Hi ladies,
If want to share my experience of the surgical procedure in case any one of you may be thinking or undergoing it soon.
1 thing I would like to say is that the procedure itself is absolutely painless as you forget you exist for about half an hour under general anaesthetic.
I went in at 1130, got seen by the nurse and she was lovely. she even got teary seeing me cry and said have faith everything happens for the best. Your baby is in safe hands. I felt a lot better ad calmed down. I then got seen by the doctor around 12pm. She explained the risks associated with the surgery but do say the risks are rare. You sign consent form and she puts a pill in your vagina to dilate your cervix. She said she will come after 2 hours to do the procedure.
The pain just felt like period pain and it wasn't bad at all. My husband was with me so time flew by. Make sure you take someone with you as I was very emotional as soon as I entered the hospital till I left. Can't imagine women who do it on their own.
After two hours the consultant came who was operating on me. I asked her relevant questions such as how experienced are you! She looked at me funny. Anyway I had to know. She explained the risks and said it won't take long. Then after ten minutes the nurse who was going to sedate me came and took me to this scary looking room full of medical equipment and through the doors I could see the operation theatre. I had a panic attack. They had to give me oxygen mask kept talking to me and kept telling me to pray and everything will be okay. I was hysterical about the thought of officially losing my baby. Before I knew it I was KO. I don't remember a thing about the procedure.
I woke up in the recovery room in a hysterical state again, te same state they sedated me in. Crying and emotional, no one is allowed in the recovery room but they had to call my husband in to calm me down. It was done and there was nothing I could do to change the situation.
Before being discharged I had to urinate. I had low BP so they monitored me. I was bleeding quite heavily but they said that's normal and will continue to two weeks. I have been given antibiotics to take for 7 days to prevent any infection.
Overall, I don't think I had the strength to take the pill and suffer with emotional distress till Sunday. It's done and I know my baby is in a safer place. It just wasn't meant to be.
The tissue will be examined and will come in 2-3 days. The full set of results will come in 6 weeks time where I will be meeting with the consultant. Consultant said sometimes they can determine the sex of the baby and tell you and sometimes they don't tell you. I insisted they tell me so let's wait and see.
This has been a life long lesson for me. I will remain positive and look forward to my new adventures and pray I conceive again when the time is right for me. Appreciate all the blessings you have in life from your health your wealth your family your children. Im going to show more gratitude to the creator of all things- that's what's getting me through this and the best remedy for a broken heart.
Thanks for all your support. My belly feels empty but it's all part of the process x