Forgive me for changing my name but I am so ashamed of myself.
My ds, who is nearly 5, has always been stroppy but this morning I went mad at him. He is always screaming and at 7 o'clock this morning I couldn't deal with it. I actually wanted to thump him, I even had my hand clenched in a fist and told him I felt like punching him.
I feel like I really need to turn this around but I just don't want to do. I would never have thumped him but I'm so ashamed that I threatened to, it has been on my mind all morning.
I find his behaviour so difficult and tiring I snapped. I know that is not an excuse but it is what happened.
I have got a lot on my plate but as soon as I give myself a pat on the back for coping, something like this happens and I realise what a miserable excuse I am for a mother.
I feel very sad about this and I really want some help.