Flying high enjoying their wings, Remembering our precious much loved children...

[CazandBelle]

For my beautiful Anabelle Violet. Born an angel.

Mummy and Daddy miss and love you so much. Always. xxx

I know what you mean love. Want to ring his school to make sure he is OK - but there are 2,200 pupils there and a fierce receptionist not like when he was at Primary xx

You could always hang around the gates at lunch time like some mad woman and see if you can spot him

He would love that

LOL think its better that I just sit here and brood about it - he would love me giving him a kiss through the fence wouldn't he?

He would I am sure .

Go and watch Jeremy Kyle and realise what a fab mum you are . Always makes you feel better looking at idiots

TW you just made me snort my coffee over the keyboard - I am sat here watching him now xxx

Pmsl !!! Yep fingers crossed for a recovery... I feel wrecked this am ... Physically I'm tired but I think it's the energy sapping emotional exhaustion that's getting me...

Hurrah for ds being hungry

Well, I just dropped ds off for his first pre-school session. It's the first time he has been cared for by someone other than me, dh or close family. I was bricking it, the pre-school have called to say he is fine and very settled. I have been wringing with sweat since this morning and I have to keep drinking pints of water to keep up with the sweating - not attractive. I have never been a nervous sweater before

Awww Ilike - you sound as bad as me this morning. I have a big box of spare 'paint on smiles' in my cupboard if anybody wants one - they look like this or I have the Osmond Brothers version xx

Morning ladies xx

Have just been catching up.

ppm I am sorry your little boy has been so poorly, it must be so frightening for you. Hope he has turned the corner now and is soon well again. x

shabs please can I have a paint on smile. I have just waved goodbye to Marc and Jaime and can't stop crying. It has been wonderful to have them here. I will be OK in a couple of days as I am used to him being so far away, it is just difficult today. I am feeling a bit lonely and sorry for myself. xx

I don't watch Eastenders anymore but have read about the storyline and I think it is awful. How they think that it is realistic is beyond me. I won't be watching as I don't want to encourage them.

Oh Lavendes have one of each and

I feel so sad for you but also so thrilled to bits that you got chance to see them. I hope you had a wonderful time with them....sending big hugs as well xxx

Thanks shabs. We did have a wonderful time with them. It was the first time we had met Jaime. She is a lovely girl, and she has had such a calming effect on Marc. She was with him when Richard died and gave him such a lot of support. I thought he would have wanted to talk more about what happened to Richard but he didn't, he had therapy in Australia, he is a great believer in it and thinks I should look into it. I told him that if he ever needs to know more that I have all the information in a box. But he does really seem to be OK. He used to be very highly strung but not now and he is not the sort of person to hide it. I hope he has finally met 'the one'. He was married but it didn't work out, he was close to having a breakdown at the time, but he is OK now.

Christmas day and New Years Eve were difficult but we all survived. xx

ARRRGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I just want to go walk outside in the snowy cold and SCREAM as loud as i can!!! His temp is still spiking and only the ibuprofen is effective - calpol is doing feck all!!! Am just worried and terrified we r going to have to go to the hospital... haven't called the docs back today as i am sure we will be sent to hosp if i go anywhere near the gp's.

ppm I am so sorry he is still unwell .

Is there not another hospital anywhere ? Even if it means driving 30 miles ?

I know it would be really hard to go back to that one . Can you run a bath and have a good sob ? A good cry in the bath used to help me (no idea why tbh )

And by the way if any of you see me on any of those Bloody EE threads tell me to get the hell off .

I am officially giving up trying to explain why this has pissed me off .

Did you all know it isn't real ?
And apparently my tv has an off switch ?

Well bugger me you learn something new every day don't you ?

TW ignore all the ignorant feckers on those threads....they are not interested in anybody or anything other than their opinions being right.

PPM -Could you call out a duty doctor and explain your fears to him? Or maybe get him to ring you and explain? Just a thought sweetheart xx

Hi Ladies

PPM - I am so sorry your son is still unwell, you must be a nervous wreck. Is there another out of hours surgery at a different hospital you could take him to? I hope he's feeling better soon, poor little thing x

LAvandes - I'm glad that you had a lovely time with your son and his partner, its so difficult for you all, lets hope 2011 is a better year for us all

Just back from my local doc surgery - he's been checked again by a lovely gp and we are home again, the next time he is feeling rough i think i am going to take him for a ride in the car cos when we got to the docs he was like another child!! tired at tired.com

Fingers crossed for tonight ppm . I really hope you both get a peaceful nights sleep x

thanks mini 2011 has got to be better xx

ppm hope you have some rest soon and your little boy starts feeling better tomorrow xx

shabs is Tom OK now? xx

TW I can't keep away from that EE thread either. Some posters are really infuriating me. What gives them the right to tell us to get a grip?

ppm thinking of you.

lavandes lovely to hear from you. I'm so glad you had a lovely time with your son and his gf home. Do you know when you will be able to see them again?

Oh ppm = hope little 'un feels better really soon.

Hey ladies, guess what....

'WE NEED TO GET A GRIP'

Fuck... who knew???

Tom is fine and apologised for this morning xxx

Can i gatecrash?

Hi all

Hi Spilttheteaagain How are you?
Nice to hear from you.Yes i had a chemical pregnancy this week.I knew it wasn't a "sticker" If you know what I mean? The lines were always very faint and though i did get 2 positives on the digital tests i knew.I got a negative on the digital on Monday and started Af that night.

Are taking this as a positive sign that my body is extra fertile.It was the first month i had ovulated and the first month we had ttc post Georgie and only 2 months post Georgie so i m very happy with the speed of things.

Hoping this is all a big conicidence.The month before i concieved Georgie i had a CP and it was exactly the same time last year.Know you shouldn't raise your hopes too much but whats the worst that will happen? Oh yes it already has.

Hope you re plodding on ok? Hope to follow you very soon XXX

Thanks all for letting me "gatecrash" !!!!

Ladies just popped in to say well done you !! You have achieved so much already as regards EE and quite frankly the only thing I'd like to see you get a grip of is a few of those muppet posters by the throat!! I'm sure all of this compared to so much in your lives is pretty trivial but I stand in awe of your courage and tenacity.

Dont worry its just my head and the wall. Just had a lurk on the EE threads. Girls - do a flounce and walk away like I did. Very weirdly the one person who was really trying to make a fool of me only posts when I do I have neither the energy or inclination to post on the threads again. The story has dredged up just the saddest memories of loosing Gareth.

Dont give the baying crowd the satisfaction, because, believe me, no matter how much you lay your soul down and explain about the loss of your precious child - the majority will neither care or empathise. Instead they will say ITS NOT REAL, GET A GRIP, DONT UNDERSTAND WHY IT IS HURTING YOUR FEELINGS (all said in a robotic voice)

Take care everybody xxx