have her with you. I just wanted you to know how much we are thinking and feeling for you. No words are adequate and life is so unfair and cruel at times. She knew love and happiness in her short life and that her life was full of love and tenderness xxxxx

I'm so very, very sorry that she's gone. I will be thinking of you, Mr Expat and your children in the coming days and week. So many of us were praying with you for a miracle - Aillidh will not be forgotten.

Expat you have been so incredibly brave. Your courage and strength have been inspiring.

I am so incredibly sorry for the loss of Aillidh. My deepest sympathy to you and your family. Your darling girl is now at peace. Small comfort I know. Life is so terribly cruel and I just wish I could do more.

Huge love to you all. X

I am so sorry to hear this news.

My thoughts are with you and your family.

Oh sweetheart, of course you miss her. X

I am so, so sorry for your loss. Thinking of you and your family.xx

Oh Expat, I am so so sorry. xx

I'm so very very sorry. You should be proud of your beautiful strong girl and of how many lives she's touched - and hopefully how many lives she might save from people signing up to be bone marrow donors because of her. I wish you and your family so much love, light and strength over the coming days xx

No-one should have to endure the death of their child; it is so very wrong and so unutterably dreadful.

So sorry, expat. You - and all dear Aillidh's family and friends - are in the thoughts of so many of us.

Oh God Expat, I'm so, so sorry. There's nothing we can say that will ease your pain but I hope that in time, the legacy that Aillidh has left behind will bring you some comfort, the amount of hearts she has touched is staggering.

Sending much love to you and your family.

Oh expat, of course you must miss her terribly. You are going through something that nobody should have to face and it must be such an awful shock right now. I am utterly sure that Aillidh was a lovely little girl and she was your very own lovely little girl. What a terrible loss for you and her daddy and your other wonderful children. Please keep posting if it helps and let us know if there is anything we can do for you.

I keep trying to write things and then deleting it because it all seems so feeble. What I'm trying to say Expat is that our hearts are so full of sorrow for you. If there was anything we could do, you know we would but nothing on earth can put this right and that's a hard and bitter thing to know. I know Aillidh is home safe with the Lord and I know you will see her again but what about now? All I can offer is this - that we will never forget Aillidh. She will always be part of our mumsnet family. There will always be an ear to listen to you. There will always be a heart here to offer you loving support. There will always be a smile at your happy stories and tears to shed over the sad memories. We can't carry this for you but we can try and carry you. There's a lot of hands and hearts here and we lifted them up to God for Aillidh in prayer and we're going to do the same for you. You are our sister and we stood with you, from a distance, over the last few weeks and we will stand firm with you now.

Oh darling girl x

Expat, I'm so dreadfully sorry that you've had to start this thread.

Aillidh fought her illness with such bravery and courage, and I am in no doubt that she was able to do that due to the love and support that she was surrounded by throughout.

She has touched the hearts of so many around the world, and I hope that this thread shows you how loved you all are by so many.

Xxxxxxx

So sorry for your loss Expat. Your strength is an inspiration, there's no wonder your lovely daughter was able to fight so hard.

I attended a charity event today for a friend who is very ill with bone cancer. There's a chance he won't survive, just like Aillidh, but the sense of community and action they inspire will be their legacy. That's something to look back on with pride in time.

I am so very sorry, Expat

Northern, what a beautiful post, as always. You put into words what I'm sure so many of us are trying to say.

Beautiful post Northern. You say it far better than I am able to.

We are all here for you Expat. You and your lovely family are always in my thoughts. Wishing you the strength to get through the coming days, weeks and months.

(((((hugs expat)))))

So sorry for the loss of your beautiful girl. There are no more words xx

Life sometimes shocks me in how cruel how it can be , have a lovely picnic Allidih , much love to all your family Expat xx

It's hard to know just what to say,
When one so young is taken away.
Far too soon she had to part,
Her memory forever engraved in our heart.

We only knew her for a short while,
But the life she led made us smile.
She was so beautiful and oh so rare,
Life as they say just isn't fair.

Those gone before her will watch her with care,
Till the day comes when we'll all join her there.

Know Aillidh is watching from heaven above,
And with each ray of sunshine, she's sending her love.

I'm so very very sorry . I will continue to pray for you x
(another one who has joined AN because of Aillidh)

I'm so sorry for your loss. My heart is breaking for you and I can't begin to imagine the pain and emptiness that you feel.

Your daughter knew how loved she was. You will always be her mum and what a brilliant mum you are x