Precious memories of all our beloved children, gone too soon but they will live on forever in our hearts

[lavandes]

For our beloved Richard, missed so much xx

Afternoon all

Jane so sorry :( I lost my little girl at 37 weeks in Dec and it's still so hard. Ours was due to a cord accident, otherwise perfect. I've found I'm very up and down now in how I feel but at first all I felt was numb disbelief, it truely felt like a dream. That feeling took a few weeks to subside and then it really hit me. I hope you're getting through the days and night relatively OK, take one day at a time. xxx

HI everyone

Jane, I'm so sorry you have had to find yourself here. My son was stillborn in June and I look back at those early days and I wonder how I managed. But I did and so will you, you will find strength from somewhere. I can't put into words how awful losing a child is but everyone on here has experienced it and we are all here for you.

Take care and all my love.

Missing my lad tonight. We should be partying tomorrow instead I will walk and remember and we will release lanterns in memory of gregor and all our little ones. Sometimes it just feels so raw and it is so unfair x

Missing my beautiful boy - born and died this past Christmas Eve. We had him for just under an hour - many cuddles and told him so many times I love him. I wish he was still here.

ppm - thinking of you, how are you now?

Karen - So sorry for you. My dd2 was due on the day before Christmas eve but was stillborn at 37 weeks, earlier in Dec, we found out before due to lack of movement. I still can't believe it. My head and heart are all over the place. I hope you're OK.

Morning girls xx

PPM - candle already lit to show my love and respect for your precious little man.

This is a crappy path that we are all walking...together we will 'get there' wherever the hell 'there' is! xxx

Morning ladies xx

ppm You, your beautiful Gregor and your family are in my thoughts today,sending lots of love xx

ppm candle lit here for Gregor ,sending lots of hugs xxx

ppm a candle will be lit here in sunny Sussex today for your gorgeous wee boy x

Karen I am so sorry to hear about your boy , please feel free to come back when and if you are able .

Gregor seems to know it is his special day today. We dug over a patch of our back lawn last summer and ever since it has been left as dug over earth. However this morning I looked out of the back window and saw that right in the middle of the patch a single daffodil has popped up. I have no explanation as to how it got there, but I will look at it and think of Gregor.

Thinking of you all xxx

Welcome jane and karen, please come back and make yourself comfy. We all have different experiences, but the thing we have in common is having lost a darling child.

Last night was Toms parents evening. Had to see all the teachers. Went from one to the next....got to the Science teacher. A lovely young girl, first teaching job, younger than Dan, Gareth and Matty. Sat down with her and she said how lovely Tom was and that he was one of the top 3 pupils in year 9 in Science.

Then she kind of skirted around the question - what she wanted to say was 'how old were you when you had him She reckoned that quite often it is a massive help to children to have older parents. Then she asked if he was my only child......................... 'No he is my fourth son. I should have twin boys who are 30 this year, a boy who will be 27 this year and then Tom. Very sadly one of my twins died and my third son was killed in a road accident. It all tripped off my tongue with ease. She just looked at me and her eyes filled with tears. She just said 'I'm so very sorry.'

Then the conversation went back to Tom. I have no idea what made me do that but I'm glad I did.

Moveit - sounds perfect to me

shabs I think you did the right thing telling the teacher about your boys.

It is a credit to you that although you have endured so much grief you have still managed to bring Tom up to be such a lovely young man who is acheiving so much. Well done to him for working hard and being in the top 3 in his class.

Lets give him a round of applause! xx

thank you Lavendes.

His lovely English teacher described him perfectly and made me LOL......

'Tom is.....Tom is errrrrr....he is a gentleman, he is a massive ball of hormones, he is growing by the hour, he is quietly fascinated by females, he is very intelligent and just slightly geeky and 'out there' - she said that he sometimes he makes her want to LOL but she has to hold it all together. She also said that he was my double and she knew who I was before I introduced myself.....I wanted to shout 'you should have seen Matty - he was even more like me....' but I didn't. I saved my story for the poor young Science teacher!!!

That's so funny. Thanks for making me laugh. He is certainly making an impression!

I remember going to see my eldest son's English teacher. He said 'Oh yes the boy who sits in the back talking all the time'. I just said 'why don't you sit him in the front next to someone he doesn't want to talk to then'. He looked at me as if I were mad! He went on to get a C in his GCSE.

child reduced me to tears today! have been going back into local school just to do a bit of music again. Only really able to cope with the one school in short session. Not a word from any of the parents, but a year six lad hung back after assembly and said 'it's nice to have you back, but you must have been so sad' cue torrent of tears and poor lad wondering what he'd done when it was actually one of the most touching moments cos it came from his heart and youthful honesty...damn, going again now!!!

Oh Kaz - what a wonderful young man. Why dont you write him a little note saying what you have just said on here? How mature and compassionate of him to have the courage to say that to you. Has made me smile and cry at the same time. xxx

we had a hug, I'm of the old school who thinks there is nothing inappropriate about it! Told him he was an exceptional young man and that people like him make life worthwhile,he said'have a good day' and trotted off down the corridor unaware of the impact he had made bless him.

So glad you are of 'the old school brigade' My Mum always says that 'angels walk amongst us'.....in this case I think she is right xxx

Kaz that is so lovely , children really do just state the bloody obvious don't they and seem to be able to do it without fear . I wish there were more grown ups around like him .

soooo true, out of the mouths of babes etc etc.

Afternoon everyone x will catch up later tonight but i just wanted to thank you all for being with me every step of the way with this journey. I'm actually having an ok day so far - have had tears, a lovely walk, more tears, loadsa hugs, some lovely company with some lovely friends and tonight at 7pm look high to your skies and think of Gregor as we will be releasing 4 lanterns for his birthday

Kaz - I totally wish i could see and feel grief through the eyes of a child.

Shabs - Well done for being able to have that conversation with Tom's teacher.

DS1 came bounding through to my bed this morning saying "mum, mum I'm sooooo excited cause today is Gregor's birthday, It's just sooooo exciting isn't it?" - not often I'm speechless but I reckon he's been reading Matt's "Take life by the Balls and Shake" rulebook!! x

Your DS1 is so fantastic...and, dare I say it, he is RIGHT today is a great celebration.

Lew blew out my candle and we had to relight it....

Appy Urfday to you
Appy Urfday to you
Appy Urfday dear Gwegor
Appy Urfday to you

xxxx

Loving Lew xxxxx ... and yes i know DS1 is sooo right. xxx