I don’t want to be here any more. I don’t feel like I love my children. They can do so much better and everyone will be much happier without me around. I don’t feel anything for them whatsoever. No empathy when they’re sad, ill or hurting. I am an awful mother. I wanted them so desperately but I can’t do it any more. I give them a good life, I do everything I’m meant to do for them, they want for absolutely nothing. They’re young enough now not to remember me, hopefully my partner will find someone to step in my place and have support from family to bring them up and show them the love they deserve. I would have loved to be good enough for them but I can’t do it anymore.