I have no rl support - I had my best friend tell me what a selfish cow I was and 'd' p has spent the whole morning having text sex with another woman. That's a whole other thread.
I feel awful.
Dd1 (my gran took her this morning) is 4 and dd2 Is 16 weeks. The timing of this pregnancy was awful. It was not planned and was completely accidental which I take responsibility for. Dp however, blames me and it's all my fault 
I was in tears before I took the tablet but I knew I had to. I am doing this for the 'right' reasons if that makes sense. I just couldn't cope with 3 dcs on my own. I have PND and I'm on anti depressants. I have no support at all from DP I'm actually in the process of leaving him but it's proving difficult. I can't afford another baby.
I have to go back in on Wednesday morning for the internal tablets to complete the abortion. I have to stay in hospital for 6 hours because of the risk of heammorige.
I feel so sick and I have stomach cramps. I keep thinking that I'm a horrible person and that I have taken a life 
I'm crying so I feel pathetic and I'm only halfway through the housework and my landlord is due round for the rent in half an hour. Dd1 will be back at 7 and dd2 is teething so been very upset today.
Dp has lay in his bed all day hungover and is still in his bed now shouting about not being able to smell dinner cooking. I haven't even realised the time
Sorry this sounds stupid I'm all over the place tonight