Flying high enjoying their wings, Remembering our precious much loved children...

[CazandBelle]

For my beautiful Anabelle Violet. Born an angel.

Mummy and Daddy miss and love you so much. Always. xxx

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Please dont let me go back on the EE thread girls. If you see me post there again report me to MNHQ then they can hopefully ban me again. I swear to God I will rip some sarcastic heads off. Im off to Chelles to get pissed. Laters me lovelies xxx

Some people don't get it and sadly will NEVER get it - don't waste your precious thought energy on them - to their credit some of the folks on that thread have made an attempt to get a flavour of what its like - the others are totally not wasting your breath on - Have a drink for me and get a big hug from chelle... here's one from me xxxxxxx HUG xxxxxx

The EE thread has helped me in a weird way. I really struggled with why some people were so horrible after DS3's accident. I tried so hard to be 'normal' & some colleagues/parents were so thoughtless :( I realise now that what they really wanted me to do is go 'mad', because that fitted in with their vision of a grief-stricken mother. I never thought they might think I'd kidnap their child (I'm a teacher), but, after reading some of the responses on that thread, who knows?

I'll go back to tearing my hair out, wailing randomly & leering at small children now

Just got home chelle is my guiding light....she is wonderful, you would all love her. xxx

morning girls xx

Morning all xxx

Morning all. I've stayed away from the EE thread, 1. because I don't watch EE and have no idea what the storyline is (although I can take a good guess), and 2. As much as I would like to educate others on bereavement, I find I don't have the patience or emotional energy to try and reason with ignorant twats who don't want to learn anything or even understand anothers pov.

Morning girls. xx

Well said, ILike :)

Morning all, I've gotta feeling todays Not gonna be such a good day....

DS1 had a spiky temp the night before last horrid cough all day yesterday and disrupted last night with coughing... docs not back until tomorrow and i know i can call nhs24 and have him seen but it means going back to THAT hospital which is where the out of hrs docs are - right next to A&E Thankfully he's hardly been ill since gregor died but when he is i just can't cope with it ..... oh yeah and the sky dish fell off the wall during the night so the one day i want to plonk him in front of the tv its not feckin working ... thank heavens for dvds heh, DH has finally gone back to work today after almost 4 months oh yeah and I've just dropped and spilt the tub of lovely mushroom soup i made yesterday that was supposed to be for lunch when i went in the fridge for something else - D'y think i should just quit now and go back to bed??

Morning Ladies (makes PPM a cup of tea and a cheese toastie )

Shabs Glad you had a good time last night!

Last day of holiday for me, DH went back to work today so going shopping shortly as we have no food.

Hope you are all ok x

TBH i'm struggling today. I had swine flu just before Christmas, and i just can't shake a lingering earache and headache. I feels so ill, and tbh it's taking all my strength to put one foot in front of t'other - i can't even look at the EE's thread atm - sorry folks.

Dee - dont worry about the EE thread - its bobbing along nicely and I wont be going back on it at all.....patronising feckers!!!

Hope you soon feel loads better xxx

I sincerely hope your day got better PPM. How is ds? Hurrah for dh going back to work, that is a HUGE achievement

I hope you feel better soon Dee, flu is bloody awful and it can take weeks to feel normal again.

Am struggling tonight if I'm honest ILike. Am lying in bed with ds1 listening to make sure he is breathing. His temp has spiked again and he is really not himself. Docs in the morning I think xx

{{{PPM}}} - it's just bloody awful when our lo's are ill. I hope you both get some sleep tonight.

hello all

ppm hugs for you, and some more for you dee

ppm how did your DH's day in work go. Its a great achievement for him! :)

I continue to be astounded by the ignorant people on the EE threads. Yes I know unless you've lived with the death of your child you could neve understand, but I cannot believe I would've been that ignorant or insensitive before this happened to me. I would have at least attempted to see and empathise with the issues being raised.

I should stay away from them now.

We've been reassessing our financial situation tonight. We're really not getting to grips with our reduced incomings (since mat.leave and now working p/t) and as a result we've eaten into the little savings we've had a bit every month. We've made the decision we're going to trial this month only using the one car and I'll use the bus to get home from work on my days. I think we're going to have to go down to one car permanently because we've worked out the 2nd car probably costs us near enough 250-300 a month to run with insurance and petrol, and petrol is only going to go up more and more.

Wishing life could be stress free.

Thanks folks ... He's just been hallucinating about baddies it's scaring the shit out of me and I try to keep telling myself that all will b well but gregor had a fever a couple of nights before he died... Will one of you pls confirm to me that I'm an irrational nutcase????

Dh got on ok at work, they agreed a return to work plan that will cover January and hope to have him back fulltime from feb ifall goes to plan... He seems muchmore chilled about it now he has been into the office.

I get twitchy about fever's too tbh PPM. I just have to make sure the rational side of my brain prevails when it happens to ds. Easier said than done though. How high is his temp? I would be worried about the hallucinations, is that normal with temps? Maybe phone NHS Direct and see what they say?

Don't talk to me about petrol caz, dh filled his van up yesterday and it cost over £100

His temp is back under control again... This time it spiked at 39.4..: he does spike high temps but ive never seen him hallucinating like that before. I do remember freakin my parents out with hallucinations when I was young... One holiday I had been seeing angels!! Out of hrs doctor is right by a and e where gregor died... Would rather wait til am and see my own doctor unless he gets worse overnight.

Glad to hear it's under control again. I know where you're coming from about seeing the out of hours GP - and to top it off they're normally shite anway.

Yeah out of hrs doc.... Nothing to worry about it'll just b a virus .... Yeah like the one that killed his brother doctor? yeah I'll pass on the pleasure of that conversation methinks!!

PPM hope he is soon much better - its scary when our DC are poorly isin't it? Our imagination works overtime and its just totally terrifying. Sending him a hug xxxxx

Thanks shabs xx he is settled and sleeping now.. How's u tonight? Xxx