I have a long history of anxiety and depression & I don't know how to get help. I don't think my 5 month old loves me as much anymore. I can't play with her or have fun and when I do im just faking it. I feel like a terrible mother. I look horrible im stick thin and lost all my weight because I have terrible eating habits and im breastfeeding. My face is disgusting and pale I think I look like a man I don't understand how I can become so hideous when I know there's times in my life when I thought I was pretty.
I really want to get help but I don't know how to get help I feel like I'm livng inside a dark tunnel that's closing in on me